What do you want?

try try try NEW THINGS - out of comfort zone! know how to give thanks.

2011-01-28T15:54:00.002+08:00

shall i revive the blog?
its a good reminder for things and its faster than writing.

just went for interview for simultaneous intepreter. newfound admiration and respect for those who really are fit for the job.

at least i tried. - consolation!
ms H Gao said i have potential and the way i speak english is not like singaporean english, must have something to do with going abroad. she also said like i've been out and i must have learnt a lot. intepreters need to be very knowledgeable! i know this knowledge cannot be accumulated over days. it must be through months and years of always paying attention! lemme still enjoy my casual intepreting when i do them for foreign friends. YOG times was such a blast. i felt so special, sometimes like VIP, but is zhan bie ren de guang! JAJAA.

in anyway, she told me to grab all opportunites in future and trying is goooood! I NEED TO TRY MORE THINGS.

cuifang said on channel U. (AFTER SICK @ HOME FOR 12 DAYS and its the 15th day since i fell sick: still coughing, i "rediscovered the joys of daytime tv" AH I wanna go home and watch "family honor" but still got one more lesson and its my last sem so i really shd attend school properly and BE a student) yah cuifang said on channel u that this is the new year so take this new time to try new things in this new year.

sometimes i feel tired.
sometimes i feel overwhelmed.
but this long break (after like no break for 7/8 months) made me think about my life. what i do. what i wanna do. what i have been doing. it feels like a blank, but that day i sorta yellowstoned and mexico-ed and reconnected a little bit and it felt so good inside, the simple kind of good to just know people and talk to them and really hear them out. i miss BEING AN EXCHANGE KID and i can just TALK TO ANY FOREIGNERS I WANT. how to make foreign friends/exchange friends in singapore from nowhere? i only have chinese classes so no angmohs in my classes. bank on mb106? jaaa...

but then again, if they are meant to be my friends, they will find me somehow. fate is a mystical event. JAJA. must believe like that. cos cannot qiang qiu and force it!

last sem... last sem to feel like a student. sometimes i just am so intrigued, still drawn by knowledge and interesting things in life. but sometimes i dont want to just spend it all (my time) on myself and learning. im sometimes in the mood to PARTY but no longer are the mexico days... i said maybe should i go gss just now, mama told me to be realistic and 23 yrs old cannot have any dreams (but the dreams part she felt sheepish and laughed sneakily).. i was like, "which mother tells her kids not to have dreams?"

didn't work (survey) ytd, was fb browsing, GA HEE gushing + shinee and new found funny friend: JO KWON of 2am! feeling envious/depressed/guilty/inadequate... shall write to myself. it will all work out. chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi!

GET OUT MORE OF COMFORT ZONE... you never know what u'll discover. now in dilemma for workshop classes to take for dance fiesta! get out of comfort zone and try new places/ DUNNO. but dancing is still good workout. resolution to be fitter and get a more-ready-to-dance BOD! oh man JUST TAKE ALL 4. 4 for 25 bucks, take 3 alr 24 bucks. so if really dont feel like going then dont go la!

i miss my mama so much these days i just wan to keep seeing her and talking to her. im really blessed after all to have pa, ma, bruh & sang and some dear good friends. humans really cannot be greedy ALWAYS! one step by one step. "DREAM BIG. start small."

my random gushings again huh. let it all unfold. 2011, i like you. i must like you first then you will like me. i <3 inspiration from teachers too! wahhhhh! ms H Gao, ms U kwan, mr kd Wong, mr xp Liu though i nv really take your class before! ahhhhhhh. yay yay, inspired then will wanna study. its all for my own good and dont be so superficial and care for things on surface!

learn to give thanks more LAH! appreciate what i have. and i keep thinking i like to live other people's lives when i should just BE MYSELF and LIVE MY LIFE. i realize one thing i hate to go to town all just for one class is like go out one day like that then nv do much. READ? people watch, people watching is fun. RANDOMNESS, PLS HAPPEN MORE IN MY LIFE! JAJA.

THIS IS "thoughts are flyinnnnnnnn post but i just heck care post"!

2010-12-01T19:07:00.005+08:00

I wanna pukeee from all this shit i got myself into -_-\nauseous cos upwellin of disgust at myself... such a self-loathing post.

"unforgivable woman" - what the heck. what kind of name is that for a perfume. right when i am being very unforgivable. so much guilt/disappointment from others, from myself at myself...

i feel like giving up. sometimes i still strive to be better, to make it work somehow.

ONE STEP AT A TIME, jordin sparks just opened her mouth in my mind with those words...

kinda bad to myself huh, first post after so long...

newaysssssss, u never know who u will meet JAJA. i wanna go to africa & londres & costa rica & the caribbean islands! peru - amigo nuevo!, its fun with my family and chatsssss jaja. im blessed.

"There's nothing, Kyla, that a glad heart, can't eventually have, do or become.

Gladly,

The Universe

"The best things in life are indeed free, Kyla, but eventually, so is everything else for those who are happy first."

Be happy about yourself, be happy that you're yourself, be happy for others because others are happy for you. - i came up with something so optimistic? JAJA

chong minmin: believe in destiny loh, no other way for things to go sometimes other than how destiny wants it... (kind of) SUI YUAN/SHUN QI ZI RAN. i look forward to meeting my new friends in life and i <3>

HC360 REPORT HWAITING! SO BLESSED to be under the tutelage of an awesome teacher and humourist/humourer. such a joy to be able to take Lao Da's classes! DO IT WELL, to the best of my abilities! then go home and leave this bloody biblioteca (i like this word, spanish for library)...

to find my hanguk oppa, im going to conquer Korean and improve in Spanish so i dont waste my overseas calls to dominicana. if i have a choice, i want to waste money to baranquilla too... i just want to know how tHEy are doing. im such a stoooopid gurl JAJA. like how either Precious or Treasure says to Cindy in Cinderel-lah! SEBASTIAN IS SO CUTE LA! THE STEPSISTAS ARE HELL LOADS OF FUN!

YAN GE LING also said something like because humans are the worst at understanding themselves. they need literature and dramas to let them know about themselves? i will read more about her. i like being lost in reading about amazing people on Earth. they have absolutely no idea that they'd be where they are before they got to where they are now - inspiration? the hands of destiny bring you where you're supposed to be? so just enjoy every stage huh and be hopeful/positive/enthusiastic/THANKFUL!

THIS IS "thoughts are flyinnnnnnnn post but i just heck care post"!

the humours of life and the joys it bringsss... OUTRAM PARK MRT FRENZY - so glad and thankful i got ribena with me JAJAJA. HER "HOLA BYEBYE" Is damn funny. she can easily become a spanish expert and survive in latin america with me one day? jaja. okie, im not totally gone with hope about life and my future so i will just post a happy picture/one of adventure/joy/wisdom/bliss/self-contentment/self-love? i try to find ah...

dear goddess u put me in this world to learn hor... bosco wong zong zat is so cute & i have yet to be enamorarse! its funny how life can be. one eg is wanting to dress up more lady-like so i get more dances @ salsa and to think i would never like salsa back then. i got a urge to learn bachata but still dont dare jaja. that day we walk past the uncle playing music on the street, i was laughing at the music (no offence to the uncle) then sang scold me then i danced cos super funny then she laughed the hearty kind of laugh jaja. THE WAY CK GORGE HIMSELF IS TOO FUNNY TO BE PUT INTO WORDS ALR.

cinderel-lah... cinderella man jaja. so many and poh hui ask me watch cinderella sister cos got tae cyeon, sibei lame la JAJA. i see yoon-a's nice sling designer bags (those cuts are so chic) and colours are so vibrant and ooooh-so-nice-and-inviting-me-to-buy makes me wanna buy bags again.

CINDERELLA MAN. ABSOLUTE HOTTIE KWON SANG WOO! JAJA.

chanced upon a new blog and spent an hour reading -_- called cupcakesandshoes.blogspot.com. pretty entertaining. someone left this comment on one of her posts: "You can play the games, but know that there is a wonderful, no BS-guy out there for you, you just haven't crossed paths yet." all these experiences be they good or bad, the fun side of life huh? jaja.

i'll save looking for more pics ajja.

if im still in holiday mood? ASPIRING WRITER - YO?

2010-01-29T12:15:00.005+08:00

ahhh by the way, snow white asked me if im stilll in holiday mood? i never thought about it because i thought i really wanted to come back back then and WORK HARD! and all those i learn will be super good for my soul and mind and body. then i realized yahhh maybe slack too long, it's hard to really get back into momentum and have TOO many things to do sometimes ahhhhh. no one can escape the adaptation period part????

writing down so i dont forget!
我觉得时间与时空非常奇妙。当时，你在某个地方做某件事。你想着以后的你会在哪里做什么事。当你从“以后”往回看，你会觉得一切不可思议。有时，事实与你想象的相符合。但是，有时你会发现自己在“以后”所处的地方，正在做的事和之前想的那么不一样，差别那么大。

oh man, was squeezing my brain juice (jiao jin nao zhi) jaja but it feels kinda good. was on http://www.genreality.net/ some days ago (happened to chance on it cos i was googling about Candace Havens (new author i like cos of her Charmed and SOMETHING series) - talked about taking some time off and really look at the things around you. look at how the trees are, how the grass is and every single object. notice the colour the shape or whatever. it will help you think of ways to describe things and bla bla - FOR WRITERS/ASPIRING WRITERS!

IT hit me that it kinda feels like a sign? since i just took lao da's hc312 creative writing workshop. doingggg workkkk. es muy tarde. TIME TO PRACTISE MY SPANISH TOO JAJAJAJAJ.

nana is going to taiwan (nana va a ir a taiwan por su intercambio semestre.) quiero ir tambien, contigo quizas. then i was thinking if i had went to taiwan instead of mexico, i wouldn't hear so much spanish, learn quite a bit and am continuing to learn it right now!!!!!! plus dancing salsa with LATINOS, cubanos!!！ cuba es una experiencia muy differente y muy interesante! sooooooooo it' s all about what's gonna happen will happen? whatever it is, i like it! i need to stop being in control and believing in that helps me relax and knowing sometimes i jus cant beat myself up too much. all i can do is to keep doing my best and know that i have done my best and the rest is all up to U, the U(niverse)!

en Noviembre 2009 tambien!
super fun night with australians, koreans, germans @ Dubai.
Dubai is not normally that fun jajajjajaajajaa.

one of the last few nights in MONTERREY, en Noviembre!
KARAOKE @ La Rambla (LIKE 2 mins walk straight from our house)
with stephan and the friendly mexicans, it was like a pretty magical night AND THERE WAS AMY! JAJAA.

drunk in MEXICO............ up and fresh in LA

gotta get ready for briefing for interview job in NTU soooon!!!! kylala, pls change your late and procrastinator habit! READ MORE! TRY OUT MORE NEW STUFF.

note to self: think of, "Would you join it/go for it if you were abroad/in a foreign land?" If yes, most of the time, do it in Singapore too!

Actually, applaud and hug yourself for joining air show, talking to new friend/surveyor vincent and that landed you your survey job + going to watch cheerleading comp hehhhh + LIANG WEN YIN CAMPUS CONCERT, see ya again tmr night @ Lunar jaa thanks evelyn dtf...

ONE THING LEADS TO ANOTHER! sooooo get out of inertia and JUST DO IT! so goooo and do your survey job later when u come bac from the briefing then at night got air show external performance praccccc... actually im really interested in the phone interview job, but i cant do more slots because of danceeee and its not paid. but then, it's good to get the exposure, to work out and TO DANCE!!!!!!!!

i really enjoyed/ENJOY my time with my uni friendsssssss, BE THANKFUL FOR IT!

stop beating yourself up all the time! don't be too serious, take life lightly! qing yi dian!

2010-01-13T11:53:00.004+08:00

最近比较懒，懒很多，非常懒。（sing to “最近比较烦”）

i don't even want to write. like i will have lotsa thoughts i think i wanna write, but i just won't write it. it could be inertia, and it's just fear that i'm not gonna feel good writing it ahhhhhhhhhhhh. COME ON KYLALA, stop "not doing thingS" and just do what your heart commands, de verdad, en serio, jin jia, hontou ni!!!!!!!!!! sooooo JUST DO IT!

but i did feel quite a lot recently, especially from reaching Dallas onwards.............

(okie go and write in your tinkerbell book if you feel that you need to "do some closure" [hope i used the word "closure" correctly] for your dance experiences, feelings...)

Now, Im thinking:
-> it's such a blessing to have your own house when you can do anything you want and you don't have to feel awkward. its good for you to get such a feeling right now in UCLA bcos it'll make you treasure time at home more! like u just always take things for granted.

>>>> break: (inserts) SAY WHAT YOU REALLY MEAN, really mean what you say. go and feel it horrrr...

-> it's sooo good to be travelling with friends actually. i kinda really miss my dear singaporean housemates. i just need to fill my mind with positive thoughts everytime!!!!!

-> BE OPEN TO THINGS!!!!! its always better to try than not trying at all. new quote from xiaoxia today: "when you give it a try, at least there's hope & miracle might happen. but when u failed to give it a try, there's nothing left for you." BE REMINDED OF IT!

-> I kinda feel that as my days pass, since after mexico, I kinda feel like Im more and more, nearer and nearer to BACK TO NORMAL-DAY LIFE. in UCLA now, in the living room and i sleep on the couch and like they are studying and being online and stuff. it's not like life's a party ALL THE TIME. there are different things for different times so if u ignore it, u'll just be missing out what's presented to you, huh...

GAWSHHHH, blogging is so much faster so it's so much better for me because my thoughts race and race. i should blog more often? well and not neglect hANDWRITTEN old-fashioned traditional journal writing too!

REMIND YOURSELF: write write write, new goal: write in different places!!! U want to know what u did, how u felt when u look back 10 yrs? 20 years down the road??? no se............

sooo kylala, while u're in LA, go and do something instead of trying to stay in most of the time. I really like this quote "there is no such word as "hope". whatever will happen will happen anyway." (or something like that from Intercultural Communication textbook, THE WORD "HOPE" in the tamil language) regardless of if it's really just truth and no exceptions, it does set me heart at peace. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF KYLALA OKIEEEEEE... woahhhh and yesterday when i was waiting for an hour for the flyaway bus @ LAx, it just made me feel that "i really adore doing hard work, being hardworking" after carrying all my 2 dos malletas with me everywhere i go, it's tiring. and thanks for Goruma last night seriously. I just feel so bad easily -_- more like "xu xin" (sheepish)...

mylifeisaverage is really good. i really can't wait to go home buttttttt.... ENJOY IT WHILE IM HERE. remember lennard and his twin saying "since im here just go and look at more things loh." “既然在这里就去咯。” in NYC 的时候！ soooooo have an early night, eat breakfast with EP vo and then hang in the library instead of in the suite and then MOVE TO WHEREVER HOSTEL u may go then JP SAN PEDRO'S dance class in Debbie Reynolds... enjoy your time while u're here, 青春不留白！ tut universe does make me feel better and chatting with fridge friend today made me feel better.

Plus, STOP JUDGING PEOPLE. cos when u do, u keep judging yourself cos it's like a thought pattern!!! i should read more to learn more about life huh... im kinda looking forward to the time when 我能霸占整个客厅，然后当厅长again. It's funny huh, why when you want more interaction with people it doesn't really happen........... "wax and wanes of life"? 一切还是随缘好 + 顺其自然。强求只是自己辛苦而已。

IM Thinking, if im going to revive my blog again, i better start putting pictures. but okie, going the random way is sooo good.

i feel THANKFUL for EP VO, for letting me stay, helping me think of how to make things work so im coming back on fri night and sat night but im goin to move to hollywood for like a few nights. and dontttt worry again about whether will make friends or what or won't or what, SUIYUAN LA....... AND treating me her "swipes" so i could eat for free as well. i will buy you something/treat you to something, trust me!!!!!!!!!!!!

cos mostly, it's like "one thing leads to another". plusssssss, stop beating yourself up all the time, “善待自己啦”，“人生已经不容易”（"life is as tough as it is" -> Lily, Serena's Mum said in gossip gurl season 1, one of the last few episodes, she was talking to Eric, addressing his sexual preference.) KAN KAI YI DIAN 看开一点！SOMETIMES, i have the peace of mind i sorta have when i kinda knowingly know somethings though they are rare and few and short-lived back in Mexico, like acknowledging, trusting, believing that "everything has its own time" “慢慢来，急不来的”...

stop looking outwards, u have read this umpteenth times (it's the fundamental and most basic to <3 size="4">自己帮自己打气，加油，especially when u're sort of by yourself!!!

i've come to realize more and more that life likes to play tricks but this unexpectedness is what should make you enjoy the present, right??? it's what makes life fun? otherwise, it's gonna be more boring jaja. watch it unfold, trust in the Goddess la!!! and in yourself! about Fate and Life!

monsters of hiphop FACULTY presentation/showcase. awesome shitt!

ROCK BAND KIDS/FAMILY JAJA! <3>

pjs fotos-taking session!!!!!!! it was a very warm moment, very warm moments, i should say!!!! i miss you all. and it feels weird and kinda surprising (in a nice way) when you miss people you think you wouldn't. like them And my belurveD HOUSEMATES DE singapur! um, don't be too serious la!!!!! don't search for perfection. at least try! don't expect too much, live simply, 一切会变得比较明朗！think of evelyn saying "think of your mental health" “为你的mental health着想”

have some faith and jus have fun! let it happen. wait and see what happens.

2009-11-08T08:59:00.006+08:00

OMIGAWSHHHH i jus wanna bitch about how envious im feeling right now and im not doing anything so that sucks jaaa. but its sooo weird if i joined them next door...

guess what?

cos there's some kind of party next door and the kids are noisy and laughing and playing. I went out to the balcony and saw this...................

MYGAWSH THAT WAS THE LAST THING I TOT I'D SEE. in the backyard of our neighbour's house.... no wonder they let the superbig-bear-like dog out into the front. cos normally they lock him up at the side gate and he can only be by the side or in the back. but cos of the party, he's now in the front...

SOOO FUN RIGHT JAAAAAAAAAAAA. sooo cute. i was telling cherlyn to look at it and she gave an astonished face too jaa. then i said let's go play with them since cherlyn was like it's sooo fun she wants to play too. then i'm like yah my friend (yu poh hui actually) told me to do what i want cos i dont have much time here and no one will remember me and stuff and then cherlyn went "i'm not stopping u". im like "LET'S DO IT TOGETHER" JAAA then she said "let me eat first la...." jaaa.......

neways i didn't do anything so now im just at home in my room while the rest are out @ carl's junior and they will ta bao for me yay = fish burger. i'm already eating lesser these days. im on a diet and like so many ppl don't believe me jaaa.

i feel kinda bored right now but luckily sean is talking to me online right now. pamela too :)

YESTERDAY was pretty fun i guess. im just tired. Cherlyn and me spent the whole day cooking and sleeping jaaaaaaaaaaaa. sooo lazy right. we woke at like 12.30pm and cooked until almost 2.30pm then Ivan and Maria-chan joined us for lunch jaa. They said it was good. I was pretty amazed it was pretty good. MAMA WILL BE SOOO PROUD OF ME WHEN SHE KNOWS I COOKED. oh man, i realize i should call my parents more often to feel that i'm thankful that they gave me life instead of keep on complaining n stuff.

Last night the party we were like cheated of our money, Sean's event. sooo funnaye. It's the first time someone did the greeting without me knowing so the side of the person's face crashed on my nose and deflated it jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

On the other hand, dance opportunity. Got me sooo excited. Oh ya, watching the break during the Borregos game last night = made me miss performing sooo much. "I FEEL IT IN MY FINGERS..." (the Love Actually song jaa). Got me sweaty and nervous n I wanted tooo dance so badly.

Okie but for the dance thing, just sui yuan bei jaaa. I keep saying it but I never really do it at times jaa. Who knows what will happen in the future. Don't get my hopes too high and be thankful there might actually be a chance jaaa. Jason's class @ his studio was pretty tiring. Repeating it and the front part im always, repeat: ALWAYS LOST! jaaaaaaaaa. soo funny, then this cute gurl was like "kyla, ur place is here." (in the centre of the gurls for that part). I think she buay tahan (couldn't take it) seeing me gabra or like unsure where to stand and blocking everyone's way jaa. Robertoooo was soooo funnaye, he's like he feeds on reggaeton music, he wanna SHAKE IT JAAAAA. sooo cute. i didnt' know he's just a few months younger. Thanks Marcela for saying he'll intro his friends to me when we go to cancun at the end of the year... Okie, dun believe it yet but just give him the benefit of the doubt. I've learnt not to trust everything might happen then end up feeling disappointed jaaa...

Ivan is sooo funnaye, keep saying thank you jaaaaaaa. HE'S SOOO ASIAN. ricky is sooo nice jaa. but the farkin tech raza, so full of people and all the BORREGOS PEOPLE SOO BIG SIZE. I COULDN'T BREATHE LA. holding a bag somemore... my coat too jaa (eee my poor coat, got beer now, dunno which toopid went to spray beer on everyone at one shot.) the martinis' effect on me was pretty long actually so i felt soooo tired jaa.

Okieeee, about next door. Stop moping around jaa. Be happy that there are soo many cute things in the world. Having fun is the most important right? Haruka's bday later jaaaaaaa. Hope it will be fun? Then maybe, just maybe we might go to Dubai with the borregos.

OH MY GAWSH, I JUS REMEMBERED SOMETHING LAST NIGHT AND I ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO CROON. baby DJ is sooooooooooooooo cute la. Ricky so funny, said "We call him little ball, he doesn't move and is just like waiting for people to take him and lurve him jaaa..." NO WONDER KIDS ARE CALLED "bundle of joys". Ahhhh I miss my SIMS AT HOME.

FAITH... trust in fate jaa. trust in the goddess. jus go with the flow huh... JUST HAVE funnnnn...
reminder: watch the future unfold. don't expect too much or dont expect anything? when it comes least expected, all the more the joy will be multiplied hehhhh :D

SOME RANDOM PICS.

with sashi. thanks for lending me the bunny furry scarf again jaa. it kept me really warm jaa. i had fun with you @ sakuran bo. we should hang out again jaa. playing the violin issss sooo cool. actually i wanted to learn the violin many years ago when i jus entered teenagedom, it was because of hanazawa rui in HANA YORI DANGO. cos he plays the VIOLIN SOOOO FINELY, SO BEAUTIFULLLY it's unbelievable jaa.

a long time ago jaa. i really liked my hair that day.
oxxo was our dinner that day before the soccer match we were going.

24 oct 09' (sat) one pic from the TEQUILA TOWN when we went to GUADALAJAJA (it's guadalajara actually jaa). i jus lurved that trip soooo much jaa. cos the guide was really good and i have learnt to appreciate tequila jaa. and then i remembered the production of other stuff and they were all grown from hard work... so appreciate them...

i lurved the lunch @ 56 (this mexican cai fan place) with the koreans jaa. poor hyeon U oppa's head was covered by maria jaaa. YAY SO HAPPY FOR FREE POSTRE (dessert) - the yellow card they gave me jaaa. that's woon ha oppa by the way. an escape from dance heh. so tired mah... on last Thu (oct 29 09')...

30 Octubre 2009 (FRI)
HAPPY LUNCH IN SCHOOL.
i was sooo happy jaaaa cos it was with foreigners and we had fun in the cold!

that's ALDO (yesh his name is Aldo), maria-chan so cute with a fork in her mouth, she had no idea she did that jaa... my lunch.... SALAD JAA. and arizona te verde (green tea)...

shingo..... jumbo size. such a big bowl of salad and he could finish it jaaaaaaa.
the master, the wise master actually. breakdance expert. life expert heh xp

random jaaa... went to visit Nat cos she was "coughing myself to death" (according to her). SHE'S SOOOOCUTE JAA... and ROCK BAND 初体验 SUPER FUN LA JAAA. no wonder one can really keep one entertained if they have music in their lives and not to forget, GAMESSSSS!!!!!!

SHE'S SOOO GOOD at music!

OKIE, time to catch up on some translating for the transcript and NARUTO MANGA! and maybe Gossip Gurl. plus party later. wonder how the night will turn out!

by the way, i really lurve this coat of mine i bought for about 30 bucks sing dollars and it's got an ESKIMO-LIKE HOOD JAA. furry XD but the fur sorta made me choke one time in class when i used it to cover me jaa and the hood with the fur was soooo near my face jaa.

they didn't forsake me. i still have myself. LURVE MYSELF LA. love life, and life will lurve u back.

2009-11-03T13:40:00.005+08:00

oopsy forgot to add what i read and want to learn and remember frm Wu Ji Zun's blog!

"We should learn to Forgive n Forget, we should 包容 each other and we should be generous...You know what? Seeing others Happy is a state of Contentment, isnt it?Life is NEVER about being 'Calculative'! Well, this is how I feel... Honestly, I am really GRATEFUL that a huge portion of my supporters are really understanding and faithful. I can see it, i can feel it and i really appreciate it deep down inside my heart! I can feel that many of you 'just' want me to be happy no matter what and vice versa. Likewise, i also want to see u all happy!"

-im not that much a supporter of his but i really对他刮目相看after one TW variety show hosted by Patty. It was some interview for FRH then he was being really positive and has a great attitude about life then i check out his blog.

oh man, why are my SENTENCES underlined? I sorta know what I did to make it like that but i have no idea how to make it go away. Oh well jaa啊。 Oh there's another blog I READ TOO. She's Queen, 女王！ I am Queen - 無名小站 GO AND FIND HER BLOG. I LAZY to go the page and copy the link, next time. Yay the lines are gone jaa. Something else by Wu Ji Zun 吴吉尊haha. so cute right, this name. Da dong calls him that. Oh man, maybe I shd go back to being a fan gurl, at least I feel alive and like they are so positive. Arron was like saying it's really up to fate about relationships cos like sometimes u know a gurl too much (he was referring to GuiGui) you just become brothers and it's nothing romantic. He still thinks gurls should be more mysterious - potential gurlfriends for him jaa. I think it's cos they have so many fans out there. They have GOT TO BE POSITIVE TO BE A good influence. Otherwise, all the teenage gurls - their parents wouldn't let them support them? Ja.aa.

sO IT'S like 连他们都没有哈哈，也觉得应该随缘。郭品超也曾经说过这样的话。 :)
更不用说，我的大东也是！这么爱妈妈！因为他失去爸爸。:(

Today is The Day of the Dead (Nov2), a celebration for the Mexicans. But it's like our 扫墓节（sweep graves day) QING MING JIE 清明节！I missed Jemaluang and my relatives there jaaa. So nice for me to eat the buns. I was only eyeing the buns. Teacher Lupita says Mexicans put the favourite food of their dead relatives on their graves and I realized for us it's more like different food, got roast chicken. I have no idea if it's what they liked before they died. There's wine too. Others eyed the roast chicken jaaa. So I was telling Cherlyn if I die, it will just be vegetables （Im thinking now that so maybe it's like nobody will be interested to come and sweep my grave?) wHat AN interesting thought right? jaaa. Cherlyn just said Ngok Fung's will be full of hamburgers jaaa. I said I think he will want the Carl Junior's Star sign jaaa.

From now onwards, I will go always when I can to Jemaluang. Cos family is soooo important. Don't take them for granted. If not when they are gone, you will regret. Reminder to self and others.

O hwell, wadever, but it's good to be positive after all. Jaaa. You don't hate the world. I stil have much to learn... Simple life ahh. 陶渊明！tao yuan ming. Used to be my favourite guy in the world jaa.

Neways, something else by Wu Ji Zun. 吴吉尊。我喜欢看到他的英文名和中文名together! (ahhh i want to put some photos to add some colours and images to this imageless blog. i wouldn't say colourless cos my fonts are always full of colours.) So weird for me to feel like blogging. Bcos I have a partial exam tomorrow and I haven't studied yet!

i miss listening to Zhou Chong Qing周崇庆on 93.3 FM!

“Quote to share: - The way to happiness: keep your heart free from hate, your mind from worry. Live simply, expect little, give much. Fill your life with love. Scatter sunshine. Forget self, think of others:-) Remember...Happiness doesn't depend upon who you are or what you have; it depends solely on what you think! Try this for a week and you will be surprised :-)”

Another reminder to self. 所以不能强求！李布衣(read in cantonese) jaa, then wil have the feel. Um, so while I can, enjoy now and treasure the times I have. 不同人不同命！不同的际遇。So if it's not mine, it's not mine. If it's mine, it is. 跑不掉。Can't run away. Everything is like that I guess jaaa.... 既来之则安之。Ngok Fung said "It will be good if you don't ask for too much" after I said "Wish November will be a good month jaa." Okie la, October not that bad. It's Mama's and Evelyn's bday and I had some really nice days actually. Life is just a journey, after all. Pam: "this is part of life".... Yesh everything is part of life. So be broad-minded!

Okie I will put some pics after all jaaaa.

ZACATECAS PICS (early Oct）

i really like this pic jaaaaa.

maria-chan and me and the flower.

exciting day of PAN (bread)

LAST tue dinner with sashi :)
Sashi reminded me of Sasha jaaa. :))))

Today, we learnt in class jaaaa, Mexican Culture class that the dead go to 4 different places. One of them is Cihuatlampa - for women. It's superrrrrr crude the way I remember it but I tot of remembering it as "See wa eh lam pa" JAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

By the way, my 自修书(self help book) (by the way I just realized i prefer them to be called 自修书, which means self-improvement, for self-upgrading and being better rather than SELF-HELP. hELP = u need help, u have problems. But for 自修，it's just you want to improve yourself and become better jaaa. There is no inadequacy, you just merely want to become better jaaa. I think it's like that)... Oh ya, it said that 多愁善感的人比较容易沉寂在悲伤里。something like that. guess im still 多愁善感。haaa. sighing, moaning, depressed jaa. oh well, that is gonna change from now on. I only live once right, why am i feeling sad that i feel right. Just try to feel happy more often. Be thankful that I have ittttttttt. Cos Goddess 没有忘记我！Fate too! They didn't forsake me! 老天待我不薄 i guess jaaaa. Not feeling anything is a feeling too, ain't it? Mr Pan's class la. All the 语言学！疯掉！i think 小潘潘是“爱疯了”haaa. Penny Dai's song. Xiao Pan Pan just lurves what he does soooo much. I really like this song.

Plus the PCD pUSSy cat dolls' song "HUSH HUSH" IS SOOOO NICE. Georgia issss sooo funnaye. Just enjoy what you get. Don' resist it, dont reject it. 用心感受快乐。幸福感！Everything to be experienced, to be felt. S.H.E. "痛快“。去感受吧。Whatever happened to "体验人生".

time to stop mop

2009-11-03T12:04:00.003+08:00

I really lurve salsa I think...

I could feel like I was all dancy and all professional and felt like Yan Qing maybe? Ja. I tot of Serene Lim and her expression when she dances, not sure how to describe but like some kind of self satisfaction, I dunno? My partner kept smiling or he'd smile really wide sometimes, like he really enjoys JAAAAAA. i CANT HELP BUT WANT TO GIGGLE when i see him do that. HOWWWWWWW... jAAA. i will forget the mean thing he said jaaa. Pam sooo funnaye, said he's sure he's gay. Cos a heterosexual man would not do that. So mean too jaaa. I have no idea. Woah, Pam it's time I sent you the funny email jaa. I will write here what you funnily told me. Lurve you, Pam jaaa.

"love u too grace! i like to say that to ppl and i like to hear that too he
*heee
i miss all my close friends! i wish u and eve were here
ok forward the thing to me later and i will have a good laugh haha."

But I accidentally hit my partner's head with an elbow and for exaggeration purposes, he flew off jaaaaaaaaaaa... He said "It's my bad". It's true jaa. Cos he said he looked at the mirror while i was turning thats why he got hit. JAAAAAA. Gilberto laughed at us too. Neways, Cherlyn and Lennard laughed.

I told Lenny and Cherlyn this cos Lenny was saying "I was hit by the most aggressive old man in muay thai". JAAAA.

“他跟我笑笑然后我就被打了。”or something like that. It just means he was smiley and smiled at me then the next second I was hit.

Give thanks for today:
Sooo happy to see Sean jaaaaaaaaaaaaa. He was like "When are we going to the movies?" "Nat says my "staying alive" joke wasn't funny at all". He walked his FAST WAY with his long legs and saw me and gave me a sudden, tight hug jaaa. It was a gooood shock. It's like Nat told him about what I said about me liking them and wanting to hang out and trying to find excuses and stuff. And they will ask me out when they're doing something soon jaa. Then I just told her about Sean just now and she was saying they were telling a friend about me and she wants to meet me too. Cos our meeting was really random and yesh, this incident made me believe in fate. I really had fun that day. Though it was just taking a cab to Soriana, walking around in Soriana (buying stuff) then walking to the cineplex, it was reallllyyy funnaye. It kinda felt like Yellowstone laughing times. It was pure laughter and that kind of good feeling is sooo good.

Ooops, must remember this something I read about somewhere about a jewellery chest 珍宝箱。I can call it jewellery box but I think jewellery chest is nicer. I have a pendant like that too - like a treasure chest 绮丽的颜色。亮晶晶的。Remember the magical-ness of the world? Jajaaa... Oh ya, it said that keep a jewellery chest. Keep good, nice memories in them. Whatever that made you feel good. Experiences often keep you happy longer than just things. So, write them down and when u're down, open that jewellery chest and think about whatever is in it. But one has to be careful about it, cos if you repeatedly think about one all the time, you get sick of it. So, you must rotate the things, switch them so you can view them with renewed energy and fresh outlooks jaa... Refreshing then they will be...

The staying alive joke was a car was very near to me while we were crossing the road. Then he went "Don't get yourself killed." After a while, he sang "STAYING ALIVE, staying alive". oMIGAWSHHHH, 笑到爆！jaaaaaaa... It was totally random and I still took a few moments to understand jaa.

Then they were buying milk from Soriana's and (i jus lay on the table holding my stomach in convulsing laughter cos i recalled how it was like about the cups). They bought cups jaaaaa. They took 2 each, 1 of 2 different kinds. Also, at first Sean went to the milk section and took one BIG one, the 1 litre kind and acted like drinking it jaaaaa. They got the cups and I asked them why they cant just drink the milk (they settled on small bottles) from the bottle directly. Sean, "Cos Nat has to be so special about how she eats things. She's going to dip cookies jaaaaa. Sean also said "Yah, Im just going to say I lurve cups, so what?" JAAA. Cos they were going to bring the cups in. When we were going to pay up jaaa, Sean asked how much those 2 cups cost jaaa. JAA, when they realized one was much cheaper than the other S just left the more expensive ones somewhere beside that counter we were at. JAAAAAAA. Super funnaye that action. KINDA Awkward but he still went with it jaaa.

So, 30th Oct (last Friday) was a good day after all. Lunch with Maria-chan, Shingo Mama the wise master and 2 other Mexican friends was goooood... Yay I feel like Im on exchange when Im with foreigners jaa. Come on, Kylala, just enjoy whatever comes your way. If not, you'll be missing out on the chance to savour those happy moments. Someone once said, "Like your life, then life will like u back." I realize I'm sooo close-minded all this while. Disregarding whatever I have in each moment, unlike the past when I was all about "experiencing everything". Whatever kind of experiences, I look forward to collecting them jaaa. So I was truly happy back then despite feeling down less times. It's time I went back. 或许当初的是最好的。Who says you must evolve, you must change as you age? Jaja. I dunno... Whatever works, I guess. These days, I think too much. I want to deny that I have bipolar disorder. Okie, stop thinking about it. It's cos I'm really 多愁善感。 It's really about perception jaaa.

So, kylala, just enjoy what you get. I'm starting to read Wu Ji Zun's 吴吉尊 blog again jaaa. Simple way of living. Contentment is sooo important. People always say, those self help books say "活在当下，知足常乐”。Live in the moment, if u're contented, u'll be happy often jaaa. Okie, I used to really be able to do it, that explained how happy I was. oh-so-dear Yellowstone is the example. Sometimes these days, the memories in Yellowstone seem less clear and vivid but certain scenes I still remember. I even recall how some smells are like. That explains why I was asking our NFF (new found friends), Cher, Jin when we were at the HOUSE, 教练的家。我想说墨西哥人读不懂中文，但那是假的哈哈。因为墨西哥人读得懂。很多墨西哥人学中文哈哈。你会吓到。YUP, cos i smelt something that smelt like JDW's and Drew's cologne actually. So it was really nostalgic for me to smell that smell jaa.

I really should remember the happy parts and learn for it. Actually, being a kid and myself was what made me sooo happy I guess jaa. All these days, thanks Poh Poh Hui, Jen and Pam sooo much. Of course, my mama, papa, Sang and KELVIN BRUH TOO JAAAA!

Remember again, "Happy people don't necessarily have everything, they just make the most out of everything." And "it's not what the circumstances are that make you feel happy or sad, it's what you think of the circumstances, how to react to it that determines how u feel." Happiness is a choice, people say. Actually yesh... Plus my tendency to overthink all the time. And I suddenly realize it's like everything is 意识形态。Remember how enlightened and confused at the same time I was back in last semester when I took all those courses about thoughts. It was pretty scary, feeling everything that I once believe dismantle and deconstructed and I dont know what to believe. That's why, without having things I believe in, I was lost. Imma work on that.

真的，要相信缘分。Knowing Sean and Nat is really 缘分哈哈。And everything is really unexpected. I had no idea things will be like this when I was still in Singapore. So everything, just let time tell. Haha, wait and see what happens jaa. Sometimes, I gotta 佩服我自己when I'm more positive... So try try try, don't give up. In my dream last night (i rarely have dreams or even when i have them, i dont rmb them), I actually remembered someone saying "不要轻言放弃，否则对不起自己". It was what Xiaoxi, Angela Zhang's character in MVP 情人 would always say. Such an old show. So in my dream, it was like Xiaoxi with her 2 blond braids saying that, but I felt that I was at home and Sang said it too.

I had never thought about having hope and faith in the past. When I was younger, if I got to eat and got to watch my shows, listen to my songs, laugh out loud a lot (when it's really funny) with my friends and family and collect all the joyous and wonderful memories, I'd be happy enough. That's why I always looked forward to returning to Msia cos it was sooo much fun with my relatives and to travel I guess. I lurve road trips, MAYBE THATS WHY I really like to sit in cars jaaa. Oh ya, and if i got to dance, PERFECT. simple yet happy life jaaa. I'm glad for my childhood, my 20 yrs. Really thankful. 长大了，贪心了。难怪我会说我是翻了。小的时候更象老人，欲望很少。然后有的玩，有的吃就开心到爆了。这就是所谓的“要求很低”。所以说，随缘！啊哈哈。

But it dawned on me when I was locking the gate before salsa today that I'm sooo young, Im overseas for an exchange. I should go searching for the joys and what young people do, have fun and be happy jaaaa. If not why did i come here? Did I come here to mope? Remember ABUNDANCE! I should really go to a salsa club soon! Yup make a lot of friends, that's what I read in Chong Min's texts jaaa.

I've been listening to my LG cell phone, mp3 player all this while while I'm blogging. Niceeee jaaa. I still lurve Chinese songs the best I think. I should go and watch Kang Xi Lai Le and catch up on KO One 终极一班！to remember to take life less seriously and just have fun jaaaa. Collect the various joys and experiences in lifeeeeee. Life is soooo broad, so wide, so abundant. Be open to whatever that comes! Unexpected future jaa!

When very angry, count to 4. When very very angry, swear

2009-11-02T11:56:00.002+08:00

I lurve my campus.
The trees, the night, the starsss...
The grass, the nicely-cutout paths...

I really should dance more, Shingo is right.
Someone said "Do not dance with just your feet, dance with your heart."
Thanks for Maria in my life XD random sentences these are.

Yesterday night (Halloween= was a super random night and I had no idea i'd ever go there jaa) kinda felt like Yellowstone, bits of pieces of it. Sometimes, out of nowhere, I´d be hit by mini pangs of nostalgia. How I still miss you so I guess, Yellowstone. But I think of you less often.

After all, Im soooo thankful I still have Yellowstone, that you gave me Yellowstone. My parents and brother and friends are far away from me now, but at least they are still there. There for me no matter what. So you have to remember... Remember how it was when you felt all alone and there is no one else... I read my texts and it felt sooooooo good. It´s all about self-contentment (as what oh-so-dear jenny said) and confidence and patience. Im definitely not alone!

Plus, thanks Pam for the short-lived cha.t. To be continued... Just being able to tell someone else, I felt better xD

This is very useful.
"When very angry, count to 4. When very very angry, swear." JAAAA by ho no I cant rmb who, but someone famous nonetheless.

maybe it'll all make sense. DON'T THINK TOO MUCH.

2009-10-13T14:37:00.001+08:00

命運
就是你往往不知道下一秒會發生什麼奇蹟

~泡芙~

from a comment from Queen's blog...

i still don't feel that i'm here.
weird...

maybe it'll all make sense in future.
DON'T THINK TOO MUCH HOR...

ahhhhh really just wait and see what happens.

HIT WITH A BOUT OF HOMESICKNESS or maybe i should say bouts. yesterday and today. but didn't get to cry. should have... ahhhhhhhhh... i need to watch more shows hor! thanks cher-cherlyn and jinnnnachan... but i think i should have cried when the feeling was there. but i know u two truly cared... so thanks :)

its only when i'm homesick that i realize i really do lurve my friends n family and how much they mean to me... reminds me of the time right before hc332 war and memory in china exam. i was really gonna gooo crazy man, thanks sang for asking me to cycle to Prime mart to meet her and it was some kind of distraction and I felt sooo much better!

SHORTEST POST EVER JAJA.

my dear frens + yellowstone never fails me!

2009-09-22T12:54:00.003+08:00

okie i won't talk much about NOW now, i just wanna say i feel better haha.

I'm here to engrave 2 beautiful moments in cyberspace and may blogger never fail me... (i'm saying beautiful moments cos i once posted long ago about an email "beautiful moments'> these aren't exactly like that but they are very unexpected and they are nice things people say about me to me! :)

Here goes...

Jing's first... :)))))))))))))) smiles many many much much!

"i tink after gt u e clique become even more gt fun we laugh even more le lo"

9/12/2009 4:42:48 PM Jing~~.............. should she still continue it? AHHH let's see what happens! suiyuan bei.
“coz u always have tt veri happi n bubbly aura like tt...den pple ard u oso will get influenced by u.. “

9/12/2009 4:43:55 PM Jing~~.............. should she still continue it? AHHH let's see what happens! suiyuan bei.
“u n nana abit alike...veri happy-go-lucky and bubbly...and veri simple...even e things u all worry abt oso veri simple den u 2 oso veri true abt it...and sometimes make u 2 look veri cute"

"yea!!..i oso tok 2 mayb angel n tingting e least...but wen dey nt dere someone surely will ask...like nw it has become like we all will look out 4 each other like tt lo "

9/12/2009 4:47:38 PM Jing~~.............. should she still continue it? AHHH let's see what happens! suiyuan bei.
"no la i meant wat i said...mayb u don feel wat u make pple feel...but its realli like tt lor "

9/12/2009 4:47:56 PM Jing~~.............. should she still continue it? AHHH let's see what happens! suiyuan bei.
" u and nana both veri funny and happi 2 haf ard
tts y sometimes u find u and nana become e pple we all like 2 disturb most "

9/12/2009 4:49:20 PM Jing~~.............. should she still continue it? AHHH let's see what happens! suiyuan bei.

"its a good thing!! pple will nv nv feel any pressure bein ard u
i tink u and nana r e kind of pple who like wen wif u no need 2 tink hard 2 find wat 2 say one tt kind lo "

LUIS ALFONSO PALOMINO TIME!!!!! :D

luis alfonso says:
and of course there I met beautiful people, like you, sasha, Ira, Casey....

i think it's all cos i miss dance! dear marsella! suiyuan bei. says:
AWHHHHHHHHHHH u said i'm a beautiful person

i think it's all cos i miss dance! dear marsella! suiyuan bei. says:
yesh sasha is very beautiful too aha

luis alfonso says:
because you are

luis alfonso says:
I was so happy when Estephania (the mexican girl) came to me and gave me your note

luis alfonso says:
it was cute

写那么多的纸条，我们（evelynand me)真的是用心良苦。想到手就酸哈哈。
那天，真的是难过到整个人要爆炸了，喷出来的都是血和泪！糟糕，太夸张了哈哈。

okie tata, i'm in an upload pics on facebook frenzy now! once i'm in motion, i keep moving! ah presentation - history! about 10 mins each. 讲那么多话！又不知道要讲什么。哈哈，好好笑呵。

我们回到家了，我开心。
今天多亏余（鱼）宝宝，我听到93.3FM 的夜！夜！夜！ yay!!!!!!!!!!! haha,
哇劳，我的妈呀，听到周重庆的声音时我真的是雀跃万分！

this is what exchange made me miss:
93.3fm, zhou chong qing and my belurved people that i lazy to type out HAHA. and of course FOODDDDDDDD and campus concert (like i was telling sharon song/rotten cabbage owner/snow white), mooncake (ker shin jie jie told me to fly back to msia to eat!)

啊，但是我没有那么讨厌墨西哥市啦。只是我太累了。我喜欢可以围围巾！爽爽(song song)就带个小beanie (maybe i can call it a 豆豆？）哈哈啊。

在返回我美好的家时，我说我用我手机的电灯来读我的历史notes,尼可拉斯说：“真的是用心良苦啊。”哈哈哈。忽然想起antony pau sheung tung 说的好笑的事（他说太多了！）：“lenny一直被kidnap, 他被kidnap的次数很多！” cos lennard would be missing frm time to time HAHA.

okie back to fotos-uploading fest! I THINK I MISSED DANCE TOO + PMS + TOO TIRED, so = bad mood in mexico city but i really don' hate it tat much. it wasn't too good, neither was it too bad! 学会随缘，顺其自然！不要只挂在嘴边！

chal ja for now! ann yong! renee tot i was frm south korea too. feels nice to be put together as the koreans haa.

how to live in the present haa. soccer won salsa.

2009-09-12T05:01:00.010+08:00

Today, we cooked fried rice again. The 2nd time! Thanks Cherlyn for saying the garlic I chopped looks nice or something like that and I thanked her. Ah makes me think of mama who says that too, except sometimes it's too fine haha. It's been long since I helped mama cook at home cos it has been so hectic sometimes and I'm not often home at tat time when she cooks!

(I realize it's a different me when I write in Mandarin instead of English hee. I kinda like it :) )
今天本来想和妈妈通电话，虽然我九点多醒了，但是始终起不来。已经好几次这样了。哈哈。可是前几次都不行因为早上10点（新加坡晚上11点，也是妈妈和我约的时间）我都得出门去办visa这个他妈的鬼东西哈哈。哈哈，choy,不该让说鬼，开个玩笑okie?。

下个星期我们会去mexico city，因为9月16日是墨西哥的国庆日，之放一天假。星期五除了尼可拉斯之外，我们都没有课。所以我们星期二晚上搭巴士去（12小时），星期天傍晚搭返回蒙特里(Monterrey)。我不是特别的期待，因为我很懒。但是，我想我来到这么远了不去看看奇特、没有去过的地方怎么可以呢？那我只会在浪费我在这里的时间哈哈。成功说得好，我在世界的外一个尽头。我不会在这里一辈子，十二月多就要回了。

Neways I was saying last night I'm tired to travel alot at one shot haha. Then 成功 Jose said,

"Hey cmonn
you're young
you are in a country almost on the other side of the globe!
and not enough time!"

inserts: Cherlyn was telling her fren that a fren of hers (Jimmy) said the kettle calling the pot black ha. I remembered just now when we were cooking, I was changing the plastic bag of the dustbin and I said "the holes have many plastic bags"> HAHAA. one of the rather often times when i absentmindedly talk and my mind is warped - either bcos of not enough sleep or too much sleep ah. i slept til almost 1pm today haa. slept at 230am though haa.

and he also said，

"thats part of change
you need to experience new things
new scenaries
different cultural context
find your self in problems
then manage to figure things out"
and that's why he likes to do solo travelling but he admits too that mexico isn't a good place for a girl to do solo travelling haa.

糟糕，我已经忘记我本来要写什么了哈哈。管他的哈哈！

哦，不如写写我对Monterrey的感受吧哈哈。我未曾真正想过，只是有忽然涌现的念头哈啊，来也匆匆，去也匆匆的感受哈啊。

但是，这几天，我有想念家人和朋友啦哈哈。啊，对于天气，又是很热时还会在心里念os (i meant to say i will like scold in my mind/heart how frustrating it is, fark shit it, bloody or wad haha) but the good thing is THE CLOTHES WILL DRY. and i've come to realized i really care about this very much. i hate having not enough clothes to wear since i already have very little haha. But I attained the Borregos shirt frm going to support the game in San Antonia, Texas so I was happy about that haha. One more shirt to dance hiphop in haa.

But in the past week, it would rain some days and it's nice hah! Cos it's cooler but the thing is THE CLOTHES WON'T DRY! So I think I kinda like Monterrey. But when people ask me, I won't say I ABSOLUTELY LURVE IT that kind of thing haha! Oh well, we also had Asians dinner ytd and I liked it haha. I like hanging out with Maria, Woon Ha, Tae Hee, talking or looking at Hyeon U Jeon talk ahaa.

I miss my uni clique they all. Heard that some of them going on Instep and feel a bit sad cos will be little people when I return next sem. But it's still good for them to go and play haha.

And what Amber said is sooo true. 总是等到要离开时才开始珍惜。在黄石，我唯一的后悔只是没有那么多videos 但我真的是享受了很多时光。玩得很尽兴，所以到了极致，所以最后才会那么想念，那么舍不得。哈哈，我得学会珍惜哦。今天，我在网上search for "how to enjoy life" and "how to live in the present". All the quotes 又让我比较positive. Ah,我总是想太多。得学会真的顺其自然，随缘　all over again. 虽然现在好像不想，管它啦哈啊。One of the quotes I read: "

Okie, I'll just update more pics then haa!

The day we went to the Garcia Caves.
15 Aug 09' (Sat)

I kinda felt like it was too touristy, too many people, 那个地方不再神圣了哈。但是当我看到那些很长很长的oh shit i forgot wad it's called, those icicles thing, 我又有点amazed到！Oh well, I guess at least we did something and they are memories after all haha. I was emo-ing on the bus and cried about Yellowstone HAHAHA. Listenin to songs and blah aha. And maybe also bcos I keep having this impression in my head that nothing can be comparable to YELLOWSTONE ahha. i shd ditch it soon. but then the grutas de garcia isn't that impressive laa haha. & also party bcos the GUIDE SPOKE IN SPANISH. they don't have english tours! (at least not for us that day)

cable car! but there's a path u can take to climb up and down u know. or rather i should say walk/hike up and down. so scareye, u could see the people like ants frm the cable car below you scrambling up and down HAHA.

outside, before we went into the caves.

think of this without the lights. then the guide proudly pressed some switch and the lights came on and it was kinda cheesy AHHHA. i think this is kinda lame. no offence but really ahha. oh well hah see sneaky cherlyn and me up there haa.

this is one i think is pretty awesome though haa. i like the different tints of colour here and there in landforms. cos the irregular pattern of the spots that have colour make it look so natural and real.

i really like this pic ahhaa.

We were out of the caves and we were waiting while the rest looked at possible souvenirs to collect haa. Cherlyn outside giving out hand sanitiser - them q-ing up haha, i made them do that and i took the pic haha. Poor nicholasi got stung by a bee!

Post grutas de garcia = We ate at Manhattan's, this diner/restaurant near our house, like a birthday dinner for Cherlyn - her bday is on 16 Aug 09'.

playing Jenga before our food arrived.
MEXICANs' concept of time - we have to wait for like at least 15 mins/20 mins FOR each meal in restaurants! for taco places, it's much faster haha but still like 5 to 10 mins at least haa.

i like this pic of me and cherlyn.
THE FOOD. THE curly fries is nice!

Fried rice by Cherlyn and me on 17 Aug 09' (monday)

but we didn't take any pics of us cooking fried rice today aha.
well good attempt haa though i really really prefer mama's fried rice.

AFTER our introduction to mexican culture class ended (only class on Mons and Weds, frm 430-6pm)

BUBBLE TEA IS NOT A MYTH!

cos i told them i saw people holding cups with black pearls in them. they said how is it possible. and i went okie maybe it was an illusion. sooooo, when we walked past a tapico pearl house or something like that, I WAS SOOO AMAZED! In Singapore sometimes, it's not always that I'd wanna drink BBT, mostly I drink it when i see it. But here, maybe it's cos I crave for Asian food, Chinese food, mama food sometimes, any kind of relation to my hometown food (i like to have a hometown so i think i can call singapore my hometown right now) IS ABSOLUTELY LURVELY! hahaa. So we drank. But it's 34 pesos AH! around 3.60 sing dollars but here, i realize im so willing to spend on food haa.

i always take pics alone i guess. sometimes it's cos i really wanna record that moment of me in that moment and with whatever things i'm holding. but sometimes it's cos i don't feel close enough with ppl to initiate taking pics with them. it shd get better, cos r/s with people get better over time :)

the facebook quiz says i'm a loner. and i choose to walk alone or go out alone (very very rare) and i sat by myself while watching The Time Traveller's Wife cos i just felt like it and maybe i felt like crying and don't want other ppl to be beside me when i cry? haha. Well about going out alone sometimes, smetimes it's cos of dance and i have to walk home myself. though i know i'll be even more in my own thoughts, but it's not as bad these days than in the past haha. and my own thoughts can be negative or they can be positive. or sometimes i listen to songs and can sing along to them or i jus try to ponder about what are the amazing things or interesting things (haha. it's amazing cos sometimes i think iwon't be interested at all or wad but then sometimes i'm still amazed.)

they went out to eat, at Valle oriente. i have the whole house to myself again, i admit i kinda like it haha. then i have salsa class at 8pm to 9pm. there's a soccer match that some mexican frens are playing, but also at 8pm to 9pm. HAHAA. so i wonder which one i'll choose to go in the end. cos i paid for my salsa class alr, around 140 sing dollars for the entire semester. i have salsa 3 classes on mon, wed and fri. 8 to 9pm each time. next week i'll have to miss wed and fri's class cos we're going to mexico city. and for the past 4/5 lessons, i've been reaching the place at 830pm haa. i jus always had some work to finish up and by the time i leave the house, more time has passed by HAHAA.

OKIE, i gotta read more on "how to live in the present" and maybe continue one of my doramas or read manga. more pics in future! my mind is not that tired but i think my body still is, frm the 4 days of dancing haa. plus alot of mosquitoes keep flying around my seat and it's frustrating me haa. i think cos no one else is at this dining table we named THE TABLE OF KNOWLEDGE with all our laptops aha. normaly i don't get bitten that much and the rest will always complain about their bites. but now no one is here, the mosquitoes have no one else to feed on except me.

post-tech raza on 22 Aug 09' (fri)
tech raza is a club very near our place haa.
plus that's when i got the inspiration to do what i did for poh poh hui cos i liked my makeup that day aha.

27 Aug 09' (Thu) - poh hui's bday date haa.
this is also pre-texas trip day. we left for texas on a bus late at night.

oops and i almost forgot these few pics.
i ordered strawberries and cream frm Zumba, this neighbourhood fruit drinks place and i tot it was some milk shake thing and i got a big shock when i saw this haa. cos i heard the lady chopping stuff and i kept wanting to believe that she's cutting new strawberries to blend haha. but then ahhh it's really STRAWBERRIES AND cream! i almost wanted to puke when i almost finished them then i gave up finishing them aha. but very healthy to eat so many strawberries cos i nv eat them raw like that haa.

me in my little world aha. always writing in on-the-go book. thanks xiaoxia!

alrighty, chuy and tonio jus left the house haa. i was entertaining them for a while and it's kinda fun cos they are kinda funnaye haa. i think "soccer won salsa" haa. hasta luego!

i'm sooo tired, so i need to sleep! and call my family! hee.

2009-09-11T12:54:00.003+08:00

Hahaha. I just realized it's been pretty long since I blogged. I should probably blog in Chinese to practise but I'm so tired now.

My 5 exams are over. HAHA.
I got 99 points for one mod and 95 for the other AHA.

It's weird, so weird but I guess it's really a good thing cos I was rather stressed at first. So much work u know! But the thing is the work is simple, not difficult but it's just a lot of things piled together aha. It's like back to primary school when I saw the grades. I don't even hit a 90+ or 80+ since dont know how long ago.

We had Asians dinner just now haha. 6 singaporeans & 1 hong konger haa.
I've had 3 breakdance classes and I'm not sure if I should still continue. The koreans are really funnaye and I really enjoy when I go dance class with Maria hee. & Shingo Haha. Oh well, I'll figure out breakdancing later! Haha.

I enjoyed Jason's advanced class though it was a struggle at first.

We're going to Mexico City next week. I'm so tired now so I can't write much aha. I slept at 6am to finish up a bit more of my translating job and woke at 10am to go out to do our visa application!!!! on Wednesday. Then last night I slept at 2 plus am to wake at 7.30am AHHHH. Plus, it seems to my housemates I have dance everyday. OH well ha, that's true for the past 3 days. It feels like a really long time has passed haha. Mon and Wed break dance, then Tue I went for Jason's advanced class at his studio. "How much do I have to pay?" "Nothing". I didn't feel that comfortable there but I enjoyed the dance haha. But I guess I should know better right, since I always go for dance classes alone. The people know each other for so long so of course a newcomer will feel out of place easily cos it's unfamiliar and people don't generally talk to u that much at first? Haha.

It's time I stopped being so sensitive always. PLS, MY NEGATIVE THOUGHTS, fark it la ha. Okie stop reminding myself. Be open, give things their chances ahha. Uh I shd sooo watch more shows ah. When I think about natsujo06 i think about shows and that I should watch them to learn more about life haa. But then don't know in which of my mods that I learnt that we really shouldn't care too much about the media. Everything isn't the real world, they are constructed realities. Oh fark, I don't want to care too much about it.

Plus it's so weird that sometimes u feel that time passes so slow. Like I had no idea I went for dance classes for all 4 days already. My thighs ached. Break dance is scary to me and we tried to do the spring and I've got aches in both my thighs, especially so in my right thigh. I'm considering to just pay the 300 pesos (around 30 sing dollars) for a month for the breaking classes cos at least I really exercise and feel tired! HAHA. But I'm a beginner and the 4th lesson (on monday), we're supposed to bring towels to try elbow freezes and headstands. No No No No! No quiero! Tengo miedo! AHHHH...

Or I'm just such a coward, like Woon Ha. Haha. I asked, "Are we cowards?" He replied matter-of-factly, "Yes...". HAHHA. It's cos he's scared to injure himself too. "I don't want to hurt myself in a foreign country." "Isn't it the same to get hurt in ur own country?" "But at least it's better, it's familiar and it's my home." HAHHAAH.

one day in school... during my 430pm to 6pm break.
i have lessons at 6pm to 730pm on tues and thus. my tue and thu timetables are the same.

18 Aug 09' (Tue)...

hungry so i drank choc milk. the smallest serving is 500ml. DRINK til a bit force myself at the end. you dian yao tu ahha.

i was at a bench. i prefer to be out in the green cos the school has sooo many trees haha.

our school (Monterrey Tech) is really like a zoo. FARKIN GAWSH! animals roam the school, like deers, peacocks, ducks, cats, lotsa birds. ahhhh the peacocks are kinda scary. They are not scared of people and they go near to people and they'd extend their neck like sudden to look for food. So now like I was telling Antony (hongkong dude ha) that I want to sleep at the benches outside not in enclose areas but bcos of the animals roaming about I'm scared and I want to go to the library aha. But I had fun chatting with Antony and his grp mates for a project while waiting for my lesson @ 6pm haha. Guadalupe and Enrique AHHAA. We were teaching them Chinese haha. I even said I'm in the group cos Guadalupe said I have to do work too HAHAHA.

Thanks HHL MIAP FOR ur happiness book.
I'm always in this circle/current of negativity or like I'd be fine for a while and the negativity will hit me again. AHHHH, fark, whatever la haaa.

i like this. the flash didn't make me too unlookable AHHA.

i want to upload more pics but my mind is soo tired and my body is. I jus tot I'd post something. NIGHT ALL! i shd watch more dramas, movies, books to get more inspiration and enjoy life ah ahha.

okie blog about now. JUS ENJOY haha don't figure it out.

2009-09-02T11:29:00.007+08:00

Okie blog about now. REALLY FAST OKIE. If not i always procrastinate and Cherlyn just reminded me I should blog when she said out loud that she hasn't blogged for 25 years ahha.

Okie, just now I was farkin' bored. Now abit better since I talked to some people online on both facebook and msn. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I ACTIVELY found people to chat with on facebook haa. I was chatting to Ron Weasley and he suddenly typed some russian and i was like wad do u mean? He said "too bad" after I told him I don't understand. Great job, kylala u reminded ur self of yellowstone once again.

inserts: Pam chatting to me on the plane was pretty funaye to me too aha. She said "talk to you later, i gotta get off the plane now." HAHA, SO FUNNAYE TO ME AHA. THat was like yesterday.

inserts: i don't drive enough water these days. I keep drinking either Starbucks coffee or some sort of mocha drink or chocolate milk or apple juice. Like if i'm outside i'll feel that it's toopid to COMPRAR (buy) water ahha.

inserts: yay i just went thru some pages on studyspanish.com. i figured i shd prolly do that on a regular basis to improve my spanish and make use of this current environment to SPEAK MORE SPANISH! inserts will be things that i feel like saying when i tot of them but i don't want to digress too much and forget to return aha.

Talkin about Yellowstone, going to Texas brought back so much memories. The first thing was the kind of truck that Drew drives aha. So many at the checkpoint while we were waiting ahaa. All I tot of was that day (jun 13th 08') when we went to Bozeman with Drew and Joe & Jeremy & Greg haa. "We'll be going to Bozeman in Drew's car" (sang to tune of "she'll be coming round the mountains when she comes." i think it was evelyn or me who sang aha. So that was the part about all the trucks!!!!!!!!!! then i'd keep remembering hw funnaye it was that evelyn had to sit at the back (the small puny seat) all scrunched up while i sat in the front haha and return trip also like that in the end cos evelyn said she don't mind. then she fell asleep at the back in an awkward position (so poor thing right) haha then i ws in the front covered by terence's teddy bear BIG BROWN COAT while Drew played standup comedian tapes/discs in his truck to keep him awake driving in the dark, cold night AHHAHA. (GAWSH, wad fond memories... i realize all these memories are etched in my mind sooo deeply that i can't forget and the scenes are sooo clear n they'd be replayed in my head. i think it's cos i keep replaying them so they become even more vivid? - okie don't figure it out haha (find below for reason why i'm saying this now ha)

Then, I'd walk sometimes behind the rest of the Singapore housemates and smile to myself cos I'd see something and be reminded of my happy times. Plus the reminiscing in Texas was different. IT felt that I had a good cause to feel nostalgic. Cos sometimes these days, I get a bit bored thinking of Yellowstone, cos too much! nostalgic emotions in EXCESS aaaahh. so it was good, those parts hah. Plus using USD reminded me of Bear Paw. It will always remind me I guess. AFter all, being a cashier for all those weeks left a deep imprint bah.

Oh shit, I should be writing in Mandarin la!!!!!!! I Need to practise my spanish too, right? Haha. Ah whatever ahhaa. I finally paid for salsa 3's fees today cos I was guilty after Maria this really simple & cute & pure Japanese gurl was telling me she paid for both her hiphop and salsa classes! Haha. Okie that's true. After paying for the fees, it's like I feel that I don't have to run off right after class and be so sheepish aha. 良心不安变成良心安了！

inserts: ngok fung cheung was playing "it's raining man" and i didn't realize it was the song until I heard the chorus haha. THEN I LAUGHED LIKE MAD FOR LIKE 30 SECONDS. it's the damn funnaye kind haa. i think it was coupled with ngok fung cheung's expression (serious, grave look) and the way he sways his head to music (hypnotising) HAHAAA... nicholasi came out just now too and was like "everytime say want rain, now rain already want it to stop also cannot stop". i think there were "farks" involved too ahha. i said i go for hiphop classes and he "hahah", saying it's funnaye cos he doesn't know anyone who goes for hiphop classes. then i asked him what he does for exercise, he said he is lazy and only plays ping pong.

inserts: just now laughed quite abit together with cherlyn (or rather quite a lot, is the 放肆kind of laughter haha) pretty good haa. cos it was something to do with julio asking cherlyn didn't her mother force her to eat things when she was young cos "when i was young, my mother forced me to eat beans". HAHAH DAMN FUNNAYE AHHA.

okie i ought to put some pics right? ahaha i jus edited facebook pics and soon, i'll reach monterrey! (my pics la! hah)

and um cheng gong was telling me (just on msn):
"*i smile all the time
*but sometimes dont feel good
*and still
*i think laughing its medical".

& haha

and many other wisdom but i lazy to copy and paste.... haha.

i actually need to do some work and some visa thing. AH LAZY ME, next post in mandarin pls (to myself aha).

first american football game (we just watched a bit and left cos we didn't understand haha) aha. just outside tech (we call monterrey tech "tech") (the stadium).
on 7th aug 09'...

cafe iguana that night haa!
(more pics of us in clubs later okie haha)

2ND FOOTBALL GAME IN TEXAS HAA.
on 29th Aug 09' (sat) haa.
@ the University of the Incarnate Word
(wad a pretty weird but kinda super duper cool name for a university. i have no idea what it means haha...)

during the game.

after the game.
the cheers are sooo catchy. dum dum dum dum dum dum dum dum dum dum BORREGOS AHAH. (with the beat of the drums, perfect! latin american flavour GAO GAO!) AHAHA

IT'S BEEN ONE MONTH. may all the joys come ahaha.
and cheng gong said something else i think i really need to copy and paste it here haah!

"yeah rain kinda like to mess with eomotions"
its time like these we learn to love again (8)
*jajaja
*music may help"
cos i was saying i've been feeling "unfeeling" and "dead" pretty much these days haha...

me "apple juice - u make me feel so much better! suiyuan bei. says:
*hahaa THEN we're the smae haa
*i used to take pride that i'm so emotional when i was much younger
*cos i feel that it's wad makes me humane
*but as i grow older, i realize it's so tough to get thru certain times when ur emotions get the better of u haha
*or having no emotions is like some kind of mood change haha
*oh shit and times like this i feel like i wnat to stop figuring it out

"- jOs www.maldom.com says:
*jajaja yeah
*dont figure it out
*enjoy instead
*read
*keep ur imagination busy"

haha okie, zao now! need to try to enjoy the rest of the cold cold night, shower and do stuff! fark la, chinga haha!

I LUB MY lgbb! a little update on nightlife but not really haha. jus ONE SENTENCE HA.

2009-08-25T10:56:00.007+08:00

Wow wow ahha. I don't really wanna talk about what we do here everyday cos it seems like such an arduous task aha. Sometimes the days are mixed up for me, like I'm not exactly sure what we do ahha. But if we wanna talk about partying and nightlife/clubbing so far haha...

We've been to 5 different clubs/bars/nightspot places so far. 2 house parties.

I'll talk more next time cos i'm feeling stressed by SCHOOL WORK RIGHT NOW. fark right. come so far tot can relax more. sometimes feel that it's too slack to the extent that i'm farkin bored. then suddenly sometimes got many things to do. ahhhhhhhhhhhh haha. i'm going to dance a bit now haha. though cherlyn jus came up haahha. i'll post up pics of our house laer haa. ahhhh and nice chatting with papa, bruh & sang that day ahaha. mama scolded me like "wah, why you call home? very expensive u know?" when i called her that day ahah. cos i was walking home alone after comida china (chinese food) while the rest were at soriana's (doing grocery shopping) cos i went for salsa 3 haa. i listened to chinese music and suddenly i missed my mama cos she jus texted me that cavin ku and his sister will be taken care of by her while their mama goes overseas for a few days ahahaa.

ahhh feeling stressed now haa. cos i'm multi taskin too much? like opening up many stuff - web pages. need to do ppt on finland. got quiz again (weekly quiz), do up this mini report about your preferences and limitations and ALL MY READINGS ARE PILING UP. like i can dont' caare about it sometimes, but sometimes i jus feel very overwhelmed (LIKE NOW)... plus salsa, i wish can social more. but currently every lesson is about learning A LITTLE bit more about the routine. however it depends on who your rotated partner is. some will do other stuff after practising the routine for a while but most wil just practise the routine. ahhhh maybe i really need to visit salsa clubs? ahhaa... heard frm Edward this Mexican who stops by our house from time to time cos he always parks his car outside our house then he'd walk to school from here haha. that there will be a salsa party organized by the school but it's at someone's house. i dont' understand why it's a house party if it's organized by the school ahah. then he said he'll go cos europeans likes salsa n he likes french gurls HAHAHAHA.
actually most of the previous paragraph was written by me after i took a quick shower. so i do feel a bit better haha. and i feel a bit bad cos supposed to do this short paragraph thing but i'm not sure and everyone in my team need to do it haha. but one grp mate offline and i dun have his no and the other is too nice haha so i'm like can i not do it, i don't feel like doing it HAHHAHAHAH... and all my readings. go read kylala. 少说话，多做事！

FRONT VIEW!

LIVING ROOM.

ACTUALLY these pics not that accurate. When i feel like it, I'll take nicer pics? Ah ahha shouldn't be blogging now. And that night like on Sat early morn (after clubbing @ Tech Raza on Fri night), I played for like a few hours with my netbook and took like 122 pics (both camera n netbook webcam - YAY TO MY LGBB = LG 宝贝).

TIP of the iceberg haha.

HAPPY BARTHDAY DA DONG AHHA. 28TH BDAY. ON 24TH AUG HAHA :DDDDD i'm not that crazy but i still wished him on the AF thread haa.

P.S. Feels like it's been a few times since i'm the only one left in the dining room aha. Now it has become the round table for the "knights of the round table" - discussion table/discussion room ahah. The table in 2 of the pics above. In the past, most of us would just stay in our own rooms to use the com but i guess it's like communal living or something. We come out more often/come down for Cherlyn and me ahha. But I'd stil dance upstairs or if I really want to enjoy the air con or have some private time to read or wad, I'll stay upstairs for a while cos we only have the fan downstairs.

P.S.S. I feel that I'm here to learn HOKKIEN AHHA. gam pua... all the super vulgarities. seriously, 2-3 sentences out of 5 spoken here by mainly 2 ppl will be a vulgarity of some dialect ahha or the english kind ahaha. My hokkien vulgarities vocab is much more than my spanish one i'm sure hah. PRACTICA PRACTICA! okie i'll try to do somemore about my finland ppt then i'll read a bit and GO TO BED. gawsh past few nights bed time...

21 Aug 09' (fri) - 4am to 3pm [post UMA on thu - i really don't like rock music that much though da dong is hard core rocker haha. i prefer chinese rock maybe? haha don't know.]
22 Aug 09' (sat) - 7am to 3.15pm [post tech raza on fri]
23 Aug 09' (sun) - 5am to 10.48am (siao~ one) [post 2nd more fun mexican party]
siao one - couldn't sleep anymore and felt so refreshed then nv sleep all the way till
24 Aug 09' (mon) - 4.30am to 12pm

to think i was still telling papa i sleep pretty early here haha. at first yesh but "hou lai" 后来 not really ahha. 心虚的我

i'm gonna write here to remind myself. GAWSH, WRITING p.s. MAKES me write more and thinks clearer ahh. always like tat, nothing to write then got things to write. feels like got many things to write but don't know what to write haha. SIIIAWOOOO ONE HAH. doesn't make sense huh? the espresso brownie is getting to me?ahha 34pesos roughly around 3.40 sing dollars aha.

random and i cannot find the "@" sign in the school's keyboards ahahaa. so i always copy and paste the one below the tab u enter ur hotmail address haha.

about now! DANCE!

2009-08-19T02:55:00.003+08:00

Alamak mak mak mak mak. I'm home for a short break and it's 30 mins to my next class at 3pm! Ah, I'm so in lurve with strawberry stuff these days. I just had a ONE-LITRE zumba fruit thing haa - it's just strawberries with KINDA lotsa sugar (i saw her empty the entire scoop into the blender, like those kind of scoops u use for washing powder) and MILK (normal, i really prefer full cream milk than LIGHT). Ah, feels like I wanna drink more of it. Last night I had an "Atlantis" - fresa, manzana y yogurt (strawberry, apple and yoghurt) just 1/2 litro only haa. Ah, I'm a greedy pig or rather grace the greedy gurl.

Ah yu yu yu uuuuuuu joscelin er haa, just now as I walking to ask about the dance class, I listened to "I DONT CARE EH EH EH EH EH EH EH " and quite happy actually, even a bit high haha. The dance class was not really the stuff I like but I still felt pretty nice being able to dance. Now i'm wondering if i should take both salsa and hiphop. Will be around 250 bucks sing dollars for the entire semester for both classes. I shall ask mama and see how haha. Cos I can't attend all lessons ahhhhhhh... Really I feel like I lack something when dance is not there.

Then was trying to ask the salsa teacher some questions after my hiphop class (the studios are just opp each one). This Mexican guy helped to translate and soo cool he's one of the few Mexicans so far whom we've met who can speak CHINESE AHHAA. so amazing right haha. Chinese is sooo hard to learn. His name is Jose and he said his chinese name is CHENG GONG ahahha, success that cheng gong aha. Damn amusing to me ha. He's pretty nice.

Now got Latin American & The Caribbean History class, I mean at 3pm and I never read the readings yet haha. Wil talk more about the past week and the next day (7th Aug) in my posting of dates is clubbing day ahahha... I shd buck up my updates here and keep things succint (maybe) and my facebook pictures haha. Plus my manga reading/books reading/anime watching/dramas watching/movies watching even? HAHA. how come all these things still can't make me happy enough??? Por que? por por por que haha... Okie try to go with the flow and believe in fate! Haha. unexpectedness, hhlmiap "who knows wad the future brings".

But at least I missed you Yu and 2 drops of my tears for you sia... Don' talk rubbish to ppl okie xp Time to read abit and go out of the house for class under very very hawt sun aha. Or maybe I shouldn't even try to update the past days? Or rather I shd just do pics n rough explanation aha. I write too much/think too much/type too much sia haa. It's kinda nice for me to be updating RIGHT NOW, ABOUT NOW Ahaha.

Thanks mister and yu & sam & luis & evelyn & mama & papa & sang sang so far for the chats we've had!!!!

FEELING: a bit more positive? cool in my air-con bedroom now hah.
Donde(where): MI CUATRO/HABITACION (ROOM)

it will get better!

HARPI 20TH BARTHDAY CHERLYN AISHI CHIA!

2009-08-16T16:27:00.005+08:00

WHO IS THIS?

IT'S....

OMIGUSH I'M SO LAME...

HARPI BarthDAY CHERLYNNNN AISHI CHIA HAHAHA.

Her fellow housemates..............................

BATMAN! SPIDERMAN! one of the 3 blind mice.

bull's eye.

THE GAYS!

COS LENNY in his room, i lazy to go get him. so he's not in the pic HAHHAA.

WHEE 5th & 6th of agosto. more to come okie - lesser pics? tiring la. heh

2009-08-16T14:40:00.007+08:00

a random pic

on the cab one day ahha :D hahha...
看到camera就闪！siam aha.

Now, Nicholasi is drawing card for Cherlyn now hahahahah. I think he can draw not just, "like and good is different" HAH. looks at Cherlyn and laughs...

So maybe I shouldn't go on and try to talk about everyday haa. I realize I did that for Yellowstone initially but I didn't follow through ha. Okie I'll just give brief descriptions and let my pictures do the work aha.

5th Aug 09' (Wed)
Finally, we left La Casa Del Barrio after 4 nights. Off to our new house and I already gave the address! Uh, we ate BK's at our house after we did some stuff like shift some furniture around ha. Soriana's shopping again - this time for all the household stuff. DAMN SHAG SIAAAHHH... We did spring cleaning (da sao chu) after we got back from Soriana's and all of us were really tired haha. Though there was a pretty funny part about a guy who ate some late night food haha.

posers man! leaving La Casa Del Barrio

family pic haa. the singapore KIAS.... haha.

at our house finally. uh pancakes for breakfast/lunch = brunch.

SORIANA'S HAH.

GO CRAZY!!! (frosties haha)
the cookie crisps that made me think of you Fanny Fang Fang Yu!

6th Aug 09' (Thu)
Whee, San Augustine again. We keep going there ever since Tono told us it's one of the shopping places in Monterrey haha. We were pretty bored honestly cos we just went to school to do our subjects registration thing and we finished it so we had nothing to do after that aha. Seriously, the weather being so hawt really makes you lazy and u don't want to be in the hawt sun. Okie, maybe not for everyone, but for me la.

sch food again! eating in sch is really pretty expensive.
for me who only eats vegs (since no fish at all), I'd spend about 6 to 7 bucks sing dollars.

TRYIN ON shades. i lub my painted navy nails *harts* *_^

SUCH CUTE SOCKS! - frm oysho ha.

in the end i only bought stuff frm oysho. some socks & sunglasses/shades but i haven't worn them yet. aha. that's like the first place i shopped at actually. a few days ago we went to san augustine and gawsh i shopped at oysho again, almost 50 bucks. we went to pull and bear and i realy didn't find anything for me and i tot i wouldn't see anything i like that day but oysho made me spend again aha haha.

ah actually i do wanna post more pics but it's sooo tiring to keep clicking and waiting for it ot load, especially since I've uploaded so much and blogged so much in the previous post ahhh! now to something more important for a gurl ahah.

relaxing in the house after garcia caves haa. pics later!

2009-08-16T05:49:00.011+08:00

okie i'm back to continue the prev post haha...
what we did today ahha - 15th Aug 09' (Sat)... We visited (pics later) Caves of Garcia (grutas de garcia) with the school. Soooo hawt today on our walk back home as we cut through school. Plus all of us were a little groggy having slept on the bus ride back (around 1 hr) hee... Tmr's Cherlyn's 20th bday (in Singapore it already is) soooo

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY CHERLYN. i was the first to wish u in the caves haa, cos u were saying it's alr ur bday in SINGAPORE aha. You're sleeping now cos the cough syrup made you drowsy. It's good to be able to sleep when u feel sleepy so GET WELL SOON OKIE, roomie & laugh out loud friend hahhhahahaa... Sometimes I swear it's sooo damn funnaye - the things we laugh at ahhaa :)))))

Though we're going out to eat later, I feel full so not really that excited? But okie I'm a little excited cos at least we're going to try a new place and no tacos for today haha. About the caves, the tour was in Spanish and there were lotsa people and it just doesn't feel that real to me. It felt artificial, especially those formations as you walk by. It's too people-filled... I'd only feel the magnificence of it when we're in a clearing and I could see the very tall ceiling of the cave then I'd go like "wow" a while haha. Maybe cos I didn't have enough sleep, I slept at 2am last night working on the transcript I had to translate and had to wake at 8am.

Actually, I cried on the bus. Cos seeing all the mountains/hills as the bus went by reminded me so much of Yellowstone and it's like nothing can compare to it? Ah alamak! Was talking to Yangyang last night and he went "haha, the story of yellowstone will live in my heart forever" and I was telling I still miss it so much sometimes and he went “才女也难过？” haha. Oh well, overthinking doesn't help and my thoughts go in spiral again. I should really write more huh? Cos at least always rmb that writing it out is cathartic/therapeutic!

Meeting Diana (spaniard) in the library on Thu was pretty cool ahha. I was trying to kill time during the 1.5 hrs break I had before my last lesson of the day haa. So I decided to check the library out since I only just heard that there were more than 1 floor in the library frm my history teacher. (i'm taking History of Latin America and the Caribbean) I saw Diana there and voila haa! She's there and sooo cute and I was saying her English is very cute then she went "I speak bad" HAHHA... I think she's a very interesting person with lots of vivacity and energy. I took a liking to her the first time I saw her actually aha. So that was unexpected :) There was a cute librarian ahhaa. I mean how lucky is that haha.

Tada my mind's thoughts are wandering again aha. Neways I should continue on right? Haha, paiseh to all my friends who ask me about how mexico is. I always only say it's hawt cos I really don't know what to speak of it. Like it's too early to tell after all? Thanks to Luis and mister who told me to give it time haha. That's how things start. Yellowstone wasn't all good at first. But it's been 2 weeks alr and haha... I don't know...

Think positive!!!!! If it's fated it will happen so don't try to control things and be a fuckin' perfectionist all the time. It's my OCD haha. Let it unfold... I was missing all the people I actually lurve on the bus that's why I cried. Like Jeremy, Evelyn, Lily, Fanny, Charmaine da-jie, Xiaohui da-jie, Shan-er da-jie, Terence, Tang Tang Wei, Sasha, John (south african), Daniel, Branden, Lance, Kathryn, Andy, Paul, Abbie... alamak like everything just came wham. This is good haha. Cos it means I still have feelings? I've been cold for a pretty long while huh... Oh well, I don't know. I need to learn to see things in a different light - through a different perspective. So whenever I feel that reading/watching movies/dramas/anime is what nerds do and it's a waste of time, I should rmb wad echo jie said about “看电影是对心灵好” or something like that. Like she was telling me travelling is for your mind cos you look at more things and interact with people, different experiences... Haha...

Okie I should be creative now and create.... A BLOGPOST AHA.
and uh, actually I do tink I'm lucky to always have company, except when I have classes and stuff. It's really a comfort zone but I'm blessed haha. Maybe that's why I'm not homesick aha. Give thanks to the things in life haha. Like my dear housemates joke soo much that I forget about being emo u know. THANKS GUYS ahha. I'm interested to see how our relationships change over time aha. IT's only 2 weeks haa. Pretty funnaye and exciting huh?
part 2 of 2nd Aug 09' (sun)

made new mexican BFF ever - tono/antono - cab driver who became our translator in the end cos he could speak english quite a lot and he himself said a little bit only ahha. he also brought us to this cheap tacos place haa. i can only eat champinones/queso (mushrooms/cheese) tacos. I was wrong, i tot mexico everywhere would have fish since it has coastal areas and a lot of bell peppers but so far i only eat mushrooms/cheese/maybe some potatoes hah. for the mexican food i mean haa. i heard recently that there's more seafood in the south where it's the coastal areas but in monterrey it's like surrounded by other areas, it's mountains around us so there isnt. AHHH... fish fish fish soon aha. carls' junior i promise you i will visit you soon okie ha.

at the taco's place that TONO brought us there haa. pretty cheap!

soriana's shopping. soriana's is like this big hypermarket haha, they even compare prices with walmart haa. so basically we keep hanging out there to buy bottled water since that's all we could drink before we had a house and a kettle and could boil water. sleep at night haa.

haha shopping for our friend who lost his luggage.
who is he? haha...

a bangala haha...
called Nichalos (at least tat's how ngok fung J spells his name as till really recently like 2 days ago) HAAHAA...

WELL in the end he got his luggage back but he was without clothes for like the first 2 days we were there haa. He only had another tank with him and a pair of jeans but he only realized he has another pair of jeans like the 2nd day his luggage was lost haa. So he kept wearing the same clothes and had to buy BOXERS HAHA, COS he didn't have any inner wear with him in the luggage that wasn't lost. (he brought 2) haha. DAMN FUNNAYE LA AHA.

3rd Aug 09' (Monday)
first day in school ever! first time eating in school cafeteria & registering as an exchange student.

first meal ever haa. take a pic :D

met the friend of the landlady who would be like the in charge for our house. so we talked thru stuff. tiring again ahhhhhhhh. with jet lag and general fatigue and all the processing of spanish just made me very very tired. sometimes i don't even bother ha. and i kinda feel that my energy will be used up by translating/processing a lot actually so i'd end up being quiet/tired at night/in the evening aha.

soriana's again aha. (that's the only place we hang out at ahha - HYPER MART GAWSH) i didn't borrow 10K to come supermarket shopping aha. just kiddin, trying to be exaggerating aha. we go left often these days, just very often at the start. pretty soon, we'll be able to map out the place haa.

go crazy over the ice cream which is generally cheaper
(but these few days, i don't have cravings haha maybe cos i finished my tub of STRAWBERRY HAAGEN DAZ HAHA)

cute cherlyn posing with those cute ring pops haha.

teriyaki sauce. AHHH I WANA eat salmon with teriyaki haha!
i can like put teriyaki into everything i cook (when i do cook) hah.

Q-ING UP...

they claim they're brothers? haa.
rmb the joke about us calling NGOK FUNG THE DA-GE HAA. big bro haa.
the purple colour shirt guy is the xiao di/runner/insignificant being ha.

ah international dinner at night haha :) we sat with the spaniards ha. they invited us to this house party and we felt so lost at the party though we talked to some people haa. people just sat in a circle at the backyard while there were some in another lil' space beside the living room aha. oh well, a first house party experience.

the not very tasty buffet for 110 pesos (approximately 12 sing dollars ha)...

dinner with the spaniards, sharing table with them ;)

4th Aug 09' (Tuesday) 4th night(last night) @ La Casa Del Barrio
only cherlyn and lennard shifted their luggages to be put in our new house first.

waiting outside for the landlady's friend to talk some stuff ha!

lunch @ el pollo loco (the crazy chicken)

all the pollo (chicken) the rest ate haa. 满目疮痍!
all i ate was some fries and this strawberry cheesecake that actually tasted pretty nice haha!

final talks and changes and contracts and all the paperwork done. cheryln and i went to the cabletv/phoneline company with senora (friend of landlady who's in charge of the houses) to apply for wireless internet + phone + cable tv aha. It's in a package so we have no choice and i bet some of us like Cherlyn would be real happy about cable tv aha. Cos if not we'd be more bored haha xp

HAHAH found this funnaye. it's in a brochure we saw when we were at the telecommunications company.

we went to San Augustine and omigush farkin cute cab driver who went "hello moto". Cherlyn and I were stunned and our mouths were agape for a while haa. he seems like such a jovial, traditional mexican he's pretty dark and there's a nice feeling i get frm him. the good kind of vibe aha. the first place we visited was super huge Zara and the things were cheaper haha.

in Zara's dressing room. i like the loose feel of the top ah (i always like it) for pic 1 & 2.
for pic 3 i tot it looks nice but it jus looks like rags on me haa.
pic 4's pants were pretty cool but they're so loose and sooo big haha.
so i bought nothing ha.

ahha they don't know what "athlete's foot" mean in asia?

food time. comida china - china food haa.
um chain food store hahah. we eat it frm time to time (at least me) cos i can't resist the taste of rice and the portion always damn big we can't finish alone aha.

OTHER DAYS LATER AHA... this blog post took me sooo long too!

FIND INSPIRATION KYLALA HAHA. learn... live. uh, see what happens sometimes. i'm uptight at times (cherlyn says)...

spent so much time blogging today ahha. continuation.latter, hasta luego!

2009-08-11T11:04:00.012+08:00

continuation ahahah...

before we reached monterrey haha. @ LAX or was it mexico city airport can't rmb aha. just at some airport okie. things were in a blur previously ahha. could be the fatigue, could be just blurred memories and nv make a plane to rmb. so many flights la haha.

cherlyn & jimmy/himmy/ngok fung me y mi passport ha.

on the plane frm mexico city to monterrey. nicolasi

lennard/lenny & cherlyn chia aishi hee xp

nicolasi haha very ghetto-like. jimmy - our da ge haa.

sometimes i get bored or maybe not. but i take pics of things around me sometimes haa. there goes...

"tou pai"偷拍　shot.

my thick brown hair hee. looks real healthy huh haa. got shine somemore :) what would i do without my hair. yay, confirmed. i lurve my hair haa.

i think this air stewardess looks damn nice and she has this goodygoody feeling aha. so kind and more like beautiful aha.

HAHHA, REVENGE! (for sneaking up behind me and snapshoting me)

watch me bear haha.

thanks flamez ahhaa :) the gift for me now is like a public funds holder for me and my housemates aha.

hahha. the mask that nicolasi gave haa. dammit, i only enjoyed wearing it on the last flight. toopid me haa. i like how i appear to have a sharp chin aha. okie my chin is pretty sharp compared to other ppl so i'm happy about that haha but my face is rather meaty/fleshy these days.
GO AND DANCE SOON! AHHAAA. BAILA BAILA BAILAMOS AHHA!
01 Aug 09' (Sat)
we finally reached monterrey, mexico!!!!!! poor nic lost his luggage (but he gt it back in the end ;) after like 3 days so it's like it was damn funnaye when he had to buy some bare necessities in the super market haa plus he had practically nothing else to change into AHHAHAH...

FINALLY we're here HAHA. us and our luggages. us looking after the luggages while jimmy/himmy went with nicolasi to check out the other baggage collection place cos he (nicholasi) lost one of his.

real nice tio (uncle in spanish) who gave me this callin card. cos we had to call the hostel to check if they had rooms available, some prob with the booking thing online aha. i asked him where to buy it with my super rusty, lil' spanish i know, he ended up saying he'll give it to me haa. saves all the explaining trouble haa.
THANKS BEU AGAIN for helping us out on this ahha :)
and los sientos that you had to wait for so long. we had no idea you were there ha :)

on the cab. 2 cabs cost 550 pesos. around 55 bucks sing dollars aha. okie la, it was pretty far haa like 30 mins cab ride? okie shucks i can't rmb exactly how long aha. we stayed in La Casa Del Barrio which was in downtown Monterrey where all the nightlife is at actually. But ironically, we didn't visit any clubs when we stayed there for the 4 nights haha. alrighty so we got settled in like after 3/4 hrs. we walked around to look for food and many places were closed like around 2pm cos of the SIESTA CULTURE AHHA (nap culture). we got some crepes in this really interesting place that looks like those places where u can smoke shisha. real weird and we waited for a looong time haa. we practically got around via cabs aha. ah what else did we do... uh and went out for some dinner with some of the foreigners staying in the hostel too. that's it for the night. JET LAG, TIRED. those were tired days, all the days before we moved into our current house on wed (5th aug 09').

the not very barato (cheap) crepes haa. 5 of us ate like 300 bucks? so like almost 60 bucks for each crepe ahaa. 2nd Aug 09' (Sun)
in the morning...

i had no idea nicolasi was in the pic as well aha. and we have a bit of jimmy's shoulder and back (maybe sexy maybe not ahah)

it's a pretty nice homey place. quaint?

on the way to get a cab before house hunting.

the people were having some race or wad haa. on the streets on a sunday aha.

waiting...

walking to food...

house hunting. applebee's first. omigush, applebee's just reminded of the last dinner together with bear paw deli crew. thanks Joe for treating us the last dinner...... my sweet sweet memories :( :) happy and sad at the same time haa.

so reminiscent huh...

grp pic! fotografia!

kyla y cherlyn :)

grocery shopping @ soriana's.
got a huge shock when i saw this.
i've yet to find out whether it's some school project for kids after school to help pack up bags or it's just child labour (kids working）... hardworking kids nevertheless!

house hunting haaha. i'll talk about tono/antono later okie haa.

i feel kinda bad for not getting back to the owner of this house haa. her lil' granddaughter knows some english and went "i know" when i asked in spanish "hablas ingles" = "do you speak english?" ahhah. she was sooo helpful and helped translated and explaining and everything. a very good gurl no doubt! but we found a better choice - our present house/home/casa and they live just a few houses away...

ella es muy linda y bonita! [She is very cute & pretty/lurvely.]

END OF PARTE UNO (part 1) of 2nd Aug 09' (sun).
tengo que dormir ahora! (i have to go and sleep now)...
ah ah ah but i did it haha. i updated more and wrote about what we did here finally aha!

i'm going upstairs to my bedroom now haha. i HAVE AN UPSTAIRS. like the Sims aha.

P.S. i find it pretty cool that cars would just VROOOMMM BY, sometimes blasting their stereos ahhaha. but it can get quite scary ahhahaha... it's a safe neighbourhood nevertheless so MAMA, PAPA AND WHOEVER Who's worried for me, SANG SANG AND whoever gurls who are my lurvely gurl friends/gurls out there, dont worry ahah! i'm in safe hands and my dear house/home will protect me as well as the mOOnand dear goddess haha. WHEEEEE. i feel good aha. like positive actually. yup no expectations i'll try that cherlyn :)... so let it surprise me and take my breath away? haha. enjoy while it lasts :) don't cry bcos it's over. smile bcos it happened. i heard i was in a newspaper today aha, i haven't seen it though. hope it turns out well haa. thanks Beu for helping to get it kept ahha ;0)

one sentence each

2009-08-11T02:06:00.010+08:00

One sentence from each of us Singaporeans:

Jimmy/Ngok Fung says: Hola. Por por por que?
Lenny: Me gusta Mexico.
Cheryln Chia Aishi says vamos viajar (let's go travel)
kyLa says she wants to do things, like dance maybe?
Ni col la si says huh, dame, quiero, me gusta.

HAHAHAA. WAD THE SHIT. dame = gimme, me gusta = i like, quiero = i want.
enough of spanish lesson. none of us taking spanish class though we should hah. cos it's mon, wed and fri and we want to keep our fridays free so we can go travel or wad over the weekend haha.

4 of us are sitting in the living room of our casa watching TV HAHAHA. We just got back frm eating at this Taco place. Yay they gave me special order. Quesadilla (cheese taco) + lechuga (lettuce) + tomate (tomato) HAHAHA. Cos I said I don't eat meat. This is our second time there. The first time we ate there was after we played/watched basketball on Friday.

OMIGUSH i'm blogging (yay) about what we did. didn't plan to do it this soon. but cos really nothing to do in a way? haha.

31st July 09' (Friday)
few pics before taking the plane.
with mi familia.

okie lotsa pics in the end haa. uh it was really rushed my last few days in Singapore ahah. Papa and Mama were damn cute when we said our final goodbyes haha. Papa was like, asking me to go away shrugging me off when I tried to follow them as they left hahaa. (cos i was waitin for Shu, Pam & Tyris to arrive haha). DAMN FUNNAYE haha. papa always acts cool la! hah. then mama was like hugging everyone else, the other kids telling them to take care of each other AHAHHAHAHAA. but sadly, i felt nth much. just some churning in my stomach but no extreme sadness. maybe i choose to ignore it or wad, i don't know haa. self protection. like protecting myself frm happiness (of feeling lurve for my family) and sadness at the same time (if u don't care, u don feel the pain). okie damn emo. but nvm about that haha, watever haha. it's pretty interesting that i once tot i'd be so damn emo all the time turns out to be melancholic sometimes haha. uh like mellow. or maybe im jus trying to ignore it hah. but i guess i was a lil sad ha.

i only cried in the bathroom on the plane after I watched HANNAH MONTANA: THE MOVIE. and it was cos i cried at the part where she sang for her father. so touching la.... oh papa... then i cried and went to the bathroom to continue tearing and crying a lil' loud haha. i'm such a loser huh haha. oh well, people change, their feelings too haha. impermanence! never say never haa!you never know haa.

Oh I watched Obsessed too haa. I like that gurl frm Heroes, the Ali something aha. But she was really pretty scary in Obsessed. Uh and half of this Korean show by Kim Ha Neul being some secret agent and her bf was actually one too but too tired to finish it cos had to read subtitles and the small screen made my eyes squint way too much aha. I'm writing so much or me to look back on haa. & to remind myself htat I can still feel so much and think so much about LIFE hah... not allthe nonsense haa. i didn't pay so much and be on a plane for so long to suffer here haa. (uh i don' really hate the plane ride but when i got nothing to do, it gets on m nerves) but i'm always amazed after i get off the plane, like omigush, how did i endure that without much pain haa.

eating @ yakun... sang, my dear cuzzin in the background.

act sad...

mama feeding me bread... awh...

the parents. los padres hee xp

failed shot of me and mi padres aha.
but i like this haa. though i have food in my mouth haha.

mama made me drink the chicken essence cos i didn't sleep the night before ha.

thanks flamez hee :)
u gurls made it in time.
pretty funnaye huh ahha.
i felt touched (amazing for me to actually feel touched ha) i really did, on the plane haa.

@ narita airport haa for a one hour stopover.
that's Nicholasi Beh haa.

cherlyn behind me :)

aeroplane food!

sia siah aha.

well, failed shot. 1 complete face and 2 cut off faces ahah. 2 halves make one whole so 2 whole faces. omigush wad am i talking abt haa.

take plane until LAX then met James Yayoshi & Cherlyn's friend (Nate + Chris) so the 5 of us visited Santa Monica haha. cos we had a 10 hrs stopover at LAX before our flight frm LA to Mexico City then to Monterrey. our flight departing LAX was @ 2330hrs LA time.

that's chris, cherlyn, kyla & james yayoshi ha.
right outside LAX.

at the beach alr haa.
farkin' happy cherlyn!

santa monica.
hallo LA. hah we couldn't find santa monica beach last summer haha.
we only found laguna ha and ate johnny rockets.
AH, FARK, THE MEMORIES!

damn cute cherlyn and my red stars sweater :)
thanks uni clique haha.
9ofus.

i wished for... haha

super cute cherlyn & nate (whacky haha)

lotsa shots there ahha.
i kept on snapping on Nate's camera haha.
so nice to click.

in Forever 21 haha. looking stoned us.
some guy in a store we browsed in said on the way when i was leaving, "nice jacket" HAHA :D

SOME ROAD SHOW THING HA. cool but like these people are great at "manipulating" people, making you stuck there and paying to watch haa.

PIZZA.

SUPER BIG LA.

IN THE CARPARK HAA.

okie time for next post.
gawsh i spent 2 hrs on this post ha.

i wonder why, let it be, sometimes 随便过 haha.

2009-08-09T02:32:00.006+08:00

gawshhhh we went for our first night out last night. CAFE IGUANA. i was aching to go and i felt high cos i jus tried to learn 4 minutes' HOT ISSUE dance on youtube and danced a bit and felt dancey ha! i was bored most of the time AHHHHHHHH and i screamed on the dance floor frm time to time. uh, zi high (self-high) isn't really that awesome. okie, i admit some of the moments was pretty alright but R&B R&B I NEED YAAAAAAAAA... i realized. lack o dancing is making me a very very bored & BORING person, that's what I DEDUCED...

i realized after coca cola event @ the Heeren i haven't even been dancing much. in MJ and other places. I realized I need DANCE CLASSES... so cca fair pls pls faster come...

We have a house now and it's pretty awesome actually haha. Own room with bathroom and walk-in closet. i go siao over haagen daz only haha. 80 pesos (around SGD$9) for the usual size @ SGFD$14.50. yumy strawberry = comforting food that comforts me and makes me feel that i shd keep myself alive for more ice-cream in the world?

I'm only updating about now. It's 1.39pm and I woke at around 1pm haha. We stayed at the rock bar/club til 4am and got home around 4.30am. I really cannot dance for long/sustain @ trance/techno/house music. SERIOUSLy rnb & salsa, come come come to me soon. Or I'll seek you soon. The best thing out of being bored I think, is that it forces me to seek new experiences cos just CANNOT TAKE IT and i'll do something about it. That's why I'm in Mehico now haha. Uh so far, got some really funny funny times. Maybe cos we're always with us (the 5 of us), it doesn't feel that I'm in a foreign place. Cos my Spanish is improving and I'm not so afraid when ppl speak fast anymore hahaa. When sch starts, though my "closed-thinking" part of me will feel that it's gonna be so-so or like nothing exciting, I think it really wont be! Cos I'm in such a new place and experiences will be GOOD! hahha. UH Kylala don't expect too much again haa.

in one of the gigantic shopping malls we went in San Augustine, I saw this haha. pretty hilarious.

Chatting with Evelyn and Samantha felt soooo relieving ahhhhhhhhh haha. Miss ya gurls :( good thing is i got feelings when I felt that I missed you two haha. I do miss my papa, mama, sang, brother (though he can be mean at times), Min Rabbit, Yu Poh Hui, Xiaowei, Tyris buddy, Pamela, Shu hui, Rachel, Cheng Teng lalala... Hilarious episode of tyris pam and shu running to the airport ha. I like the gifttttttttt :) It's now a temp keeper of the coins (public funds) we all have haha.

Evelyn telling me she feels bored/melancholic frm time to time makes me feel that it's perfectly normal. Just let the phase pass and seriously, I shd stop reminding myself (that I'm bored) like wad mama said... Be positive! corine = don't let the seed of negativity grow! I was showing Samsam the tour of my house/our house now. WHEE, she's the first haha to see my house. So cute - seeing her with her hair blowing behind her haha xp

Alrighty, blogging does make me feel occupied n it feels rather nice. I shall blog more often then though it'll be random and like out-of-nowhere cos i'm tired to really keep track and shd be more spontaneous instead of planning and writing everything out nicely? Oh well I might write them out nicely i don't know, when i feel like it???

I shd watch more anime and keep reminding myself why I'm here for??? To live my life and save myself frm boredom (in singapore). I want to feel excited and the slide show the school showed us said at the last "Welcome to Monterrey and the best experience of your (student) life". Be open and invite new experiences into my life. Dont be so judgmental la...... make more chingus de haa. Let's wait and see. Watch it unfold... Be grateful and cherish the moment. live the moment la... positivity haha. at least "i try to be" (ji won onni saying it before haha)...

Oh ya, more later. Here are some pics... plus you all can visit http://meawaywithlove.livejournal.com that's my roommate/housemate/singaporean friend Cherlyn's blog she specially made for mexico haha. She updates pretty much and talks about what we do. That's a good platform to know how we're doing since the 5 of us have been sticking together like super glue for the past 7 days we're here hahhhhaha. 24/7 la! Super hardcore. Cheryln likes to say hardcore and no doubt easily-influenced me (certain things easily influenced) is kinda influenced or at least a lil haha.

@ applebees before we went house hunting haha.
this was taken on 2nd Aug 09' (sun) before we met the people to bring us around to rent a place. in the end we found our current casa (house) with our first mexican BFF cab driver Tono/Antono HAHA. pics later.

plus stepping into applebee's again just reminded me of the farewell dinner (the last dinner) in bozeman with bear paw deli crew last summer on 18th Jul 09'. AHHHHHHHH... oh well, reminds me that i have to make thing work for me, make the best out of everything. be contented! cos i could be so happy before! and i shd stop seeking how yellowstone made me feel, pronto! haha... pronto is like "faster" when used in this way? Oh well i'm not too sure but i'll figure it out after my STAY HERE. Joe was soo nice to treat us to the dinner by the way haha. YUMMY LA!

kyla y cherlyn. (y = and, pronounced as "e")
roommates/new friends/house mates/singaporean frens/LOL friends haha

03 aug 09' (mon)
Cherlyn, me, Idoia (bonita = pretty/lurvely name) y Kristina
the first meeting with international friends. gawsh 110 pesos - all you can eat but the food was kinda sucky. normally at first thought, we'd divide the amt in pesos by 10. cos sing dollars is like around 9 times haha. so like pretty ex for not-so-yummy food right? haha. we sat with the people frm Spain - call them Spaniards or Spanish people?

Haha. These two gurls are real nice and we went to watch an American football game (first time) with them and the rest of their many Spanish friends ytd after some international cocktail with light refreshments. (holy crap - i could only eat potatoes & i ate an entire piece of red cabbage that served as a "holder" for the potatoes. pathetic horrrrrrrrrrrr & i ate a sandwich which I only ate one piece of bread cos the other piece had ham on it. i only ate the side with cheese on it.) I feel better towards the Spanish I feel. Maybe I really have an inner Spaniard in me? ah watever, wad crap am I talking about haha. But we left the stadium like 5 mins after it started cos we couldnt' comprehend wad was going on and it was boring. But it was pretty interesting - when i saw so many people dressed in their gears on the field like little blue & red ants haa.

I only really lurve the apple juice (manzana = apple) AND ice-cream here! but we had some rather nice tacos ytd after we went to play basketball. for me, more like watching. I realized I really like to watch. I also learnt tat I'm SENSITIVE TO LIGHT! since young, i always feel my eyes feeling very strained when i'm under the sun. and i felt kinda xin ku (sufferous/hard to bear) cos it was too bright all along though under the shelter, it was rather cooling cos the wind was strong)...

ah actually it's pretty interesting - my other 4 singaporean house mates. i wonder why Life/goddess chose for all 5 ofus to be together ah. learn frm each other? their wackiness, their zest for life? cos for me, like i said, I feel like i've been dormant/kinda like dying (choy but it's kinda true) like no soul in me. AH I NEED TO READDDDDDDD!!!! oh well, believe in the goddess and have faith. when really dont know what to do, just watever la，随便过！i was so in lurve with that phrase in the past once before. with sang, cos it was said by sang haha. jus anyhow loh sometimes haha. until you have a better idea. 命中有时终须有，命中无时莫强求！顺其自然，随缘呗哈哈。

we finally got a house!

2009-08-06T16:46:00.004+08:00

We finally got a houseeeeeeeeeeeeee hahhahah.

Address is:

Marsella #246,
Colonia Alta Vista C.P. 64840
Monterrey, Neuvo Leon, Mexico

house phone no: +52 8117728438
call if u want to. hee. time diff is 14 hrs slower than singapore!]
or text my
We did grocery shopping @ Soriana's (like our fave hangout place for the past few days/evenings whatever) hahah. Cleaned up the house then we have a more homey house! Haha... We were so scared of our house at first (okie maybe just me) cos there were no luz (lights). We went to buy more light bulbs and it was scary at first! Somemore cos the house is really quite big, okie very big. Every room has a double bed (queen sized bed). Cos Cherlyn and I took the bedroom upstairs (master bedroom), it's friggin' big (the cuatro/habitacion/room) and there's both of us, we brought up 2 single beds.... AHHHHHHH very difficult situation - to try to transport the super stubborn mattresses that refused to bend/be stretched cos they're too deing(hard haha). Neways now both of us are not scared of our room and even showered in semi-lights (only frm our walk-in closet!) haha. ah, elab more later.

TIRED TIRED. we are going to sch to do subject registration and we'll see what we're doing later haha. always no plans. TIRED TIRED............................................
AHHHHHHHHH FARKKKKKKKKKKKKK.................................

OKIE pics later....

just wanna say i'm here safely after all...

2009-08-02T06:01:00.003+08:00

just wanna say i'm here safely after all...

in Monterrey, Mexico haa.

The weather is really hottttttttttt, kinda like Singapore, or maybe even worse! I just wana say thanks to all who texted me :))))) I will reply you all in some way online later. It's 5pm now and I wanna rest a bit since the other 4 people with me are taking their nap now haa. We are going to go out later when it gets cooler (hopefully - haven experienced evening + night time here yet) to help Nic buy stuff cos he lost 1 of his luggages. Poor ting hahahah... Hope it gets cooler at night!!!

I need to buck up on my Spanish and I have jet lag but I can't really drop on the bed and fall asleep right away. 47 hrs without showering - ewwwwwwwww... reminded me of camps/yellowstone last yr. Gawsh, visiting LA during our 10 hrs stopover gave me nostalgic feelings of us travelling there last yr with the da-jies. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh... okie okie i'm stressed out i guess. Mind, stop moving too fast.

Be positive. Law of attraction. Like Corine says, don't let the seed of negativity grow!!! I'm here for a great adventure. I spent so much money to get here and so much energy. SO.... OOOO it better be good. IT WILL BE GOOD! the best is yet to come :)

I lub u all, friends and family. I watched Hannah Montana (the movie) & Obsessed on the flight (SIA hee m_m). Started this Korean movie by Kim Ha Neul and this familiar guy but forgot his name - some secret agent show but was too tired to finish it... I also started this HK movie about corruption by Eason Chan HAHAHA... pretty funnaye but didn't get to finish it.

Gawsh I wanted to write on the plane but was lazy/tired... So I'm like making it up here? Though I tot I wanted to write a short post haha.

OKie, hasta luego!

Thanks adds for saying you hope I have many joyous moments cos I'm a good one :) I better be a good one!

this will be my shortest post ever - NOT!

2009-07-10T00:15:00.012+08:00

this will be my shortest post ever haha...

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WRITE...

okie end haha.

alamak dont know la...
i need to read more and watch more shows hor haha...

okie la... got happier.
MUST BE POSITIVE. aha - read more to find inspiration - shows too! hahhaa..

at least i'm looking forward to mexico haha. unknown. the future...

gawsh in the end i wrote the same things. like encouraging myself.
i finished timing & translating express boy EP 10 a few days ago - yay!

DANCE LOTS - i'm gaining soooo much weight i'm sure! atee soooo muchhh... wil update more later.

at least my days are considered more meaningful? haha. currently lurving Landy Wen Lan's 眼淚知道！Zhang Zhi Cheng's 張智成 “暗戀”！Liu Li Yang's 劉力揚 “寂寞光年” - GAWSH the lyrics are really veryyy veryyyy well-written. Like to portray that helpless, lonely atmosphere the singer feels/lyricist feels...

i'm not exactly fully well well, but at least it's better bah! oh gawsh, i seriously need to practise better sleeping habits ha! THINGS WILL WORK OUT IN THE END - they always do!

ah don't know wad else to say and i don't want tis to be a wasted post so might as well put some random memories here haha. LEARN TO TREASURE HAHA! i still think of yellowstone often these days.

9TH JULY WAS CHARMAINE DA-JIE'S BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HAHA. i wished u late by 1hr 15 mins online hahaha... pai seh i was at work whole day tonight, i'm going to text u belated happy bday text after i get these pics up ahha...

i'm feeling... not-really-sure - not say super happy but not say super sad now haa. LAUGH AT MYSELF if i ever bcome a real happy gurl again in future for feeling this UNEASY PHASE!

23rd JUNE 2009 (TUE)
JB DAYYYY AHHAHA...
before haa. (haircut i mean)

me & hong (sang's childhood friend)

AFTERRRRRRRR HAHHA.

cos they straightened it for me, it looks more neat.
yay i like my tongue's pose! very hard to get this u know! hah. i got it like loong loong ago and don't know how to do it. now i dunno how to do it too aha. YAY!

front. wink. a bit side ha.

4 of us ahha.
sang, hong, lene, kyla (ger) ha.
us with our new hair that day ahha!

HONG KONG KIM GARY TIME AHHAHAHA!
ATE LIKE MADDDDDDDD LA...
so happy that the price half price hahaha!
plus okie la, admit it! it was funnaye and a happy time eating soooo much goood food hahaha. READ THE FEEDBACK AHA. SO yay, i was happy @ the moment. though I admit it's a diff kind of happiness. i guess i shd stop trying to find the yellowstone happiness back right? haha. let it go...

honestly, wad's meant to be wil be. ACCEPT THAT there are things i really can't control and seek joy in diff ways bah ahha... JIA YOU JIA YOU. lurve myself, take care of myself well, dote on myself, after all, i live for myself, okie and other ppl but must take care of myself! MY PARENTS GAVE BIRTH TO ME FOR ME TO BE HAPPY AND HAVE A GOOD & BLESSED LIFE, RIGHT? if not, THEY GIVE BIRTH FOR WAD? can waste the money on other things hahaa...

---- OKIEEE, finished scolding myself ah ahhaha.

the feedback form ahha.
REALLY LOTS OF ENTERTAINMENT SIA!
till i felt a lil' empty when we left haha.

i can't even rmb wad i drank la.

hahaa...

okie, on to my bday....
i will talk about it some other day, if i feel like?
but i did feel happiness and joy, mostly touched by efforts of friends & lurved ones bah :) plus some unexpected bday wishes haha.

OKIE I BLUFFED, IT'S NOT MY SHORTEST POST EVER. in the end i posted pics and talked about stuff. at least i'm doing things. ahha. enjoy the momenT! learn to be like real latinas/latinos! to really enjoy the moment hahaah... like partying and wadever shit, instead of dwelling on unhappy stuff and things i can't control huh.

1st bday thing...
FLAMEZ SURPRISED ME at my door step.
though i knew they were coming, somehow haha.
CT called to ask if I could see the NTU webpage aha. then i felt as if they're gonna do the same thing to shuan for me haha. later, i told them i tot i'd see our poster or my picture or wad on the homepage of NTU website haha.

we ended up sky-pee-ing with evelyn @ switzerland... IN MY NETBOOK. my bestie stays in my computer, she lives in there! soo nice haha... LG is such a nice brand haha. but my poor earphones for my cell phone - one side spoilt again! but i realized my expectations for gadgets is SOOO LOW AHA. i can listen to music and radio i happy enough haa. i dont' care wad brand the speakers are, as long as it's audible and i can hear it haha!

i hart polaroids - courtesy of RACHEL the lil' rebel's mini polaroid camera haha.
NICEEEEEE... bien! bonita! lurvely!

SNAPSHOTS BY sang sang aha - the not-bad photographer ha. i shd have come up with a more interesting adjective but brain doesn't want to think much ah.

MORE PICS LATER HAA.

they left ard 3 plus am.

then....... [TWO] meeting POH HUI (YU BAOBAO), Tyris Buddy Poh Poh Ying, Sam Sam @ Bakerzinn for CAKE-TASTING! haha, we ordered oreo cheesecake in the end ha. pics still in my camera hahaa...

then........ [THREE] MANHATTAN FISH MARKET with family & sang sang aha. damn funnaye man! we were ravenous, especially my parents cos they waited for like 20-30 mins? haha. wad's wrong with the youngsters these days! i feel bad i was late ( abit la ahah), but happy that I'm not the latest, I was the youngster to arrive the earliest! ahhhh loreal nail polish was the special gift for the bday gurl. They were having this 100 yr anniversary thing and IF I KNEW BETTER, I'D HAVE ANSWERED QNS instead - got MASCARA! NAIL POLISH SO BO HUA HA! (not that worthy ahah) but okie BE GLAD and it was funny how mama sorta made me go get it and i had to linger around til all 5 qns were asked before going up to the host to say I'M THE BDAY GURL when i had gone down to ask him about the special thing for the bday person and he told me to come back later.....

the first platter to arrive WAS THE MOST DELICIOUS. yummy! yum yum! cos papa, mama, sang and me were soooo hungry and we really like SAVAGES ( a lil') ahha... i'm actually kinda thinking of what happened to write for details so i can savour the joy of reading in yrs to come haa. it's a pretty "ling lei" birthday bah ahha. no parties but i ended up meeting friends (okie call them my lurved ones) randomly ahha (and family of course).... so yay rambling is good. cos i know one day, my happy self who craves details will be awoke again and stay for good (for a longer period of time at least) haha...

"我們都太年輕，不需要那么多煩惱吧..."
read frm somewhere or something like that so i dont' understand why i like to make myself feel sad for not having HANDSOME/CUTE-LOOKING GUY FRIENDS! REALLY IT'S THE idols craze......... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

OKIE MEXICO MEXICO is promising in this aspect though ahhahaahha...
may all the shuai-ges unite haha!

5TH JULY 2009 (SUN)
sending off yu bao bao haha. YAY! got sam sam's car to pick me up in the morning ahha. yummy breakfast and we had fun chatting aha. BUDDY driving, SAM SAM CHAT LAST MINUTE HAHA. buy dress - shop shop!

over think and feel sad got no HANDSOME boi FRIENDS (damn idol craze and fuckin' handsome dudes pretty boys all over the place LIKE FLOWERSSSS) . til i MADE myself dance and did NOBODY & SO HOT learning at night haha till the 2nd time i wore heels with it, my 9th floor neighbour came up to complain. SO EMBARRASSING, but oh well, it's a pretty funny thing bah haa. UNEXPECTED...

[FOUR] 6th JULY 2009 (MON)
FLAMEZZZ meeting for my bday dinner haa! ATE A LOT AGAIN... HAHA. but at least on sunday, i looked forward to mon, tue & wed haha. LOTS OF PICS AGAIN.......... wait gurls wait haha for me... we had fun chatting in the end haha, DANCING IN THE TRAIN.

xin wang taiwan cafe - city link.... PARFAIT ICE-CReam. to think i always tot it was FRIED ICE-CREAM. the platform they had for making the ice-cream WAS ICY COLD but i tot it was hawt. must be all the fried ice-cream fantasizing ahaha. (this fantasy was in me all along ahha cos i just lurve it sooo much haha lucky taiwan has it. lucky msia has it)... then MAC polaroid taking was sooo fun ahha. YAH LA, not bad la ha.

[FIVE] 7TH JULY 2009 (TUE)
9ofus! - THANKS MY DEARIE GURLSSSSSSS AHHAHAA... will post pics and MY FIRST BDAY GIFTS (other than cakes haha - i've had 2 cakes prior to them)....

PLUS BLOODY i just finished up what's left of the POSH brownies and i'm so fuckin' full now i dont think i can sleep but it's 1.47am now and i have to work at 1030am and i CAN'T FARKIN BE LATE AGAIN!

OKIE FISH & CO GLASS HOUSE @ DHOBY GHAUT, beside Park Mall ahhaa... NOBODY DANCING - SABOTAGED haha but okie la, i wanted to be spontaneous and daring and play for fun haha. THOUGH I LOOKED FAT... gawsh, seriously need to lose weight. somemore nv really dance these days cos nv attend MJ or dancetitude lessons :( but oh well, take the time to LEARN DANCE AT HOME BAH AHAH. "nobody" proved to be useful but if only i practised more on that fateful night hah. okie on stage better aha. I HOPED everyone was entertained, i was myself despite feeling shy and stuff. at least i danced in front of u all finally aahhahaha.

i feel like going to K before i leave for mexico heh heh. sing till our throats burst! I WANNA SING MAYDAY SONGS - all about youth, fun, friends, dreams hahahah :)

[SIX] 8TH JULY 2009 (WED)
JB AGAINNNNNNNNN...
ONLY SANG, ME AND LENE HAHA.
we really had funnnnnn. LENE IS SOOO FUNNAYE AHA. the things she come up with hahahhaa. ATE SOO MUCH GAWSH TOO MUCH FOOD HAA. then they say "better to die cos too full than too hungry". i asked papa just now, he said of course "die cos of over-fullness" hahaa... GOT PICS AND............. hahaaaaaaaaaa BOUGHT MANY THINGS. I told them I really feel spending money in Msia like MONOPOLY MONEY HAA. will take pics and show, if i'm up for it haa.

tat's it for now.
my fingers hurt frm clearing plates and carrying trays IN KUISHIN BO. so why am i still typing sooo much? hahaha....

YU BAO BAO, TAKE CARE IN LONDON.
I GOT THINK OF U TOO BAH.
guess we did become closer haha. i mean the rest of u too. SAM, MIN HAA. since we all wasted so much money - i stil feel abit conned to go to CRYSTAL JADE THAT NIGHT AHH. i told my parents just now and my mama just laughed haa. gawsh, my mama can be damn funnaye at times - i will write her texts here haha... HAHHA. i lurve her hahhaa. and papa too haha :D

work - got a bit backstabbed and i feel some kind of bad luck or karma cos of my past doings - late, food-eating... but i'm sure it'll turn out well. like YU BAO BAO SAID - "BE POSITIVE" AHHA. then if dont like to work, quit. but if work more, will have more money to spend in MEXICO. enjoy later hahah! work hard now bah ahha. after all, doing all these things is for myself haha. but i feel so poor hah.... WAS LIFTED UP HAA. cos that's what i keep telling her to be in london during her first few days there haha.

AND the paper steamboat uncle did cheer me up when i saw him. he's like always sooo happy doing his thing hahaa. will write in memoirs hhaa. should talk to him more and heck care everything else haha. NO TIME FOR REGRETS HAHA.after all, i don't have much days left in kuishin bo haha.

（i told sang i like this uncle @ kuishin bo. sang went, “你可以有出息一點嗎？”or something along that line haha)

CHEER UP KYLALA. U HAVE THINGS (GREAT ONES) waiting for u.
make the most out of things and after all, crying or fretting doesn't solve things. (this thought kept popping up in the day - in the afternoon just now)... so it's best to try to find a solution aha.

MY FINGERS FEEL SO DEAD NOW. sooo go and get the ingredients frm RESTAURANT CITY NOW (this is like my job at night these days hah), finish ep 24 of twin of brothers maybe and GO AND SLEEP BAH AHHA.

to look forward to:
later 10 Jul 09' (fri) - dinner with chong sisters + m3/justice bao ahah. I WIL BE SOOO HAPPY TO SEE THEM HAHA. a night of laughing and stomach-paining haha.

11 Jul 09' (sat) - sentosa playing with yeek & hai hailin aha. catch up and talk about life haha. they hold the key to my JC MEMORIES HAHA. family dinner @ night. I AM SO fuckin lame haa.

12 Jul 09' (sun) - nothing so far - so might be BASKETBALL WATCHING @ YEW TEE HAH. no. 5 & no.6 hahaha. not bad to watch ahaa.... yay, i enjoy watching bball games ahaa. blackkid also says that haha, he can see that i do enjoy. i was amazed, that i still can enjoy HAHAHAH.

i start to feel tireddddddddd yay!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaa.

UNEXPECTEDNESS OF IT ALL HAA - BE CONTENTED - GOOD THINGS WILL COME IF U HAVE GOOD THOUGHTS! Don't let the seed grow (negativity) - corine ha.

2009-06-27T13:36:00.006+08:00

ahhh some updates haha...
just wanna post some pics...

currently obsessed with staring at Restaurant City, watch how my employees go around serving the diff dishes and hearing the oh-so-lurvely sound of "ting ting" of money & the gourmet points haha. but i'm starting to get A LIL' bored with it cossss it's kinda lag sometimes haha...

26 Jun 09' (Fri) - transformers 2 hahaaa.
27 Jun 09' (Sat) - early morn - mini house party.
card game was pretty funnaye hahaha.
zhi yao = bloody idiot
kyla = son of a bitch
min rabbit = daughter of THE bitch
samantha = bastard bitch (gawsh damn lame)
tyris = muttafuckin
yu poh hui = fuckin' asshole
HAHAHHA. INTERESTING NAMES RIGHT?
we were like scolding each other vulgarities.
poh hui's suggestion - gush... to play with vulgarities haha but tyris went, "like this also vulgarities meh? haha look at bastard bitch ahha. son of A bitch. daughter of THE bitch ha.

(or rather early morning this morn) mini house party last night. OMIGUSH, i realized i didn't take any pics hahhaah. oh oh! it's like we're meeting so often these days after all (all cos Yu Poh Hui & me leaving soon?) haha. hanging out @ JP on 15 jun 09' (mon), kbox on 16 jun 09' (tue), 26 jun 09' (fri) transformers + post-hanging-out-in-kylala's house all cos her parents are still in tibet. COMING BACK TONIGHT haha. i was like half-playing restaurant city & sweeping + mopping the house!...

oh my gush, i'm such a procrastinator. this lil' voice would pop up sometimes saying u're bored doing all these household chores alone but then i'd try to fight it (try!) by saying, ur mama would be sooo pleased to come home to a slightly cleaner house than a very very unkempt & revolting house? haha. we're really kinda scared of her...

i'm gonna miss sleeping on their bed (hard rock to Sang) haha. i just "WHAM" & GO OFF to sleep... when i just lie on it haa. such an awesome cure for insomnia. i guess it's just real comforting and the room is dark and it's a new environment? and i think of my parents. i like to laze there anyway haha...

RANDOM: + some pics posting
20 Jun 09' (Sat)
NIGHT CYCLING!

the da-jies couldn't make it but i really enjoyed some parts, crapping with Corine & the pics taking part come to think of it. despite being so tired, OF COURSE AND MAC BREAKFAST HOTCAKES HAHHA. 6 bucks gush and no cola glass! too shag liao, 8am then reach home haa.

the korean siao crazy fren!

24 Jun 09' (Wed)
sang lurves the arena phone actually.
thanks sh for lending haha :D & giving me the lanyard!
I'M LG FAN HAHA. hard core!

after work on the bus - so super dark la!

the cuzzins - @ the corridor.
gush damn lame la haha.
but i'm trying to make it fun haha!
my crazy self haa. (mister says he thinks i've got a pretty crazy personality over here!)
like he means "over there" so if i say it, it's like 'over here' haha.

25 Jun 09' (Thu)
watched basketball match with tang tang wei haha. thanks to my new net friend telling me they got basketball match around JP. YAY! it was really therapeutic talking to Tang Tang Wei haa. yay! for saying i'm a kai xin guo to you. i shd be one to myself. it's like with someone who has a common experience + “大難不死一周年” hahaaa... we ate meiji ice-cream, 6 for 6 bucks hah. cheap a not ar? omigush i just realized they are smaller than mac's 50 cents ice-cream but it's 1 dollar! they are cute though hahaa...

two survivors out of 5 in Shoshone lake.
lost. a year and a few days ago.
23rd jun 08...

meiji ice-cream.
tang tang wei went, "they are meiji, should be good. 是meiji,應該好吃".
and he also show off that fanny fang fang yu text him ahha. bleh xp

an idiot. haha. 好像大白癡！

evelyn! i miss you...
we miss you. i think he misses you too but he nv say? or maybe i didn't catch it if he did say? aha. but we were the SURVIVORS...

ONE YR AGO AHA. ah blogger don't let me upload pics now i don't know why. NEXT TIME, will show the during BEING LOST. haa.

WE SHOULD SOOOO MEET UP soon, my fellow yellowstoners. especially the da-jies!!!! Pui Ee too ahah. cos the others just met in Taina's aparment on...

07 Jun 09' (Sun)
TAINA'S APARTMENT - mini gathering...

with 3 koreans + echo haa!

i was sooo sad at how my blackcurrent pudding-like jellies turned out. they look very vile but they are nice haha! i'll try another flavour. it's really the colour la, but i kinda like how it tasted and some of them said it was nice too ahha...

UNGLAM ?
i named it UNglam but i don't really think so? haha.

me & faith.
not a good angle for me though haha.

(oh i rushed there after coca cola dance prac actually ahha - reminds myself)
YAY! met Selma/Jiwon Onni and talked about fruits, makeup, korea, dramas (THEY ARE FAKE, THEY AREN'T THAT MANY RICH KOREANS like gu jun pyo - some stuff that cute Jiwon Onni said) ahha... -- meeting her tgt with Corine (korea-siao funny fren), Sam (korea-siao gina/gurl as well), Yu (Sam wants her to go along but so far i haven't heard any response frm her ahha), Shuhui if she goes with me after our HAIR COLOURING @ hoyu next Wed hahah!

woah, sometimes i still don't feel that all is well enough, despite me doing stuff... but in anyway, it got better... maybe maybe... I'LL JUST look out for THE UNEXPECTED THINGS IN LIFE. like the basketball match i got to watch, randomly out with tang tang wei proved to be so goood haha... ksb on friday, coincidental red specs waitress haha. oh and night time attica call ahha. damn lame la this one! SHUN QI ZI RAN HOR aha. since they do happen. BELIEVE! gawsh, transformers 2! "i know it will... because i believe". FAITH IS SOOO IMPORTANT NAH!

gonna catch another basketball match with Tang Tang Wei later ahhaa.
IN ANYWAY, I'M FEELING BETTER, at least so much better than the rather recent past in which i was moaning all day and feeling bored and suicidal even. PIAK MYSELF - wad a waste if i really do that right? my parent's bringing up, the money spent. My parents are pretty nice to me. okie okie, VERY NICE TO ME ACTUALLY. honestly, i know i have a blessed family compared to many others but sometimes it's just pretty normal and weird in its own way. NAH BLA BLA BLA, STOP IT KYLALA! "lurve them, like u really mean it" :D they care for u and appreciate them, to save yourself from possible future regrets for not treasuring them when they're alive. SAME GOES TO FRIENDS TOO! & sang and the rest of the cousins cohort haha.

JUST TRY TO ENJOY! experience life - isn't that wad u want? haaa.

ah haha, a post to remind myself of what i did back here in singapore before i left for mexico. ENJOY WHILE U CAN. ENJOY WHILE I CAN AHAH. i won't be young forever - 青春不留白！- stick with it haha. enjoy YOUR YOUTH. cos once it passes, it wont come back.

LOOK BACK AND enjoy... reminisce.
this is... life. i shd really read more ahha.

1 more unexpected thing:
James Yayoshi talked to me on msn that night telling me he's sad ahhaa. cos he just read a book and like "normally you're the sad one right?" hahha. okie a bit bad/mean, but it was funnaye!

ahhhhhh now is 6.39pm, still need to finish up mopping the living room and go shower and go buy cheesecake for me & tang tang wei (my treat again aha - cos i feel bad for not giving him anything after he gave me a bear last summer as a bday gift - then he says he'd rather i treat him things - damn him, at first i say i treat him donut he said really? the sun rose frm the west ar?) HAHAHA... plus he knows my pattern (yu also say it's my pattern - ahhhh liao gong! 抓狂！） then on thu we meant to meet at 8pm, he text me at 8.21pm telling me "我知道你會遲到，所以我剛剛出門" -meaning "i knew you'd be late, so i just left my house too!) HAHAHAHAH... FUNNAYE RIGHT, in the end he reached at around 9pm then i waited for like 20 mins haha...

oh neways i told D i was gonna eat cheesecake and watch the game, he said like watch movie hahahhaa... damn funnaye haha!

dajie men! the big jie jies! 大姐們！一起去新山 Jb! tang tang wei's THE GREAT DISHWASHING ARMY! 洗碗大軍！EAT HONGKONG KIM GARY I'M MEMBER Haha. will blog more about that pretty hilarious day. okie full of laughter actually haha. don't think it's not fun, the laughing parts were fun aha. playing with the customer service card - will blog later! BE CONTENTED WITH YOUR LIFE, GOOD THINGS WILL Come when u're feeling good/feeling positive = mix of admeous & Ai wei (ivy on 93.3 fm)

OH AND i Keep buying yellow stuff these days i realized.
will take pics and show okie haha.

i have one month left in singapore hahahaa.
i will try to live it happily, at least not sadly ahha...
treasure ur friends! ahhh 6.55pm ahhhh.

I WON'T try to sum up my long blog post, but pls read naruto/watch naruto & watch P.S. I Love You - cut hair in JB hah, new me! discover myself bah!

2009-06-23T02:20:00.010+08:00

woah chatting with my dear cousin Chong & mister haha - unexpected but they made me feel better!...

i'm lazy but i guess after uploading all my pics into my desktop, then i realized i did do things. that's the thing about me i guess. i used to be obsessed about pictures, rmb! when u just got ur digicam and more and more people started to get their own digital cameras... i was sooo into uploading pics and making sure they were public and sent them to friends asap but now i'm mellow about that...

shall i relive it? at least they are evidence of memories ahha! ON SUNDAY, someone thought I failed my english that's why I had to study Chinese hahaha. then she said, "oh english is all about reading and practising. you don't read at all right?" --- OMIGUSH. U TELLING THAT TO A PERSON WHO READS HER ENTIRE LIFE, okie frm 10 yrs old onwards hahahaha. damn funnaye ahha! IT'S ONE EVENT IN MY LIFE, pretty interesting haha. but she's kinda sad, i mean pitiful so... just hope things get better for her. she was trying... to talk to... us . . . hee. then all my bloody fren does is keep using my laptop to chat with friend! HAHAHHA.

MY BRUH LIKE SOO FUNNAYE IN HIS own world aka. his room!
in his fantasy world of warcraft/dota/or whatever you call it haha.
talking as loud as he does! haha like...

"kill him la!"
"fuck la you all... ji bai ahha"

AAAHHAHAHA - WAS VERY AMUSING TO ME WHEN I HEARD IT HAHA!
cos there's like a real war going on in there! WAGE WARRRRRR!!!

SOMETHING COOL HAHA.
it's my coca-cola shirt haha!
i washed it and was so amazed all the dye came out.
at times when i'm amazed, i tot this dead/almost-dead me can't feel anything amazing haha BUT LUCKILY I STILL CAN! HAHA ...

time to update my blog/spice it up with pics? haha...
i'll just go by this random order and add more along the way okie haha.
NEED TO BE MORE RANDOM - UNEXPECTED/SPONTANEOUS/LESS PLANNED!

13 Jun 09' SATURDAY
open up open up some happiness ahha... i LIKE THE SONG LA HAA. try to have fun haa. will post the lyrics here next time haa. i'm kinda tired now but this is such a long blog post and it feels like i do things wad aha.

can watch on youtube a video that Alyssa this senior made haa - really nice!
i appeared a few secs - yucks though haha...

Jocie Guo Mei Mei & Derrick Ho haa.
Derrick is pretty cute haha. And he keeps on saying "i'm having a lot of fun", like he keeps mentioning the word "fun' haha. yesh, fun is very important haha! i realized that these days haha. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, THEY DO HAHA.

do re mi haa.
before the 2nd/last time we freezed then danced haa.

MJ group pic.
but always cannot see people one haa.
too many ppl liao haa.
i'm at the left haha, in blue haa!

THEN AFTER THAT HAHA. we went to Esplanade to dance haa. i went for Mel's prac and stood in for Chun Leen aha, that choreo is sooo nice to dance to! so got "fu~" haha. the beats, make me high and good that i dance that adrenline out haa. i went to the IT show to look look haha, which was why I went back on the next day (sunday) last day to buy my LG mini laptop after all haha.

wahahaha. the first mac meal to get the MAC cola glass for Sang cos I broke her purple one haa. it was pretty funnaye la haa . eat MAC just to get the glass haa.

5 hrs plus of waiting ahha! 9 plus til 2 plus haa. but finally they came hah!
ATTICA 28 BUCKS - entered at 3.30am, left at 4.41am - RUN TO CATCH LAST NIGHT RIDER. don't wana let history repeat itself but rmb fate, NR5 hah, nice passerby/stranger who tried to help but to no avail aha :D SUI YUAN. ah but in the end took NR8 cos like at least nearer to Jurong, better than nv take any at all right haha. but haix, waited again aha until 7 am then reach home in the end cos waited for first train frm Bukit Gombak to Boon Lay @ 6.06am (gush, waited frm 5.15am haha)... A DAY OF WAITING. i even start to think it's karma haha - for always being late these days haha.

waiting, outside Suntec, while trying to finish my Mac upsized meal haa.

then hanging out in ladies @ clarke quay cannery there ...
HAAHHA... taina was trying to puke cos she felt real miserable after drinking lots in the apartment before finally coming to Clarke Quay. Poor her haha. But bet that was like a lesson after all and she's fine now and enjoying herself in Vietnam now haha!

rmb funnaye things - korean, bintan haha. lil' bit of green tea for 28 bucks HAHA. paper money haa. (like i treat money like paper money these days - abit ha). i'm like so willing to spend on clubbing and cab fare when it's foreign friends la. haix. haha. i spent 22.50 once and 24 bucks once for after clubbing with them cos once was on Wed (no NR) then once cos MISSED THE BUS HAA. but that magical saturday (first one) cost me around 42.50 haa.

I KEEP HANGING OUT IN JP THESE DAYS HAHA!

15 Jun 09' MONDAY - dear gurls haha, i pai seh/sorry (i hate to say sorraye) but im like so mean to drag my lazy arse after sooo long haa. i did have fun ahhaaha, with stitch!

bakerzinn raspberry cheesecake hah.
i luv it la. ate thrice alr ha. $3.85, inclusive of GST.

ahha, thanks gao mei haha!
i posed with the giant stitch for the pic for my papa.
i bought a massager for papa but he nv got to use it yet haa.
MY PARENTS ARE IN TIBET, SINCE LAST THU til this SAT HAAHA!
THE HOUSE IS IN A MESS, NO GOVERNMENT (MEI YOU ZHENG FU) ...
Sang was even commenting if mama happens to come home before this Sat, she'll probably just... i don't know ha. explode or wadever? haha.

even the gao mei can't really put it back.
COS IT'S FREAKIN' HEAVY & IT'S A FREAKIN 500 BUCKS HA.
gush, no one could guess how ex it costs. we were shocked, mixed feelings-way (both good and bad kind) at how ex it was haha. cos like i was fiddling with it then realized it's so ex, amazed and scared haa.

we passed it to the crew there in the end ha.
bu yao bu zi liang li aha.

wow it's really a pretty sight...
being surrounded with all these sweet, soft-coloured soft toys ahha.
don't think abt if looking at them forever will be how aha.
cos they look sooo cute and cheer u up at that time aha.
especially sam bandy so cute with tat yellow dont know what haa.

OKIE, got lurvely gurls too. HAHAHAHAH.
WHY SO HIGH AR? so bhb suddenly ahha. yeah, who cares aha. for the fun of it!

AH, YI JUNG!/KIM BUM!
corine's voice: "kyla, stop dreaming."
HAHAHAHHA....
natsujo06: "he's just a fairytale." (but N was talking about da dong haha)

always pass by Beauty Credit on the way to work and after work.
but i nv took any pics of it/with it haha.
here goes!

maybe i shd soo soo fall back in lurve with lotsa pictures-snapping huh ahah...
yu/poh hui/gao mei says i smiled really sweetly or nicely, can't rmb wad exactly but it's good haa. at first i tot, "where got?" then i looked at it again, with my heart, yong xin kan aha. then really think so ahha :D

sam look so cute haa. WHY yu u cover ur face haa.
if not, can look cute tgt with Sam mah haha.

i kinda like the way i smiled haa.
they asked me to pose with this mickey. so we like hovered outside the action city area and along beauty credit for the time i was there hahaha.

it's a weird mickey though.

end of pics for that day haa. i didn't bother to take more pics when we were at Mac haa. I GOT ANOTHER CHARCOAL COLA GLASS NAH! haa. ahhh i was like sad when i realized i couldn't find my glass despite it being another charcoal one then thought i left it in Mac. then poh hui told me she put it in my action city big carrier with my papa's massager for Father's Day aha. SO RELIEVED HAH. enjoy the moment ba - YAY! HAH, CHEER FOR EVERYTIME U HAVE SOMETHING! wei mei you ci de yong you huan hu haa!

16 JUN 09' TUESDAY
pics frm Sam not yet in my desktop yet haa.
so i can't post haha. but we had fun ... yeah, sometimes haha. it was funnaye that SAM REPEATED SS501'S U R MAN'S MV FOR 4 TIMES and WONDER GURLS' NOBODY FOR 2 TIMes haha... but when she wanted to keep repeating, we dreaded it, okie i dreaded it a bit though it was still very funnaye haha. I WANNA WATCH THE VIDEO, FASTER LA SAM SAM! so i still have the ability to have fun ahah. and i really enjoy car rides - especially that of friends', cos it's so rare haa. not to say that i don't enjoy my papa's haa. i just like it i guess aha.

17 JUN 09' Wednesday - very random meeting! THANKS hai hailin MIAP for coming all the way again aha. cos u're scared i'll not leave the house again once i reach home after work despite being 5-8 mins bus ride frm JP haha.

YEAH, yeek, i really lurved the ring u gave me & the elephant haha. but i forgot to take pics of the ring yet haha.

i look shag la.
after work in my pregnant lady work black shoes haha.
i rally think they make me feel like im a pregnant gurl haha.
pregnant with who? haha, with my nonexistent atm(at the moment) bf who lives in the future's kid hah.

we shared the PROFITEROLE haha (pui ee, u made me wanna eat it - i wish the scoop of vanilla ice cream was bigger! cos vanilla neutralizes the chocolate sauce and makes it less sweet haha) but it was YUMMY nonetheless ahha!

THEN we watched "Ghosts of Girlfriends' Past"...
Ah Jennifer Garner has indeed aged but I still like this very endearing quality in her. or rather, there's something very endearing about her haha - can't really describe it. but this soft, gentle, humane touch in her? yet she's feisty at times (alias & elektra though i nv really watched them ahha) & lots of fun! gawsh aha, yay! i'm using all these adjectives now. the soul in me likes to read after all haha.

I was touched by some parts... One part I felt real strongly was that, sometimes we fear lurving others, cos we're scared they'll leave us one day and that pain would suck so bad. But then, it's better to feel pain than regret - YESH YESH YESH! which is why i'm more daring these days hahaha...

i think ppl have the wrong impression of me WATCHING DRAMAS/SHOWS ALL THE WHILE. the actual fact is, i really procrastinate and end up never watch ahhahaha...the last thing i watched is "Shugo Chara" episode 2 & 1/2 of ep 3 last night hahahah... This is a cute show and made me feel better. Gawt the usual anime/manga humour la haha! Plus, I'm finding myself! There's this inner potential in everyone and that's who you really are, deep inside... Though ppl may say there's many different parts of a person... AND BELIEVE HAHA. its' very important!

THEN Rushed home haha. made up and stuff haha. went salsa-ing. only had one dance with Ridhwan ahha i saw him again ahha. but had to rush to phuture. GAHDDAMMIT LA! 3 BUCKS on top of the 5 bucks frm Amara Hotel to Zouk cos I was in the city ahha. but then, it was that day that i texted watata and asked for directions n ended up having one interesting night though not that exciting but it was interesting and an experience after all aha. nv fails to make me laugh at the purity aha. i wasn't early enough for phuture and even though i said i'd pay, they don't let me in la! cos i'm not A BOY! ahhh! then mambo night haha, at first not high, then made myself self-high haa. then it got better la hahha. AT LEAST, CAB FARE VERY CHEAP LA HA. 7 BUCKS EACH PERSON! cos divided by 4. xiaowei, i'm waiting for ur pics but i'll put up the few frm the Mobile Ravers first haha.

outside ladies in Zouk

JUST HAVE FUN AND NJOY BAH AHHA!
TO MORE NIGHTS OF FUN-FILLED CLUBBING!
in the limited few weeks of Singapore time for me haha!
YEAH MAN! YEAH GURLS! HAA...

honestly, right now, after chatting with the 2 bruhs haha, i feel better. Like try to be content, there's really a reason though I dont know what. So I try not to think too much about whatever and just really, relax more, to be surprised more hahah!

it's starting to clear huh haha...
wait and see haa. let it be! friends & family are sooo important ha.

papa mama i miss you two ha! but i end up enjoying having their double bed to myself haa. be safe in xi zang, Tibet, people keep saying you all go there to attain Western scriptures. 去取经！
(MY BRUH just went, "ji bai sia..." to his fren online haha - he says it out loud hah).

the first night they left haa, sang came to nua with me on their bed haa and we chatted and i felt like everything was good again, like in general about life cos that's one of our favourite pastimes i realized haa. i told lin min/jellyfish/xiao pi hai haha the next day at work cos i overslept and was late for work n she went “那是最幸福的事”... wondered if she said "时间不知不觉地过..." or not but i guess so. yeash it is one of the most fortunate things/happiest things haa.a

neways, sang went back to sleep on her own bed after all. i asked sang the next night why nv sleep with me haha. she said, her body couldn't fall asleep. okie la, cos haha, actually my bed is like rock, as hard as rock haa. my other lil' cousins come and they say so too haha. then my cousin's bed is pretty soft, much softer than mine so she always never sleeps on my bed hah. then her reply was like, “他们的床和你的一样硬，要我怎样睡？” 哈哈哈哈, IT WAS VERY FUNNAYE TO ME HAHA!
(bruh goes, "that medusa... always when i farming he come... damn irritating you know. fuck la. ji bai.) --- HAHAHAHA, HE HAS no idea i'm making a transcript of what he's talking abt - it's funnaye la!

the ear stud, sang said, “幸好没有戴，好让他逃过一劫！” the later part haha - maybe not exact but something like that. IT'S DAMN FUNNAYE TO ME LA HA. HER HUMOUR DAMN LAME TOO AHAHA. but to my liking & lurving haa.

ah it's 3.57am aha. we are going to cut hair in JB TMR HAHHAAHHAHA... meet at Woodlands @ 1030am hahaha. good luck kylala.

oh gush i suddenly remembered some funnaye cousin moments and laughed out loud to myself for like 3 times ahah? haa.... damny funnaye haha.

1) that tuesday (think it was the week before), we were going to get our fortunes told, yesh, the same place 2 & a half yrs ago ahha! then it was closed and cos i was uploading stuff frm my phone to my com, my phone is as good as it's off. i was supposed to meet them there later. when they realized the place was closed tat day, they tried to contact me but they couldn't. Finally, Sang called home and my mama picked up the phone so Mama relayed the message to me haha. When I finally checked my voicemail haha, one of the messages by my Ah Xiang Jie Jie was, "你是大便人。你吃大便的..." HAHA, SOMETHING LIKE THAT Hah. gush, it was sooo fuckin' amusing ahhaha. i just laughed and laughed like that haha!

2) i was in the bathroom singing U R Man or something haa. Dunno why Sang came to talk to me about something and I said U R Man, I think I was telling her it's my ringtone or wad. Then she said, "我不要你做我的man, 你是我的man就残了！这么矮！" HAHAHHA.... okie the way she said it like was much more funnaye actually ahhaaa...

it's all starting to clear huh... ^_^
i'm getting better, day by day.
let it continue.
CORINE, ah cong bruh, mister - u 3 helped haa.
corine: "don't think about it. if you think also no use, then think for wad? it will happen if it will happen. then will be surprised more cos more unexpected hah?!" she believes in fate a lot, at least much more than me currently and having someone else reiterate that to me, it somehow seems more believable than myself haha.

maybe this entire period is for me to see the light, to try to fathom something frm all that haha. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON MA AHHA. so shun qi zi ran and sui yuan - BELIEVE HAHHA! i luv naruto ahaah i will go back to reading it hard core again aha! i need to watch P.S. I LOVE YOU. people tell me it's soo nice but i haven't watched. People like Elva, E/DTF/US, Charmaine, sh haha...

AH I BLOGGED SO MUCH, OMIGUSH. LIVE FOR EXPERIENCES BAH. NOW still need to change colour for font haha. Life's sooo vast. EMbrace it with wide open arms! "Live your life with arms wide open, today is... when your book begins, the rest is still unwritten"... Lyrics frm Natasha Bedingfield's "Unwritten"... I SHD LISTEN TO IT MORE HAH. i used to lurve it soo much and living in Yellowstone was like that. Guess that's what i learnt frm Yellowstone? like i nv tot about it before before i went but now that i come back, sometimes yesh i'm in misery but sometimes i do think abt it ahha. like what it taught me and all the self-paychoing/talking...

oh and tang tang wei's text just now... “Oui..kyla.今天是我们大难不死一周年欸~晚上有空来学校打篮球吧~” - LIKE FINALLY HAHA. previously i always msn him or wad to ask if we can play bball together cos i missed it too much haa. then once he replied saying he nv saw my offline msgs at all and bla but now he sent me this - so it's unexpected too ahha :D i can't help but smile. --- i kinda feel like making myself occupied whenever i have free time so that i won't keep on waiting when unexpected things haven't happened yet haha.

ah, almost forgot, W said, "你根本都不可怜咯...", saying that lady is the pitiful one haha. :D

I just have to keep believing - everything wil be alright. OPEN UP SOME LITTLE HAPPINESS TODAY!

2009-06-15T00:03:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, i wish i can be like totally satisfied as a consumer and shop. I JUST BOUGHT LG MINI laptop haha, dunno what it's called @ the IT fair today haha. Thanks to sh, I got discount of 20 bucks frm his fren who was selling it to me and that guy very nice & cute haha, upgrade to 2GB ram FOR ME, ahha... I shd be really happy right? I was happy during the moments, but like all happiness, they don't last ha..a.a.a. (EDITS: OKIE LA, HAPPY ABOUT IT, papa agree to sponsor for my bday but i think i will pay a bit bah aha. cos if i really get to go to mexico, i'll have to get money frm my parents. omy dear parents, i know u two lurve me, but sometimes i can't feel it but today i felt a few bits after all, so maybe i'm recovering ahha... --- if i think i'm recovering, then i'm recovering haa. it's really what i believe haa.)

OMGUSH, can i just get rid of all these bad feelings/emo thoughts... My sleep patterns are ... hahaha... Let me try to recap. It seems as if all my days have gone to waste like I dont knw what I've been doing haha. Unlike in the past, I'd write them down and then recall and stuff and feels kinda fulfilled knowing that i DO DO THINGS, not just nothing haha, after all. Not to forget, Xenbar was a problem source haha, people too. Like I'd always feel out of place and stuff haha. But of cuz, I had my fun times in Xenbar too haha. I should really join a dance school again? But it's cos I keep leaving the country (ACTUALLY I LIKE THIS PART HAH）like, okie, sometimes i leave the country, i don't want to start a while and leave haha. NEED to save up even more if i go right? but also don't know where to join. o school, too big and need to fit in, feels like MJ cliquey feel? again aha - judge again! salsa sch? no time haa. i mean short time haa.

倦怠期，或許這次的較長吧。哈哈。會過的！它一定回國的！
I just have to keep believing! Choose the things to believe (credits to Shaun too)...
Thanks Shaun for the msn chat, I really "think too much and never do anything"...

Oops, out of topic, neways, Papa & Mama were really nice this morning/afternoon, waited a long time again ahha. Pa drove us all to Chinatown cos they had a talk to attend. Kyla the Orphan (soon ahha) cos my parents are randomly going to Tibet next week for 9 days. AHAHHAHAHAHA, so random la! Choy la! They'll come back for sure! Cos they don't want us to worry haha. Sometimes when i worry like this, I feel like I really luv them! That's good, since I feel that I don't know how to feel lurve these days.

Ah, really, Kylala, your thoughts keep taking over you. Being in control and stuff. But then again, you were amazing to wait for 5 hrs after all. AHHAHAHAH. And you ran back to Attica to just LET IT GO AHA. cos if not all the waiting would be in vain if i didn't have some partying/dancing right? felt like yellowsotne when that French guy, Catherine, Ming I and I had our shoulders on each other haha. AHHHH, just enjoy the moment ha. At least, it happened :D --- dont cry bcos it's over, smile bcos it happened yeah haha. NV REGRET ANYTHING THAT MADE YOU SMILE HAHA. :D on gina's facebook. i find it good ha.

++28 bucks. for a LIL' BIT OF GREEN TEA. imagine u pinching a pea with ur fingers. ahhaahhahhaa. i told sh that and sh just laughed sh's head off. ahhahahhahah. i think it's funnaye! haha.

++plus the having-to-eat-mac-upsized-meal-just-cos-to-replace-the-purple-coca-cola-glass-of-cousin/roomie-ah-sang HAHAA. AMUSED Yvonne (dance MJ senior) & sh & ah sang herself haha.

see, you can feel the slight joy in such things. come on, BELIEVE IN IT EVER MORE STRONGLY. if it's supposed to happen/gonna to happen, it will. if it's meant to be. so just sit back, relax and enjoy the show. HAHHAHAHAHA. i bought a 70 bucks cute-looking massager frm action city or was it mini toons can't rmb. Felt impulsive. But I just wanted to give papa something cos i didn't bother to do anything for his birthday hahha.

ahhhhh, really, live for the experiences. so many forms and shapes they can take and come in! haha. BE POSITIVe! try! uh, really, the people who really treat you well are your parents... i mean they are confirmed plus chop one haa! so i wanted to do something nice haha. :D i just smiled yeah.

gush, my problem is i keep drilling myself in a corner (zuan niu jiao jian) haa. I SHOULD GO AND WATCH SHOWS AND ENJOY THEM! Haha. Don't judge a book by its cover. Uh, kelvin bruh was like saying Jap's Hana Kimi damn funnaye aha :D Seriously, stop judging something before you do it, like keep on thinking you'll find no joy and stuff ahha. Let it happen, then feel it. JIA YOU JIA YOU! YOU CAN DO IT OKIe...

oh ya, about drilling myself in a corner, is like i keep banging myself against the wall so i feel even more down. now i try to get myself out of the corner hah. often, i think distractions help bah aha. but see, i fail to believe they do BUT NOW, THEY WILL, IF I BELIEVE THEY WILL AHA. really, many ppl say and ah sang says too, being happy is just a feeling anyway. ah, wu ji zun, i really want to believe in "happiness is the way" and that's the way it should be haa and feel it. It again: "There is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way." AT LEAST TRY OKIE. AI WEI SAYS, "research shows that when one is positive in one's thinking, positive things tend to happen. LAW OF ATTRACTION!".... Some day someday, maybe maybe hahha.

No pics these days ahha. I wonder if Bintan $50 will really come true. Ming I was drunk when he told me about that hahaha. Alright, let's wait and see! hahahaha. but really don't, cuo guo the rest. TRY! JIA YOU, JIA YOU ZAI JIA YOU! JING CAI JING CAI! 精彩，精彩！加油，加油，再加油！不要跟我說，長這么大還是那么沒有用Okie! 磨練過后，會鍛煉人格！i hope haha!

i saw myself on tv aha.
thanks yu for saying i look nice. but i think i dont' aha. so need to get used to it ha. it was sudden when i see my face appeared hah! and yu, u said, go out with you all, then i can feel the friendship aha. yeah, i realize my mind keeps thinking i won't have fun, then like xiaoxia says, it's "self-fulfilling prophecy". AHH, which means i really need to go back to watching shows and just watch it hah! STOP, THINK NO MORE. I'VE LIVED MY LIFE THE BEST way i know aha! soooo just believe that Goddess will know what's good for me!

i stil have my friends and family and my beautiful childhood & beautiful Yellowstone. LIVE, 去體驗人生！豐富它. i realize i crave for people these days it seems aha. Maybe it's cos i've been alone too often haa.

五月天的OMG (oh my god) 噢買尬 ---懷念啊懷念

2009-06-09T01:44:00.003+08:00

FRM MY 熱刺 blog again aha.

五月天的OMG (oh my god) 噢買尬
---懷念啊懷念
---有落淚... *黃石... yellowstone

今天是眼淚汪汪天嗎？
但現在好多了，我真的得找事兒干，至少做其它事情時不會覺得生活無聊。
啊哈...

至少跳舞時時開心的吧。
那就盡情地跳吧！
I like "Open Happiness" - for the Coca Cola event @ The Heeren this Sat :D we're dancing to haa!
It's the new Coca Cola theme song...

所以凱拉拉，
即使你沒有別人的贊賞...
即使你不是最好的...

但用心地跳...
用心地感受...
享受著 --- 不是很好嗎？
at least there's something i enjoy haha :D

07 jun 09' (sun) - taina's apartment in Nanyang Polytechnic hee! Made new friends... I enjoyed the food, talking to Selma (in the end) & Echo (haha, boredom is soo hard to bear at times)... Thanks Taina once again for letting me stay haha! 像echo說的，不可以

一直陷下去。得硬找其它的事情！悶會被悶壞的！
謝謝你，你說我不算嚴重，2個月而已，、很輕微。
在芬蘭，有些人真的是沒有一刻是開心的，
我說我還有“某些刻”是開心的... (我們都笑了）

雖然今天下午很不好受，在爸的車上睡著后有好一點點...
然后學了ss501的 U R Man的舞步！很cheesy，但蠻好玩的哈哈。有點難學，因為手腳得一起coordinate!協調！

但是，真的，在學的時候，專心 - 然后沒有想別的！
然后硬著頭皮去Mel Mel的課，有時覺得格格不入，但至少好過在家里沒做什么然后想東想西。

然后剛吃了宵夜回來，好奇怪，不知道要說什么哈哈。
但偶爾有笑笑 - 拉斯 R 太好笑了！啊哈哈。
好吧，算是自我安慰 - 因為敢嘗試不同的東西。

selma很cute.ji won onni!
mingi - thanks for saying i'm two faced ahha. then he'd say i'm like so 斯文, then when dance so different haa, he said good too hahah.
though u were a lil' weird haha, but i enjoyed feeling so close to korean megastars haha.

At first chat with Ji Won Onni, i admit i was desperately trying to find things to say ahha. But she's sooooo cute when she talked about fruits - like that's all that mattered in the world haha. And she educated me about Skinfood, Beauty Credit & The FaceShop, like they belong in the same tier. I was saying TFS sells nail polish at $2.90 and she went, "oh, it's only 1 sing dollar in Korea". AHHA She said the BB cream is like 10 bucks but it's still good quality haha. Yen Li XiaoMei was telling me her fren bought for her and it's 20 plus in sing dollars after conversion frm ringgit haa.

Yeah, feels closer to Korea but I don't have that stupid urge to want to go there so badly and meet cute Korean guys that much aha. Cos like it's a faraway dream? I feel that for travelling, I need to feel there's a strong purpose for me there haa. But then again, I should be looking forward to new experiences - ain't it? Cos like once u step out of your comfort zone, you really don't know what you might encounter haha! Magic! Believe in magic!

At least it's nice to know cultural exchange haha.
Learn frm other people is the way to go? ahha...

Ah, feeling kinda detached but oh well, at least not really sad now aha.
Maybe I shd really JUST WATCH SOMETHING instead of deciding which to watch aha.

I had fun gushing over Hyun Joong aka. Ji Hoo in BOF (leader of SS501)... with Sang ha. Him in his dance video (practising for the song U R Man) haha. She's a fanatic of BOF la haha! I feel that dvds are scary! For dramas especially - YOU JUST WON'T STOP! H
No wonder Chong Yan wanna go there shopping so much haha (korea I mean)...
SO CHEAP LA haha. at least beauty products/cosmetics are cheaper bah ahha.
JUST TRY TO BE HAPPY OKIE? HAHA...

Be occupied - and see how that makes u feel. Don't determine/judge it before you do it - cos you never know huh ahhaa.

Be open - then the sky's the limit instead of being enclosed/sealed up...
(self-encouraging ahha)

1 yr ago, on 10 jun 08' (tue)

FRM terence's picture-perfect camera that takes picture-perfect photographs ahha! too fake la!

on the way... to...

whitewater rafting !!!!!!!

HAHAHAH...
for whitewater rafting, we have Terence the Geisha taking the blows for most of us.
Blows frm the waves of the whitewater hahaha!

WE HAD SOOO MUCH FUN - GUSH... it was exciting. but it wasn't exciting enough in a way cos we didn't bump into those big rocks or something - our guide was too careful and wasn't taking any risks aha. Luckily we laughed lots, otherwise it would have been boring? haha... But hail hurts - the ice! ah, pelting on you...

CHEMISTRY LAB HAHA.
we have yellowstone staff water bottles instead of test tubes!
pardon me at the back haa - think it was ice-cream i was eating haa.

with a pretty gurl.

back in good ol' #234

this looks fake though i like it ahha.
so easy to take nice pics there la! cos the joy is all over me! all spread out!

haha. 發現自己敢一點、更豁出去一點就會有意外的收獲。

2009-06-07T03:06:00.007+08:00

(my 熱刺 Blog post ha! except the pics part - both entries are diff in that part :D)
haha. 發現自己敢一點、更豁出去一點就會有意外的收獲。

BAH, realized me writing in english is easier to read than Chinese haa.

蔡依林”花蝴蝶“
“美女們只是比較敢比較豁出去一點"

6月5日2009年
---salsa dancing @ Union Square，
一年前，去黃石的前幾天，謝謝 min,yu & sam 載我去那兒，因為我勇敢地要請別人跳舞，I got 3 dances.

一年后多一點/多幾點的，我又去了。路途上，在火車上，急死我了哈哈。然后我便一直告訴自己我是多么地悶瘋了。所以與其什么都沒有做，我決定做自己平時不敢做的，算是挑戰自己吧。

最先，我勇敢地踏進舞廳union square。本來站在那兒不知道要干嘛，然后看到一年前我第三個/也是那晚我最后一個邀請的人，我又邀請了他哈哈。可使他似乎不記得我，也難怪啦哈哈。

很感謝他給了我（算是復出后）的第一支舞。之后，馬上有別人邀請我 haha。
后來碰到Daniel哈哈，他看到我時挺驚訝的哈哈。也難怪，我畢竟失蹤了一年多吧。

他自己也承認有”折磨“（tortured)到我哈哈，就是那種被耍的感覺，不知道要怎樣跟，因為那個男生lead的不明確。我又是時常會自己auto pilot(就是自動地轉動、像是預測舞伴要做什么，并不是真的給了那樣的signal，但是你以為是，所以就自己先轉或怎樣...)

然后和U.samuh跳了一下haha.算是最悶的哈哈 xp

接著就坐著休息了一會兒（試圖逃離US的視線因為覺得有點尷尬，他好像覺得我一個人去有點可恥哈哈。或許是我太敏感，但他真給我那樣的感覺，不想后來的Boon Cheong(好人）的回應。

哇，果然，拉丁音樂的魅力不是蓋的！我真的陶醉其中！西班牙歌詞，現在的我能稍理解某些詞。

覺得連續跳了3支舞，是應該休息一會兒。觀賞別人跳舞也是一種享受。坐著坐著，有回想
黃石的美好時光！

正當我覺得那晚我的運氣完了的時候（就是被人邀請的好運 - 我以前很少很少被陌生人邀請！那也使我很沒有自信！所以曾排斥去那兒！）...
我又被邀請了哈哈！轉運了！

也許是因為那晚的女生很少。
別人想嘗試和不同女生跳舞！畢竟salsa是social dance - 得和不同人跳才好玩！
---但只要想到以前都很少被邀請，就已經不同了！應該感謝哈哈。

然后就覺得自己又白擔心了一場...（很時常的事ha)

no.5 - Evan (很好笑，很好玩，他也一直笑，然后說”you're doing fine! really!"哈哈，激勵我。雖然他只是和我交換了名字。）
no.6 - Boon Cheong (覺得他真的是一個好人，我有有辦法和他開始聊天 - 前年的shines' competition by ADS - 他也有參加比賽哈哈）
no.7 - Wilson

意想不到
會被邀請...
會和wee beng 交換號碼，約以后一起跳哈哈。
Boon Cheong真的是好好先生一個。就覺得這個人可以信任哈哈。

也許第一印象并不是真的，但至少可以覺得他比一些奇怪的人好 - 我的直覺，再加上對他有熟悉感。

哈哈，我有點覺得自己是“神秘女郎”一個。應該說“神秘女孩兒”比較口愛點哈哈。
no.6 & 7對我應該是有種很意外的感覺。都問我我是哪里來的哈哈。害我還以為我真的那么像外國人（白開心）。

可是，我想，他們應該是好奇我是從什么地方學我的salsa的，因為從來沒看過我，但我又不像是very new的新手（beginner）。

那種感覺還蠻爽的哈哈，好像the enigmatic me like a gust of wind/a gentle breeze? haha
appeared frm nowhere and disappeared haha.

我承認我去是因為我想如果真的想跳，就跳吧。
如果有去墨西哥，就會一陣子想去都不能去哈哈。

總的來說，我并非特別特別地興奮 - 因為我被悶瘋了哈哈！
但至少我覺得自己做了自己想做但又本來不敢做的... 自我挑戰！成功后 - 蠻棒的！

至少我可以確定，跳舞真的是我喜歡的，可以沉浸在內。
（啊，他媽的，真要命！那個小聲音在腦袋里每一次我說一次樂觀、激勵的話，都會說：”真的嗎？“）

哈哈，其實意思就是，it's not the best night ever, but it's a good night after all.
i did something i nv did and ventured out haha.

at least - the future is unpredictable is true again ahha.

6月6日2009年（星期六）
昨晚碰到ah mei還上臺一起跳舞、倒數30hour famine camp (end of it)是意想不到的！
when i was laughing, those frm the heart kind, it was a joyous feelin'!

在我忘記之前，在ah mei以她那富有磁性的soulful嗓子唱這“姐妹”時，我心里暖暖的美好感覺散布全身，仿佛進入一個很溫馨、安詳的地方。

黄石的一切又回來 - 那些曾經和所有姐妹、兄弟度過的美好時光，是那么地燦爛、那么地刻骨銘心！

我想，當時是非常珍惜一切的，因為了解也明白到一切都是極為短暫的！
所以，想到“一切都來得不容易/一切得來不易”就更會真正”惜緣”。

最近的我沒有做到，因為一直覺得自己心死了，只想讓自己找回樂趣和熱忱哈哈，還有自己的真命天子哈哈。

是時候更時常感恩吧。把別人的好意，對我的好都寫下來，讓這些點點滴滴、細小回憶變成永遠。

現在又想，有用嗎？但不試的話怎么會知道呢？
try it to know it? ahha

哇，又寫了那么長哈哈。
一年前在美國黃石樂園里的6月7日（2008年）...

THE RUFFIANS HAH (the 混混！）

MY FIRST ATTEMPT AT TWISTER HAHA!
BUT none of the pics have me in them!
since i was always the cameragurl haha!
i KEPT LOSING (I NEVER WON!) that's why i ended up being so free to take pics of the rest haha! lots of laughter again ahha!

I have short limbs, that's why i can't make it --- for twister haa!

Richelle blasting it (singing haah) while in her poses!
She can sing sooo well too haha. That's why her major in community college is SINGING HAHAA. She's really fit and strong actually ahha!

I'M JUST NOT BORN TO PLAY TWISTER AND I REN MING! 认命！

J'S PRICELESS LOOK!
evelyn's priceless butt haha!
& pose!

OUR PICS BACK IN GOOD OL' #234
which I HART...

THE FRONT & BACK of Paul's farewell card.
That pic... That night was priceless/so invaluable! (wad a wonderful night!) sing to "what a wonderful world"... what am i doing so late at night? haha, doing friendship band la!

oh gush, reminds myself i shd so totally think about ENJOYING LIFE AND having different experiences - that's life... isn't it? aha. so embrace it all. lurve it all! if not, u're just letting whatever you have go to waste... down the drain ahha.

more pics in future nah ahha...
(magical weekend haha? sorta - okie it is bah ahha! magical sat)

LIVE TO COLLECT THE MEMORABLE MOMENTS! THAT'S the way to live it, ain't it? ahha. enjoy life... get the most out of it? ahaha. BE YOURSELF/BE MYSELF!

Ai Wei on 93.3fm said she heard frm somewhere that...
If one has positive thoughts, one will attract positive things in one's life too.
---- AHH... LAW OF ATTRACTION AT WORK AGAIN AHA!

motivation - important - FIND EXCITEMENT TO SPICE UP MY LIFE MYSELF HAHA

2009-06-03T03:20:00.007+08:00

Before I forget.... M3/Justice Bao said our motivation to work isn't enough. AHHAHAHAHHA. Haha, like it's not like we need to support our families (then i said yeah, unlike Da Dong who had to support his mother when his father passed away) HAHHAHA... Our motivation is just to stay at home lesser and kill time. AHAHHAA. i find it damn funnaye, but then i realized that is very true too... When u do something, if ur motivation is strong enough and u really want it very badly, you'll achieve great results, ain't it? so having goals are important. u feel fulfilled and accomplished. but even having said that, i don't really know what yet? just go to mexico and dance dance dance? (but also don't know if it'll happen). I really still think I wanna be Elva's backup dancer/Fahrenheit's... NOW ALSO INCLUDES JAPAN pop groups & Korea pop groups hahahaha. KOREA AHHHH!

BOTTOMLINE: BOF IS SOOO ADDICTIVE and nice hahaha.
i hart hah.
also cos re-live my memories of HYD (anime ahha)...

I don't like any one of them in particular, i like all 3 of them ahha. So they can just be F3 haa. Poor Akira/Mei Zuo (i still don't get the Korean version's character's name haha)... I suddenly feel sad for him ahhaa. GU JUN PYO (i like his cute character, so childish and boyish la haha. always am chio too haha, very 真实 like real, true, 不做作, 赤裸裸地呈现在你眼前, JI Hoo (can't help it that i'd always feel Hanazawa Rui to be special since i liked him so much when i watched the anime long long ago - i just realized Yu Qi/goodbyeishello also got watch ahha but in the korean version - i only like his smile haha and of cus i guess i liked the violin and wanted to learn it very badly one point in life - cos of hanazawa rui ahha) ah the horse's name is Rui ahah dunno to be happy or not haha, So Yi JUNG (is toooo cute in this show la haha. potter, you qi zhi 有气质, then so good looking, you zhi nan sheng haha. 优质男生、优质的男孩儿 haha, i think da dong says nu hai er and nan hai er influences me - sounds sooo cute la〉... so can someone combine all 3 of them?

ahhaha ting ting - this is the pic. (haha i don't care, i think putting this pic very funnaye)
ahh, i wanna post a pic to neutralise this haha. but blogger say fail so i'll do it next time haha. okie? cos i like Hanazawa Rui and he's Rui after all so will help him and not put him in such a-not-so-goodlooking/ugly light? hahaha. uh, he looks like a kind of bear/dog right?

credit: http://milkteazoo.wordpress.com/2009/01/10/boys-before-flowers-kgotboda-namja%EA%BD%83%EB%B3%B4%EB%8B%A4-%EB%82%A8%EC%9E%90/

Kim Hyun Joong as Yoon Ji Hoo!!!!!!
i think he got do operation (plastic surgery) bcos of this pic leh...
HAIRSTYLE IS SOOO DIFFERENT HAHA.

I SHOULDN'T CARe so much (what Yu Qi told me about Dong copying Lun hahhah)... Ah Sang has good advice, just like him lah and don't care so much ahhaa. hee xp

(went out with M3 on 1st june 09' (mon)) haa. (rmb/commemorate)
hahhhhhhhh. m3/mingmin/justice bao's interesting viewpoint:
she said she feels that da dong isn't that handsome, it's all the other things that make him good-looking. like hair, clothes, style, expressions aha. AH, but i really like him in his diff styles, cos he also get bored of stuff easily bah ahha, and need to keep on changing - same for his hairstyle now haa.

him in shorter bangs in Msia a few days ago.

Tank's MV 《如果我变成回忆》
people having fun

i think Da Dong's center parting makes him look super cute/boyish ahha. sunshine feel, jap feel!

I also think i like music cos when u watch shows, the music coupled with the various scenes - heavenly! so touching and u feel happy that you're humane, cos u can feel ahha. see, imagination important hor, but just now too crazed over idols, makes me feel deprived of them in my life aha. (i mean the real them) --- so shouldn't think too much of those thoughts. or rather, need to get back to reality - learn to get back, frm my bruh and ah sang bah haha. GENTING MAY BE CONFIRMED AHHA.

M3, BEFORE I FORGET, thankssssss lots ahhaa. For ordering E.L.F. I really was so delighted (like i told you) ahhaaa... You think ur life is boring most of the time - that is funnaye - cos u always make everything sound so funnaye haha. BUT YOUR FATHER IS VERY HILARIOUS HAHAA. so many amazing things at your house and koreans invading your condo ahhaa. Your "ya men" (cos you are bao qing tian ahah) - just found it funnaye!

yu haha, poh hui ahha. yeah, thanks for telling me if my life too much excitement, i'd want peace restored/it back to normal ahha. at least i feel happy when i'm dancing haha. Mov's class is sooo killing my knees haha. I'm kinda glad I'm not in dancetitude - NO NEED CARE ABOUT COSTUMES AHA. though that means lesser interaction and mixing with other MJ ppl but if i really get to go to Mexico, it'll be excitement. Like Yellowstone haha. AHHH SO LATE SHOULD SLEEP LIAO HOR. past 2 mornings' bedtimes: 6am haa. (like 5 plus on bed then think i fell asleep at 6am aha)... BUT YEAH, AT LEAST I FEEL TIRED on my bed haha. feels sooo nice and snug to lie on my comfy bed haha.

FIND EXCITEMENT TO SPICE UP MY LIFE MYSELF HAHA.

my first time at settler's cafe (2nd june 09' (tue) for SHARON/ROTTEN CABBAGE OWNER/MONKEY SHE/SNOWMAN/XUE REN's belated bday), i realized im not that much a games person ahha. JUST SOMETIMES BAH HAHA.

P.s. (notes to self), i realize sometimes i purposely think of amusing things or random ridiculous stuff to write so i can look back in future to laugh at myself and what i write haa. 少年的猖狂，放纵哈哈。 random: always need to post pics, to make my blog look more colouful. ting ting says the songs on my blog keep playing haha funaye, but i nv hear before haa. ah, seriously i think da dong impacted me with his-lurving-to-play-with-styles-and-clothes quality ahhaa. FUN to dress up! yeah!

sooo 迷人 charming haa. i luv to see him in caps and shades!

AH WHAT AM I STILL AWAKE FOR? i told myself i'd sleep at 3am but it's 3.44am all cos i'm blogging now haa. okie, watch abit more of BOF and bedtime. later work frm 12pm to 1030pm ha. oh my guan yin ma haa! :D (jus kidding - i don't mean any disrespect to the Goddess of Mercy)

it's not a short post HAHAHA.

2009-05-31T16:25:00.004+08:00

LATEST PIC I GOT of FRH in penang hahaa.
i nv tot i'd be come a fan gurl OVER frh haha. BUT more exactly/precisely, DA DONG GE GE HAA! i Need to play the sims 2. always rmb, enjoy life haha.

Arron in shorts haha. Not exactly shorts but very short as compared to the long pants they normally wear haha. DA DONG has shorter bangs and someone on AF i think it's milk^tea says Da Dong and Arron are like 2 lil' kids jumping here and there!

this is gonna be a short post aha. I'M GONNA POST A SHORT POST.

i was showering at 2 am just now and i dried myself with a towel then i realized I DIDN'T LATHER ON SHOWER FOAM. hahahhaha. SO I HAD to re-do it haha.

i feel like i'm happier, at least not sad/melancholic aha. this period of total misery just happened cos i wanted to stop. i stopped too long. u know stop as in stop everything. i'm still thinking too much but it's less frequent and i'm like enjoying time, like much better than before. SO, I believe i'll be better, soon :D

It's gonna be a fun-filled week hahaa. lookin forward haha. and they are all relaxing stuff, of course still got to work. without work, u won't enjoy freedom or like the things u like doing (though I'm not too sure what i like but at least i realized being obsessed about timing and translating while fansubbing - making the english subtitles appear together with the chinese hardsubbed ones haha is something i like? DANCING (I SO ENJOYED VERNON'S CLASS - i kinda feel that not being in dancetitude gives me the freedom to go attend any class i like haah) really, i might make it ahah??? FAHRENHEIT'S backup dancer (i want to dance couple dance with da dong haha/Elva haha).... DREAM ON, but go and dream it anyway ahha. Having goals better than none right?

ah long post haha... no!
oh what else i enjoy?
- big laughs! laughing crazily.
- funny things, experiences, moments haa.
- READING AF *Asian Fanatics* THREAD on Da Dong
- showsssssssss - love scenes of jealousy ahha!
- EATING haha, cheese makes my day!
- sweet memories ba - say bye bye to the very emo thought of - too bad it won't happen again, but at least it happened and look forward to future such memories right?

WHAT I'M THINKING OF NOW:
whether should we blur the lines of reality and imagination or really just KEEP It separate and be miserable tat we're not in fantasy land? oh whatever! sometimes this phrase is soo good ah. it prevents me from thinking too much and bugging myself haha. i read frm quite a no of sources that u really should just learn to enjoy NOW, the present. cos if u enjoy NOW/PRESENT, the future will take care of itself cos it's made up of all the MOMENTS OF NOW/THE PRESENT.
------ see i have so many qns huh ahha. inquisitive odd child me.
------ discuss with MY belurved UNI CLIQUE ON TUESDAY AHHA!

I THINK I'M NOT SUPER SUPER HAPPY but at least i like how i feel now, much better than before. Just think, not sad not sad not sad can already ahaha. Then hang out with people, create lurvely memories with them.

This morning/late morning/afternoon haha, I woke up wondering if I'll be so sad when I reach 50 yrs old, how will I look and stuff... I mean come on, I cannot picture me in the distant future! But, it dawned on me that I'M ONLY YOUNG ONCE HAHA! 青春不留白啊！热血热血！去追飞轮海吧！Dunno what will happen but 尽量争取 TO GET THE CHANce on stage then can dance cha cha(i wanna dance salsa with him and dance salsa in general - got craving sometimes hah) with him like the soo damn damn lucky GURL in Msia. I SHOUTED WHEN I SAW THAT VID. da dong's hand on her waist/back, for so many times! HEART POUND POUND! FRH is soo near me now, i mean in particular 大東哥哥 hahaa. 大熊東東！i just screamed out loud you know hahaha. But then I tot that since Da Dong can look so young despite being 28 yrs old and he looks even younger like a lil' boy now with his shorter bangs and short haircut, I think I can too ahha. Since people ask me which yr of sec sch i'm in now ahhaha!

Evelyn is very funnaye!
I told her my dreams (i was very bothered and felt sad sometimes cos i think it wont happy but i think i shd possibly think MAYBE. at least see what happens before i totally deny it haha) now is to get a Da Dong lookalike bf and have F4 LOOK-ALIKE boy friends! haaahah. i DON'T aspire to be Tsukushi/ShanCai/JanDi, but I just want to be Xiao You ahha, who still enjoys the company of 4 sweet-looking flower-like boys. uh but actually just F3 enough, cos i really don't care for the korean MEI ZUO ahahhahahaha.

evelyn said, it's good to dream ahaha. and include her if i get REAL HAWT LOOKIN BOY FRIENDS. ahhahaha. very very funny! i told my mama while eating at Lai Lai @ JP just now. I dragged my parents out and boy! i was so excited by food haha! ENJOY LIFE SIA HA. uh, naggy voice of "are you really happy?" - to yell with it haha. if i don't enjoy NOW, then when? haha. (there is no way to happiness, happiness is the way. haha) AT LEAST TRY HUH! haa.

and dress nicely if i feel like. for wad? FOR FUN LA HAHA! it's so fun to do different identities, change is fun aha!

--- the above - for you all who are reading to enjoy a good laugh bah haha. now for me is, i just try to enjoy what i have la. ahah. then the 2 dreams - see if they will ever happen. life is sooo unpredictable, but it's fun to talk about it right? just don't go in deeper and feel real sad it isn't reality yet haha.

my gush this is not a long post! i luv my parents ahahha. i tot i'd be bored with them or what like i tot i'd be bored with everyone in the world except for Da Dong and cute-looking Taiwanese boys, Korean boys, Japanese boys, Russian boys ahhha.................. But I had fun talking with my bro when he's in the moood for talking, with my dearies (MIAP - Hai Hailin & Yeek), with Ye Ye and Xiao Xi at my work place hahha. SO IT'S MOST IMPORTANT TO HAVE FUN. now i feel happy then try not to think how sad or if there's a possibility i might feel sad later - THINK TOO MUCH.

i think MIAP hai hailin u said something really true. u said i'm really thinking too much, cos when i try to express my feelings into words, this process is already THINKING. so it's THINKING TOO MUCH ALREADY AHA!

what my fun-filled week will be like ahha:
Mon - Out with M3/Justice Bao ahah - to collect E.L.F. stuff (arrived already ahah) and eat in IMM haa. She even said let's meet for lunch at IMM cos we won't be late since we'll both be HUNGRY ahha. I told my Papa and he laughed too haha. She said I'm RK and go figure it myself when I said she's M3. I asked if it means "roll kaya" (she likes to say that when i annoy her with something lame i said haha) then she goes "no, it's rotten kaya haha" really LOL! I might go for Mo's dance class at night but depends haha.

Tue - Uni clique outing @ some board games cafe, can't rmb if it's settlers' or minds ahha. To celebrate Sharon/Xue Ren/monkey she's belated bday ahaha.

Wed - WORK WHOLE DAY.
Thu - WORK in the morn and night dance class.
Fri - K lunch @ Clementi with Xiaoxia and Gwen haha.
Sat - 30 HOUR FAMINE KIDDOS performance @ Downtown east in the evening. But i think it's gonna be a long day since we have to get there to makeup and stuff HAHA. FUN! lurve such experiences!
Sun - rest day bah? and evening might have dance prac for COCA COLA mass dance @ the Heeren 2 weeks frm now haha. OH, maybe got potluck at Taina's apartment for YELLOWSTONERS AHHA. charmaine can know who the cute korean is hahaha.

BELIEVE IN THE MAGIC OF LIFE AHAH. like the last person i tot i'd meet eyes with actually turned out to be that person ahaha. VERY INTERESTING thing. reminder of how unpredictable life is. so wait and see what unexpected surprises life brings - it's fun haa! YEAH GENTING GENTING in mid june!

Mood: MUCH BETTER - good thing
Though I'm glad and happy that we have a SUN, I often think "ATSUI NEH!" (hawt hawt weather sia...)

zhou chong qing rocks my world!

2009-05-29T03:06:00.005+08:00

da dong & ZHOU CHONG QING HA!

TA DA- TO DAY TODAY... THE PIC OF DA DONG HAA.
Ppl say his new hair like Zai Zai or Arron. But I think though I think so too, can't blame it or wad cos the other two had that hairstyle too.

The good thing is, he's even younger! It's like HAIRSTYLE changes one TOTALLY! I wrote on youtube (on one of the many press conference vids of Tao Hua Xiao Mei) that with this hairstyle, he looks so sunshine and got jap feel! KAWAII NEH! even younger haha. I also wrote cos I think he has to keep on being young, cos he's an OU XIANG IDOL! ahah. So he can forever act as student? ahha. :D

think of how he inspires me ahha. to work hard, to 吃苦当吃补！to be a stronger person!it's a different kind of inspiration from elva! oh well, except sometimes i will long to meet him and do stuff with him and be his friend forever or him to luv me. - okie normal fangurl who's crazed/obsesed ahha. but i'm not so obessed nemore. THINK OF THE GOOD THINGS! like i have eyes to be able to appreciate beauty. a computer so i can watch him all i want? not that i want to keep on watching him that much but i stil like him and hear him and will feel happy that WHAT A CUTE BOY! ah, don't know la. neh, thinking too much again aha!

ZHOU CHONG QING - YOU ROCK MY WORLD HAHA.
your laughter is soooooooo contagious!
AH... i just added u on facebook and wrote a super long personal message for you but suddenly it disappeared! will write on ur wall when u accept me hahah...

(ah, the contents a bit different but who cares aha. i still mean it - can't rmb wad exactly i wrote)
因为我在《我要唱下去》的AUDITION看到你！第一眼看到你：心里是兴奋的咯！HAHAH. 然后因以免出丑、上电视，最后压抑了自己哈哈。然后也有点不敢啦，毕竟你在工作，然后我在排队嘛，怕AA (ATTRACT ATTENTION)...

我有被你访问到哈！应该是我的傻笑吧！想和你打招呼、说话，但不敢。但是，心里的喜悦还是浮现出来啊哈！相由心生哈哈！哈哈哈。

最近心情没那么开朗，但是听到你的笑声 - 它的魔力无法挡！我真的有那种“真得很开心、很感激由周崇庆这样的一个人在世上！我们太幸福了！你真的带给很多人欢乐哈哈！似乎，你说的每一句话都超具喜感！哈哈哈！YAY!永远支持你！

有人传简讯给你，说你的笑声有种魔力，让他忘掉烦恼。然后你回答：“可是我不可以随便乱笑，不然人家会以为我ki siao!” i really LAUGH OUT LOUD! and 不止一次，整晚在听歌的时候跑出房间，回到电脑面前！然后，听到房里的歌暂停了，又马上跑进去听你的超欢乐节目和声音！paris and milan show = HAVEN'T HAD SUCH A GOOD SHOW IN SUCH A LOONG TIME HAA. very singaporean-flavoured! 让我觉得新加坡那么有趣哈！

HAHHA - I DIDN'T expect to write so much. But anyway ahha, just blish blash ahha... Oh and before I forget:
(my comment on Evelyn's blog - DTF ahh)

Dear US, DTF,

URGH! u learn new vocabulary in europe? HAHAHAH okie i'm like askin a stupid qn. i can't understand too. but i find it funnaye haa - the computer is ur sword ahha or weapon aha. eh, i just realized i wrote this in the wrong post. but who cares aha...

awaiting ur return...
um, actually should be awaiting the time we meet.
miss ya lots, my dear fren.
these days, i've been crying too much. the 1st 2 days - bad kind of crying like heart ache, i think yellowstone at the back of my mind haa. the next 2 days (ytd and today) - the feeling of being very touched yet i'm in a world i feel alone. WEIRD! but oh well, at least i kinda enjoy it when i cry after i hear some song (like now i listen to all songs carefullly and feel touched - then cry so easily) - maybe now's the time to try to join mediacorp as actress for crying? haa.

but zhou chong qing made me luff so much today ahah! thank him and i think i'm finally recovering haa! yeah - huge sigh of relief! i lost the zest of life previously - for long times hah... ahhhhh phone call on internet soon okie? missin ur voice！ :D I WANNA FIND BACK THOSE THINGS I LUV. AHHA, THIS SEEMS LIKE A BLOG POST TO ME HAHA. (I'LL post on my blog too hah)...

NYC m_m
hopefully i'll be stronger tmr！
i won't be afraid to face myself.
i mean less afraid when i'm alone ha. and enjoy it, and LUV IT!

(to remind myself) :D

JIA YOU KYLALA!
YOU CAN DO IT!
有时候，真的没有人可以依靠。那时，就靠自己吧！
i finally understand why kelvin korkor/didi say i very dependent and LAUGHS AT ME OVER IT! ARGHHHH!
pic on 4th May 09' (mon) - 中文系outing - course outing!

Yesterday's work was nice. Like enjoyable though super slack haa. But i feel that I like certain things about it. It's what Xiaoxia means bah ahha. As time passes, you grow feelings for things and like them.

...

The hour spent in Chinese library today reading this guy's book (the things he said) he's some japanese guy who knows true happiness haha. i felt like i absorbed a lot, and still got 杂念 in my heart but i continued and tot i'd "eat" them (food for the soul) and then try to make it out.

Then last night at MJ (Pat's class), i felt like i really used my heart (用心地跳）- feels very very different. I kinda feel like I'm alone in this world - it's sooo quiet and it's scary - the silence. But I still feel touched when I listened to the radio all the way home. Now walking to school and the journey back home doesn't seem that scary. Cos I LISTEN TO MUSIC AND SING! singing - i luv it so much ahha. especially when i sing with my heart and soul. sometimes i feel down, like there's no one i can sing those lyrics that are so meant for your bf/gf, but maybe i shouldn't care and just enjoy the feeling of SINGING UR HEART OUT - like really out haa! and appreciate the beauty of the lyrics. Weird that I won't think so much and just simply appreciate when it was Tang poems or Song "ci" or ancient stuff haha. NEWAYS, i think too much hor. TRY TO THINK LESSER.

It dawned on me too that imagination is sooo important. Without it, without any pretense or identity/character change - life is boring. Like reality is sooo dry. You don't feel full at all. Though now, one of strong wants is to have those pai kia friends, those guys who wear skinny jeans and dress uber-stylishly or whoever ahaha then we'd hang out in a big group, it's like a DREAM? haha. Well, I'd jus think of what Leo said in Charmed Season 2 "Everything has its own time. You can't wish for what's to be." REALLY LA, i think the answer is to just find things to enjoy and wait? Like what natsujo06 said too about "time for things". If it's meant to be, it will happen no matter what. Believe is veryyy veryyy important.

GUSH, I BLOGGED SO LOOOOOONG AGAIN! I need to immerse myself in the make-believe world again. I felt happy dancing, though it was a kind of silent kind haha. Maybe this is the way to feel? I'm just getting used, I don't know. I think all this while, I've been searching for myself! AND DON'T THINK TOO MUCH and READ MORE AND WATCH MORE DRAMAS AHHA!

my tag board is at CONFESS OUT LOUD! but i prefer comments actually.
thanks JING FOR YOUR COMMENT :DDDDDDDD
ahhaha, i can't imagine u sitting there and crying like that?
but at first my crying was like melancholia, like no point in living that kind haa. then wil feel heart ache, especially when coupled with yellowstone memories haha.

then recently, they became tears of being touched/moved :D

LAST FRIDAY'S TUITION! 22 May 09'
what these dear gurls drew for me...
真的，久了就有感情。可以说，我是真正开始喜欢上和他们相处的时间！
小孩子也有可以学习的地方哈哈！啊，我以前那么喜欢小孩子！

thanks gurls, u gurls comforted me without knowing...
:D though i don't feel the best/greatest, i felt BETTER - that's better than nothing!
赶走寂寞！彻底的孤独感!人间的温情oh?

其实，又一件事让我想到就开心，即便是小小的开心！
这一个月里，已经有三个人问我读中学几年级!
(Actually, there's this matter that makes me happy, even if it's just a lil' happy. In this month, there has been 3 people who has asked me which yr of sec school I'm in HAHAH!)

Well, I hope I haven't completely lost the zest for life and the ability to believe? Believe in fate! 相信缘分!相信自己！相信这个世界还有很多等着我的惊喜！experiencessss!!! looking forward to random meeting with my girlies (JC clique)

IT'S SO IMPORTANT TO ESCAPE TO SOME OTHER PLACE. what i realized. but of course, dont be over obsessed? hahaa. i think it's not like just being able to escape to a different world is the best way out, but at least, i think HAVE TO ENTER IT SOMETIMES HAHA. so far, that's what i think. UH, 慢慢来吧。AND JOLIN made me 刮目相看too! Nw, I rally feel that there's a reason why these artistes/idols are sooo popular/hong! Cos they really work hard and that's something we should appreciate them! Wow wow! I nv tot I'd like think of Jolin that way ahah. But like she keeps on learning. Will talk about her interview on 933 i heard ytd after noon before MJ (after work & returning frm NTU) haha (siao right me, went NTU twice)...

oh and the night before, Yu Poh Hui (Yu Bao Hui) amused me super lots la haa. Our stupid chat.... :D but really, i'm so happy you read my ENTRY AHHA. and u really read all of it. I think i can set comprehension questions for my blog entry right? cos so long and can be confusing sometimes cos i just jump here and there right! haahha. erratic! AH OYASUMINASAI, GOTTA ORH ORH LA! fan gao aha! lurve languages - be blown away by them again! SLOWLY ... man man lai!