{/Thursday, March 23, 2006, @10:38 PM.
{ I'm worried? but cheered up now WHOOT! }
I'm starting to feel worried over my insecurities at times. They surfaced today. I skipped sch... Please dun let there be teachers who see these posts! I just can't afford to be late anymore. It's been 3 weeks since I was absent. If you exclude the March hols, then it's 2 wks.Ha, a breakthrough? Used to do it every 1 or 2 wks hee?
Hey hey... I did spend my time wisely though. I did Compo 4 for Chinese which is due next Mon. Splendid! The 1st time I didn't do an essay at the last minute. Finally finished "Wo Bu Shi Cong Ming Nu Sheng" by Dong Xiao Lei. I'm not gonna write in Mandarin cos it won't work. Sucks sometimes, Blogger. I mean sometimes, not all times. I do love you.
The book title just means "I'm not an Intelligent Girl". Hilarious at times and I almost cried at the end. I didn't cry, must be the fact that I was in the library but tears did welled up. I took a loong time to finish both this and the first book. Loads of time were spent jotting down the many sayings or quotes in the book.
I'll definitely post them someday and share.:) Translate it I mean, like what I do for fansubbing. Weird, how come I sound so abrupt in this post? Well, it saves time? I'm over startin every sentence with "then", "but", "and", or "so". In case no one knows, I'm obsessed with the fact that I keep starting sentences with them and it frustrates me...
Went back to Ayer Tawar for the hols. Really enjoyed only when it was nearing the last day. I did homework too... for once. Surfed the net almost everyday I was back there, busy with PM-ing(private messaging) certain fansubbing partners for projects haha...
Back to what I was on about... The insecurities came from, I reckon, a lack of activity out of my house. It's been aeons since I shopped alone or with company. Or roamed, or hung out. Adorned in my school attire wasn't that great, it's just awkward to be somewhere when you're not supposed to be. I just need to get out and chill with frens yeah. Though I would like to try socializing, I cannot deny my fear of it on certain days. Tyris, I'm counting on your bday!!! xp
As I sat somewhere doing my essay in the morn, a women came over. My puny words caught her attention and she asked if I was from JJ. I said yeah. She asked what u doin here then? I was stuck for a moment or 2, then I replied with I'm not feeling well, so I returned en route to school. I keep digressing.
Shit, I recognize this pattern of writing from a book I had been reading for some time. "Not As Crazy As I Seem" by George Harvar. It's abt the life of a boy who has a compulsive-obsessive disorder. I see traces of myself in some of the things he does. Eg. Refusing to eat in cafeterias just cos the tot that it's used by all sorts of pple. I don't refuse to eat, but I think about it.
Another thing:
I tend to smell every single bowl or plate if I do the washing up at home. It pisses myself off but I just can't help it. I still feel the oil on it and I once asked Ma abt it and all she said was, That's not really oil. It's your own imagination. I have nothing to say...
You see? I keep 4gettin wat I'm supposed to talk about today. Oh ya... I just feel out of place in JP today. Thank goodness I saw Xiaoxia at the bus berth. She just cracks me up! I do love her haha... By the time we reached her block, we were still chatting about stupid physical education(the things they make us do) and it just sucks big time that every ounce of my thighs and my back ache now. Yeah, at this very moment...
Had dinner at one of my uncle's house. 2 of my aunts from Msia are in Sg now. I showed my obsessive side. Books affect me... It was marvelous though! Spending time with family members and I just gotta thank 5th aunt for helping me eat the chocolate coating as I just can't stuff anymore of that chocolatey thing down. I just want the vanilla ice cream within it.
I'm done for today. Back to fansubbing! Yeah, I did 13 mins or so for the video in about 3 plus hours. On average, it's 4 mins and 8 secs for an hr. Hahha... it's progressing! Yeah! Cheered up haha...
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Hey hey... I did spend my time wisely though. I did Compo 4 for Chinese which is due next Mon. Splendid! The 1st time I didn't do an essay at the last minute. Finally finished "Wo Bu Shi Cong Ming Nu Sheng" by Dong Xiao Lei. I'm not gonna write in Mandarin cos it won't work. Sucks sometimes, Blogger. I mean sometimes, not all times. I do love you.
The book title just means "I'm not an Intelligent Girl". Hilarious at times and I almost cried at the end. I didn't cry, must be the fact that I was in the library but tears did welled up. I took a loong time to finish both this and the first book. Loads of time were spent jotting down the many sayings or quotes in the book.
I'll definitely post them someday and share.:) Translate it I mean, like what I do for fansubbing. Weird, how come I sound so abrupt in this post? Well, it saves time? I'm over startin every sentence with "then", "but", "and", or "so". In case no one knows, I'm obsessed with the fact that I keep starting sentences with them and it frustrates me...
Went back to Ayer Tawar for the hols. Really enjoyed only when it was nearing the last day. I did homework too... for once. Surfed the net almost everyday I was back there, busy with PM-ing(private messaging) certain fansubbing partners for projects haha...
Back to what I was on about... The insecurities came from, I reckon, a lack of activity out of my house. It's been aeons since I shopped alone or with company. Or roamed, or hung out. Adorned in my school attire wasn't that great, it's just awkward to be somewhere when you're not supposed to be. I just need to get out and chill with frens yeah. Though I would like to try socializing, I cannot deny my fear of it on certain days. Tyris, I'm counting on your bday!!! xp
As I sat somewhere doing my essay in the morn, a women came over. My puny words caught her attention and she asked if I was from JJ. I said yeah. She asked what u doin here then? I was stuck for a moment or 2, then I replied with I'm not feeling well, so I returned en route to school. I keep digressing.
Shit, I recognize this pattern of writing from a book I had been reading for some time. "Not As Crazy As I Seem" by George Harvar. It's abt the life of a boy who has a compulsive-obsessive disorder. I see traces of myself in some of the things he does. Eg. Refusing to eat in cafeterias just cos the tot that it's used by all sorts of pple. I don't refuse to eat, but I think about it.
Another thing:
I tend to smell every single bowl or plate if I do the washing up at home. It pisses myself off but I just can't help it. I still feel the oil on it and I once asked Ma abt it and all she said was, That's not really oil. It's your own imagination. I have nothing to say...
You see? I keep 4gettin wat I'm supposed to talk about today. Oh ya... I just feel out of place in JP today. Thank goodness I saw Xiaoxia at the bus berth. She just cracks me up! I do love her haha... By the time we reached her block, we were still chatting about stupid physical education(the things they make us do) and it just sucks big time that every ounce of my thighs and my back ache now. Yeah, at this very moment...
Had dinner at one of my uncle's house. 2 of my aunts from Msia are in Sg now. I showed my obsessive side. Books affect me... It was marvelous though! Spending time with family members and I just gotta thank 5th aunt for helping me eat the chocolate coating as I just can't stuff anymore of that chocolatey thing down. I just want the vanilla ice cream within it.
I'm done for today. Back to fansubbing! Yeah, I did 13 mins or so for the video in about 3 plus hours. On average, it's 4 mins and 8 secs for an hr. Hahha... it's progressing! Yeah! Cheered up haha...
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