{/Tuesday, May 26, 2009, @1:53 PM.
{ key to happiness: exercise/ "Do the things you love with the people you love". - lead a fulfilled life - try it then 下判断哈哈 }
DAILYDOSE OF DA DONG FIRST.
TO BEAUTIFY 美化 my blog haha.
CREDITS OF ALL PICS: ASIANFANATICS DA DONG THREAD (PART 8)
PRESS CONFERENCE VERY RECENT FOR THE NEW tao hua show
got Cyndi Wang hah. XinDong (da dong and xin ling), Calvin, Wang Jing Lun (dunno why m3 so in lurve with him - mean ming min is m3) haha.
new hair style a bit like Arron Yan Ya Lun right ahha.
but i like his straight bangs too! like piggyval haha.
SO BOY BOY, BOYISH, SUPER YOUNG KID HAH cute!
I HART.
I watched Night At the Musuem 2 with 2 of my cuzzins (potato and a 13 yr old fahrenheit fan haha) last night. It WAS FREAKIN' ZOMG HILARIOUS AT SOME PARTS and i howled like a few parts in NATM 1 haha. The little men (owen wilson and the Rome guy) are sooo funnaye haha! "melo-drama" for the Rome guy ahhaahhaha...
SPOILERRRRRRRRR ALERTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!
And Larry (Ben Stiller) learnt that the key to happiness is "to do the things you lurve with the people you love". Cannot tahan, flooded my face again... AHHHHHHH... brought back all the memories of last summer ya know. But Robbie Williams said it's "exercise" (key to happiness) hahahahaha.. --- so lead a fulfilled life, after all, life is so vast ain't it, why minimize myself/restrict myself to just one small part? there's lots to experience and the future is really unpredictable. sooo try it first, then 下判断哈 haa. 会有意外的收获！人世间的事，不是很多都是意外吗？意外：意外之料的事. need to watch more 古装戏哈，cos i had the strong urge to connect with nature all cos of the TVB and mainland ancient china dramas haha. 武侠哈哈。
THEN i like to stay till the end, hoping got some more stuff after the credits end. But no have. I ended up washing my face with tears again ahhaha. it's really yi lei xi mian!以泪洗面... like crying for something but i'm not sure exactly why... like why am i feeling sad/melancholic these days. like NOT THE HAPPY feeling u know...
then when we went to ah ni uncle's house, i cried while eating again, like letting my body go through this healing process all over again. u know, u can really feel pain, heartache when u really feel very sad sometimes u know ... like when u cry, it's like the crying sensation and ur heartache.
ahhhhhh... gush, 多愁善感！LIKE if u ask me why i cry i can't tell you an exact reason but i just feel like crying so much. maybe cry for the gone times of yellowstone (cos that show just brought back all the memories u know), why i have melancholia - like hard to find joy from things, want a mars-like boyfriend (ah 大東), scared the 40 yr old "prophecy" will happen! ahhhhhhhhhh... but it felt good to cry like that.
sometimes, i wonder if my ability to feel such a great spectrum of feelings - good or not good. that's why i really adore the super high feelings haha. uh, but like S.H.E.'s "tong kuai" 痛快, everything needs to be experienced... but then hahah i'm thinking it's cos of boredom again too... when i got things to do, i'd feel like at least not empty ahahaha. yeAHHH YAY! lookin forward to reggae class tonight! at least these days, i feel that i enjoy the feeling of dancing with other people. being able to learn mel's steps that day after kiddos prac felt good! haha. like woAH, the gangstery me haha!
oh well, natsujo06 said:
"you should look for your mars then! =)
oh no wait i remember a verse, one should never look for the one, because everything on earth has its own time and its own season. okay? although sometimes i wish everyone were a couple. love <333" style="color: rgb(255, 255, 102);"> she's so nice right ahhaha :D
RANDOM PICS
somewhere in january. cuzzin Joyce came back frm Finland for another cousin Fei-kor's wedding and this is her second son - Bryan! haha. my hair --- super toot ahha but cos i was bored with my fringe so i anyhow cut frm time to time ahhah ^_^
grp pic!
cuzzin joyce beside me she has her youngest daughter Kiara in her arms.
That's Bryan and one other son is missing (the eldest son called Elton).
Bryan is a veryy sweet boy ahha. :D
magical saturday night ahha
the prelude to the magical night out @ clarke quay's Rebel haha.
@ 09 May 09' (Sat) ahha.
pretty blonde - Taina!
ithink i looked super shag aha.
i took these pics before i showered. i got home at almost 6am the next day (Sunday) ha.
but i was happy happy that day aha! muy feliz! kai xin! hoi sum ha.
20 May 09' (Wed)
went to meet Taina again random, for ladies night.
cab home 24 bucks ahhhh ahha.
the best things was the live music in Arena. those US peeps are sure smokin' hawt, 真会炒热气氛！HAHA. AND the gurls can reggae like no one's business, shake their butt, do hip curls and stuff - it's like they know it frm birth ahha. like they can roll their hips even when they were infants!AHHAHAHAH... and the dancing la... but i preferred sat's magical night haa.
watch me and mi shoes haa!
i was tryin to catch my shoes in the pic and finally succeeded.
OMIGUSH, kylala, there are times when u stil enjoy yourself lots la. the past 3 magical saturdays. i think i told xiaoxia and hai hailin (MIAP) haha, that i've decided i live for Saturdays haaha. not entirely melancholic haha! just enjoy and leave the rest to the Gods/Goddesses up there! :D jia you oh!
mexico mexico, better come true. then i can salsa all night and speak spanish till i'm so tired i can fall asleep every night.
to 2nd aunt last night haha, everything i say is amusing to them haha. thanks charmaine da-jie, good to know i entertained u when i told u i told my mama "为什么要生我？" and "谢谢你们给了我快乐的二十年”。(meaning frm the 20th yr onwards (cos 1st yr to 19th year = 20 yrs in total) ahah, it has been downslope or something) you even said u cannot sleep cos i made u laugh hahah.
oh yeah then 2nd aunt also said my hair is very nice hah m_m (natsujo06 jut told me she likes my hair too - thanks :DDD - i look at it these days and i like it too haha! if i forget the melancholic feelings, it does feel good haha - think, like in an equation, minus melancholia, left happy about my hair = good ahah ;D) but i had the creativity to say "人这么不开心，头发怎么会有办法生到这么美leh？” 哈哈哈。2nd aunt just laughed and laughed again haha. the inspiration came frm “相由心生”。like if your heart is beautiful u'd look beautiful too. frm 布衣神相 - a show that i haven't finished since a few yrs ago i think? haha but i luv it so much. lam feng too funnaye hah!
okie la, 如果快乐真的是选择（okie that's a fact since all things depend on our perceptions), 是我一直选择不快乐吧。我现在想做 friendship bands for sang sang (i owe her haha) and S haha. but then i kinda keep on procrastinating ahha. like i want to read diff books (i feel like it) and watch all the superb k dramas, jdoramas, taiwanese shows, english shows, tvb hk dramas ahha, but like i feel tat i want to do a lot but then my spirit feels weak cos like wan to do many things.
AHHH, RECALLED JORDIN SPARKS' "ONE STEP AT A TIME". okie haha, i shd just stop thinking about "fiction is fake, why read/why watch shows". that's where i got a large part of my happiness from when i was young. just read/watch stuff/enjoy musicals and stuff ahahah SO I THINK TOO MUCH AGAIN HAHA! enjoy the journey. then frm the journey to the end, it will be happy and memorable! :D
i do feel slightly better frm the psycho-ing and EXERCISE - for me is in the form of dance haa. the dark age will pass - if i believe! the law of attraction is true! if u keep thinking negative, it'll just bring all the negative things over. if u think positive, more positive thoughts will come. OKIE, do more things and crap less - 少说话，多做事ha. my family (my mama especially) tells me to talk less fei hua hahahahha.
Oh and one amazing point ahha (for myself to look bad and i do think i'm ridiculous enough alr) - people tell me this is nice, u should do it and bla. then i'd feel uh, but i don't want to do cos like i feel it won't be nice hahaa. HAHAHAH. like if i don't do, how i know right? ahha. then i give judgements straight away, even without giving it a chance. so TAKE A CHANCE.
i enjoyed myself on...
the first magical sat - out with taina and friends haha (minyi, anna, corina, johannes, catherine) and NR5 nice guy ahha.
2nd magical sat - out whole day, helped yeek deco for her bday at JTC and then had an amazing time laughin sooo much haha!
3rd magical sat - audition for Wo Yao Chang Xia Qu and had the feelings of surprise and amazement frm all the unexpected things hah. like people aren't who they seem to be frm the first glance. then to starbucks for wad's less of the sec sch class outing hahaha. talked so much crap! and laughed loads. i luv it haha and wished for more!
JIA YOU 加油 ADD OIL. ganbatte neh. AJA AJA FIGHTING! (huaiting haha)
luv yourself, treasure yourself. ur parents gave u an amazing life. 一切随缘吧。 good, u still want to find happiness after all. not say you want to give up. it's just that sometimes, u feel so tired that u wanna stop everything.
THANKS MIAP BY THE WAY AHHA. had like the first nice long chat with you the first time? ahhaha, see ya on Friday and i want to be "rewoken" by dance. searching deep within me. got do things better than do nothing haha. i told my 2nd aunt and potato about that funnaye auntie and they laughed too. then potato commented that woman like me. can only feel that other people's things are good but never feel that ownself things are good, example "other people's kids" and got that cynical attitude? ah, do i keep using cynical wronglY? WHATEVER HAHAHAH.
如果你觉得自己是幸福的，你就是幸福的！
maybe, everything we feel, is all cos we choose to feel it ourselves? I THINK TOO MUCH, SO KYLALA, NYC, PLS GO AND PRACTISE BETTER SLEEPING HABITS. i think it'll be possible cos tonight after reggae class i'll be able to sleep really well ahha cos sooo tired. last week's prac (1st one for me) made my thighs ached for 4 days and still had to work 10 hrs on wed (the next day right after prac) so it was... very torturous and i'm glad i survived it! though i felt tat it wasn't too hard to bear and it's myself, not strong enough to survive it cos i felt like giving up haha. then one gurl was askin me on my 2nd day of work if it was my first day of work, cos i only saw her that day. i said no, it was my 2nd. then she asked if i was singaporean. i said yeah, then she said normally singaporean gurls cannot tahan after the first day ahah. i think she said i'm good or something positive since i still returned haha. then i tot, got really so hard to bear meh? cos i think bear paw deli at first even more jialat. i felt how bangalas must have felt haha last summer at first. but like everyone endures the first day together with you, so it's not too bad aha :D
miap was funnaye when i told her wad wu zun said about living each day meaningfully/with purpose. she went, "but there isn't so much meaning everyday for us to live with wad hahaa..."
yeah it will all clear bah.
always remember... "the moment before light is the darkest" HAHHAH. 黄石历险记 - 深山里的迷路HAHAHA. that should be something i keep on remembering right? but like too bad i wasn't that scared, cos i kinda enjoyed the experience n feels happy about it - like an adventure (to evelyn's amusement/disbelief? ahah) despite all the gigantic blue-blacks i got and my super-achy legs the next few days. WOAH, really need to let ur body work hard then u rest - it feels so damn awesome and u feel alive haha! yeah yeah yeah, suddenly, i feel the happiness feeling in me. like NA JIU SHI REN SHENG 那就是人生！THAT'S LIFE!活得有滋有味！yeah, go back to watching shows, then live life with passion and lots of excitement hahah . . . collect all the joys and experiences hah! be open to things! hahaa, self-reflective blog again - according to robot/angel haha, she feels that my blog is very self-reflective.
how come i can never write short posts though i wanted to? haha.
i just wanted to rant that one side of my ear phones spoil again last night. but today, got sound frm both already. YEAH HAHA! be happy over simple things (ah sang tells me that too) cos it's easy to be happy like that ahaha. 为每一次的拥有而欢呼！享受那一刻！HAHA. CHEER FOR EVERY THING YOU FEEL LIKE CHEERING/HAVE SOMETHING! haha sometimes i could believe that each moment mustn't be wasted, cos it won't come back haha. but these days i wish time could pass faster so the good things could come. ah, really need to live it, feel myself living with each emotion that runs through me haha. JIA YOU. and thinking too much but it's better now soooo just let it happen. don't try to control things ahhaah.
u know what? sometimes when i feel like i want to play the sims 2 or watch shows, i end up telling myself i shouldn't cos i wouldn't be able to stop and then i'd feel that i'dll miss it when i can't do it, like if i have to work or go out haha. THEN LIKE OVER-THINKING WHEN I JUST WANNA THINK OF ONE THING TO DO. but good too la, the feeling of longing for something isn't good haha but then when you get back to it, it feels oh-so-bloody-good! MY FINGERS VERY TIRED ALREADY AHHAHAHAAHHAHA. dance dance dance! feel alive! dancing gave me so much joy! i need to dance more and feel the endorphins!
AND I THINK... people are worried for me, like my family and relatives. so thank them and be happy i have them. make more memories with them while i can. enjoy while it lasts! like honestly sang was tryin to be really nice to me, payin for the bakerzinn cake for me, like being so "soothing" cos i was seriously very CRANKY last night, like so so easily agitated like a whirlwind? haha I DON'T KNOW. so APPRECIATEit! AND my parents, them working hard, giving money to me, asking me if i have enough money. don't wait until i lose them to really appreciate them. LUV LUV LUV!
rui feng: "you should be thinking of how to enjoy your time in yellowstone! otherwise when u go back to singapore and your mum asks u how was ur trip, u'd say, it sucked." and then like i spent 4K for a bad time, NO HAHA!HAHA SOMETHING LIKE THAT. THIS LINE TRANSFORMED MY EXPERIENCE! turned it frm worrying about things to looking for ways to enjoy myself hah :D i thank him very much for that!
AH, that's the key i guess haha!
HAVE FUN - LIFE'S SHORT!
i dduuuunnn liveee forever!
and.... (okie i'm ending this post haha - so much on my mind these days)
everyone's life is different. i was glad to be really different in yellowstone. and feels excited about what will come my way, cos... YOU NEVER KNOW haha. unexpected things. surprises - be it good or bad... LIVE FOR MYSELF. and like i realize if ppl wants me to be happy, it's easier for me to be happy than just one person. the power of 群体力量哈啊！but now if i keep thinking i want other people's lives, i wouldn't be happy bah haha. sometimes i tell myself that if i had someone else's life i wouldn't be able to know my faimly and frens and had certain experiences i would never trade with other people cos it's so uniquely mine and i felt lots of joy haha. so then, i felt happy with my life.
ah, and something that i kept telling myself in the past. that life wouldn't be that fun if you knew everything, there wouldn't be surprises. cos like the future is unknown, haha. and like you're the happiest and feel the most joy when you get surprises/unexpected things happen haha. OH MY GUSH, I REALLY NEED TO TURN TO THE ANCIENT TIMES AGain, where all the philosophical sayins about life make me feel at peace - the good peace. like in every bad thing, there will be good thing out of it, cos there are always two sides. (in taoism teachings - lao tzu... zhuang zi)
ahah reminds me of something i was telling MIAP last night. that i don't want to feel peace cos i think peace is boring ahha. then she was exasperated and went like "it's paradoxical (i think she said that!)!!!! if you're bored, you don't feel peace. if you feel peace, you're not bored!" HAHAHAHA. i said, i agree that "if you're bored, you don't feel peace", but i don't agree to "if you feel peace u're not bored" ahhaa. i think that's cos i believe in it so strongly these days, it's hard to change my mind haha. whatever la...
everything happens for a reason! hahaa. be grateful! (though i don't feel like it at this moment, i hope i will feel it haha.) 物极必反！like when things get to the point of its peak or its lowest point, it will turn haha. and get used to change, cos it's the truth of all things. impermanence haha! 无常!enjoy all of 无常bah aha.
原来我是古人，应该是古人。这么地古。哈哈哈。
oh no, i realized something again. this sem exposed me to lots of new thinking/thoughts. especially derrida la! he say like everything shouldn't even be believed or something like that haix. so makes me find it hard to believe in 物极必反。wad to do? haha, if dunno, then just forget about it - whatever attitude works ahha!
KO ONE EP 3/4 CAN'T RMB AHA. but it's good! rmb!
Ya Se Wang was saying he can't understand Da Dong, he's no.3 on the KO charts but he has to go home by 10pm and goes to church and sermons on sunday. He says just thinking about it makes him shiver. Then the Xiao Yu (so damn cool la!) says, "Then don't think about it 那就别想。” haha. Ya Se Wang agreed and then asked Xiao Yu if he ever wonders who's KO chart's no. 1 and no. 2. Xiao Yu (damn cool again) went, 应该是谁就是谁吧 haha like it will be who it should be haha. HE REALLY NEVER THINK TOO MUCH LEH HAHAHAH.
then the Ya Se Wang keep thinking Lei Ke Si (Danson Tang) isn't who he is on the surface. Super cool Xiao Yu went, "每个人都不是他们表面上的一样。” so damn right haha!
i'm very amused by the show especially when Jin Bao San appears, he's so niang haha! but like i told natsujo06, my brain goes "i cannot accept it anymore" (natsujo06 finds this super funnaye - the way i say it haha) means the storyline is too shallow, no depth at all til u can't take too much of it at one go haha. but i'm happy cos got X Family 55 eps and KO One has 21 eps after all and then got KO san guo haha! (ongoing drama now). GO BACK TO THE WORLD OF DRAMAS/MOVIES/BOOKS if you want to enjoy it! after all, 戏如人生。人生如戏。helps kill time/makes you enjoy your time hahaah. and the zhuang zi dream about a butterfly. makes me feel as if what if the reality we know isn't real. it's the times when we enter the fantasy worlds we enter that are the reality. weird haha. yeah believe in goddess, have the ability to have faith! Not to forget that, in shows, i really like those different sayins and philosophies about life and the funny parts. At least u felt true joy and real amusement at those times haha!
Cos there's no fixed standard to life, do what you want bah haha. "The joy is in the doing" - adds! :D
thanks mama for buying the Prima Deli bread for me. don't take things for granted - even little things haha! keep an open mind, be open to things, have an open heart! i realized that's how i felt better about AnG JM hah. Like Xiaoxia said, the more you think bad about someone, the more u'll take note of that person and he/she'll affect u even more and who's suffering in the end, u urself. then yeah i decided to try to get to know him/her better then IT GOT BETTER AFTER ALL AHHA.
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TO BEAUTIFY 美化 my blog haha.
CREDITS OF ALL PICS: ASIANFANATICS DA DONG THREAD (PART 8)
PRESS CONFERENCE VERY RECENT FOR THE NEW tao hua show
got Cyndi Wang hah. XinDong (da dong and xin ling), Calvin, Wang Jing Lun (dunno why m3 so in lurve with him - mean ming min is m3) haha.
new hair style a bit like Arron Yan Ya Lun right ahha.
but i like his straight bangs too! like piggyval haha.
SO BOY BOY, BOYISH, SUPER YOUNG KID HAH cute!
I HART.
I watched Night At the Musuem 2 with 2 of my cuzzins (potato and a 13 yr old fahrenheit fan haha) last night. It WAS FREAKIN' ZOMG HILARIOUS AT SOME PARTS and i howled like a few parts in NATM 1 haha. The little men (owen wilson and the Rome guy) are sooo funnaye haha! "melo-drama" for the Rome guy ahhaahhaha...
SPOILERRRRRRRRR ALERTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!
And Larry (Ben Stiller) learnt that the key to happiness is "to do the things you lurve with the people you love". Cannot tahan, flooded my face again... AHHHHHHH... brought back all the memories of last summer ya know. But Robbie Williams said it's "exercise" (key to happiness) hahahahaha.. --- so lead a fulfilled life, after all, life is so vast ain't it, why minimize myself/restrict myself to just one small part? there's lots to experience and the future is really unpredictable. sooo try it first, then 下判断哈 haa. 会有意外的收获！人世间的事，不是很多都是意外吗？意外：意外之料的事. need to watch more 古装戏哈，cos i had the strong urge to connect with nature all cos of the TVB and mainland ancient china dramas haha. 武侠哈哈。
THEN i like to stay till the end, hoping got some more stuff after the credits end. But no have. I ended up washing my face with tears again ahhaha. it's really yi lei xi mian!以泪洗面... like crying for something but i'm not sure exactly why... like why am i feeling sad/melancholic these days. like NOT THE HAPPY feeling u know...
then when we went to ah ni uncle's house, i cried while eating again, like letting my body go through this healing process all over again. u know, u can really feel pain, heartache when u really feel very sad sometimes u know ... like when u cry, it's like the crying sensation and ur heartache.
ahhhhhh... gush, 多愁善感！LIKE if u ask me why i cry i can't tell you an exact reason but i just feel like crying so much. maybe cry for the gone times of yellowstone (cos that show just brought back all the memories u know), why i have melancholia - like hard to find joy from things, want a mars-like boyfriend (ah 大東), scared the 40 yr old "prophecy" will happen! ahhhhhhhhhh... but it felt good to cry like that.
sometimes, i wonder if my ability to feel such a great spectrum of feelings - good or not good. that's why i really adore the super high feelings haha. uh, but like S.H.E.'s "tong kuai" 痛快, everything needs to be experienced... but then hahah i'm thinking it's cos of boredom again too... when i got things to do, i'd feel like at least not empty ahahaha. yeAHHH YAY! lookin forward to reggae class tonight! at least these days, i feel that i enjoy the feeling of dancing with other people. being able to learn mel's steps that day after kiddos prac felt good! haha. like woAH, the gangstery me haha!
oh well, natsujo06 said:
"you should look for your mars then! =)
oh no wait i remember a verse, one should never look for the one, because everything on earth has its own time and its own season. okay? although sometimes i wish everyone were a couple. love <333" style="color: rgb(255, 255, 102);"> she's so nice right ahhaha :D
RANDOM PICS
somewhere in january. cuzzin Joyce came back frm Finland for another cousin Fei-kor's wedding and this is her second son - Bryan! haha. my hair --- super toot ahha but cos i was bored with my fringe so i anyhow cut frm time to time ahhah ^_^
grp pic!
cuzzin joyce beside me she has her youngest daughter Kiara in her arms.
That's Bryan and one other son is missing (the eldest son called Elton).
Bryan is a veryy sweet boy ahha. :D
magical saturday night ahha
the prelude to the magical night out @ clarke quay's Rebel haha.
@ 09 May 09' (Sat) ahha.
pretty blonde - Taina!
ithink i looked super shag aha.
i took these pics before i showered. i got home at almost 6am the next day (Sunday) ha.
but i was happy happy that day aha! muy feliz! kai xin! hoi sum ha.
20 May 09' (Wed)
went to meet Taina again random, for ladies night.
cab home 24 bucks ahhhh ahha.
the best things was the live music in Arena. those US peeps are sure smokin' hawt, 真会炒热气氛！HAHA. AND the gurls can reggae like no one's business, shake their butt, do hip curls and stuff - it's like they know it frm birth ahha. like they can roll their hips even when they were infants!AHHAHAHAH... and the dancing la... but i preferred sat's magical night haa.
watch me and mi shoes haa!
i was tryin to catch my shoes in the pic and finally succeeded.
OMIGUSH, kylala, there are times when u stil enjoy yourself lots la. the past 3 magical saturdays. i think i told xiaoxia and hai hailin (MIAP) haha, that i've decided i live for Saturdays haaha. not entirely melancholic haha! just enjoy and leave the rest to the Gods/Goddesses up there! :D jia you oh!
mexico mexico, better come true. then i can salsa all night and speak spanish till i'm so tired i can fall asleep every night.
to 2nd aunt last night haha, everything i say is amusing to them haha. thanks charmaine da-jie, good to know i entertained u when i told u i told my mama "为什么要生我？" and "谢谢你们给了我快乐的二十年”。(meaning frm the 20th yr onwards (cos 1st yr to 19th year = 20 yrs in total) ahah, it has been downslope or something) you even said u cannot sleep cos i made u laugh hahah.
oh yeah then 2nd aunt also said my hair is very nice hah m_m (natsujo06 jut told me she likes my hair too - thanks :DDD - i look at it these days and i like it too haha! if i forget the melancholic feelings, it does feel good haha - think, like in an equation, minus melancholia, left happy about my hair = good ahah ;D) but i had the creativity to say "人这么不开心，头发怎么会有办法生到这么美leh？” 哈哈哈。2nd aunt just laughed and laughed again haha. the inspiration came frm “相由心生”。like if your heart is beautiful u'd look beautiful too. frm 布衣神相 - a show that i haven't finished since a few yrs ago i think? haha but i luv it so much. lam feng too funnaye hah!
okie la, 如果快乐真的是选择（okie that's a fact since all things depend on our perceptions), 是我一直选择不快乐吧。我现在想做 friendship bands for sang sang (i owe her haha) and S haha. but then i kinda keep on procrastinating ahha. like i want to read diff books (i feel like it) and watch all the superb k dramas, jdoramas, taiwanese shows, english shows, tvb hk dramas ahha, but like i feel tat i want to do a lot but then my spirit feels weak cos like wan to do many things.
AHHH, RECALLED JORDIN SPARKS' "ONE STEP AT A TIME". okie haha, i shd just stop thinking about "fiction is fake, why read/why watch shows". that's where i got a large part of my happiness from when i was young. just read/watch stuff/enjoy musicals and stuff ahahah SO I THINK TOO MUCH AGAIN HAHA! enjoy the journey. then frm the journey to the end, it will be happy and memorable! :D
i do feel slightly better frm the psycho-ing and EXERCISE - for me is in the form of dance haa. the dark age will pass - if i believe! the law of attraction is true! if u keep thinking negative, it'll just bring all the negative things over. if u think positive, more positive thoughts will come. OKIE, do more things and crap less - 少说话，多做事ha. my family (my mama especially) tells me to talk less fei hua hahahahha.
Oh and one amazing point ahha (for myself to look bad and i do think i'm ridiculous enough alr) - people tell me this is nice, u should do it and bla. then i'd feel uh, but i don't want to do cos like i feel it won't be nice hahaa. HAHAHAH. like if i don't do, how i know right? ahha. then i give judgements straight away, even without giving it a chance. so TAKE A CHANCE.
i enjoyed myself on...
the first magical sat - out with taina and friends haha (minyi, anna, corina, johannes, catherine) and NR5 nice guy ahha.
2nd magical sat - out whole day, helped yeek deco for her bday at JTC and then had an amazing time laughin sooo much haha!
3rd magical sat - audition for Wo Yao Chang Xia Qu and had the feelings of surprise and amazement frm all the unexpected things hah. like people aren't who they seem to be frm the first glance. then to starbucks for wad's less of the sec sch class outing hahaha. talked so much crap! and laughed loads. i luv it haha and wished for more!
JIA YOU 加油 ADD OIL. ganbatte neh. AJA AJA FIGHTING! (huaiting haha)
luv yourself, treasure yourself. ur parents gave u an amazing life. 一切随缘吧。 good, u still want to find happiness after all. not say you want to give up. it's just that sometimes, u feel so tired that u wanna stop everything.
THANKS MIAP BY THE WAY AHHA. had like the first nice long chat with you the first time? ahhaha, see ya on Friday and i want to be "rewoken" by dance. searching deep within me. got do things better than do nothing haha. i told my 2nd aunt and potato about that funnaye auntie and they laughed too. then potato commented that woman like me. can only feel that other people's things are good but never feel that ownself things are good, example "other people's kids" and got that cynical attitude? ah, do i keep using cynical wronglY? WHATEVER HAHAHAH.
如果你觉得自己是幸福的，你就是幸福的！
maybe, everything we feel, is all cos we choose to feel it ourselves? I THINK TOO MUCH, SO KYLALA, NYC, PLS GO AND PRACTISE BETTER SLEEPING HABITS. i think it'll be possible cos tonight after reggae class i'll be able to sleep really well ahha cos sooo tired. last week's prac (1st one for me) made my thighs ached for 4 days and still had to work 10 hrs on wed (the next day right after prac) so it was... very torturous and i'm glad i survived it! though i felt tat it wasn't too hard to bear and it's myself, not strong enough to survive it cos i felt like giving up haha. then one gurl was askin me on my 2nd day of work if it was my first day of work, cos i only saw her that day. i said no, it was my 2nd. then she asked if i was singaporean. i said yeah, then she said normally singaporean gurls cannot tahan after the first day ahah. i think she said i'm good or something positive since i still returned haha. then i tot, got really so hard to bear meh? cos i think bear paw deli at first even more jialat. i felt how bangalas must have felt haha last summer at first. but like everyone endures the first day together with you, so it's not too bad aha :D
miap was funnaye when i told her wad wu zun said about living each day meaningfully/with purpose. she went, "but there isn't so much meaning everyday for us to live with wad hahaa..."
yeah it will all clear bah.
always remember... "the moment before light is the darkest" HAHHAH. 黄石历险记 - 深山里的迷路HAHAHA. that should be something i keep on remembering right? but like too bad i wasn't that scared, cos i kinda enjoyed the experience n feels happy about it - like an adventure (to evelyn's amusement/disbelief? ahah) despite all the gigantic blue-blacks i got and my super-achy legs the next few days. WOAH, really need to let ur body work hard then u rest - it feels so damn awesome and u feel alive haha! yeah yeah yeah, suddenly, i feel the happiness feeling in me. like NA JIU SHI REN SHENG 那就是人生！THAT'S LIFE!活得有滋有味！yeah, go back to watching shows, then live life with passion and lots of excitement hahah . . . collect all the joys and experiences hah! be open to things! hahaa, self-reflective blog again - according to robot/angel haha, she feels that my blog is very self-reflective.
how come i can never write short posts though i wanted to? haha.
i just wanted to rant that one side of my ear phones spoil again last night. but today, got sound frm both already. YEAH HAHA! be happy over simple things (ah sang tells me that too) cos it's easy to be happy like that ahaha. 为每一次的拥有而欢呼！享受那一刻！HAHA. CHEER FOR EVERY THING YOU FEEL LIKE CHEERING/HAVE SOMETHING! haha sometimes i could believe that each moment mustn't be wasted, cos it won't come back haha. but these days i wish time could pass faster so the good things could come. ah, really need to live it, feel myself living with each emotion that runs through me haha. JIA YOU. and thinking too much but it's better now soooo just let it happen. don't try to control things ahhaah.
u know what? sometimes when i feel like i want to play the sims 2 or watch shows, i end up telling myself i shouldn't cos i wouldn't be able to stop and then i'd feel that i'dll miss it when i can't do it, like if i have to work or go out haha. THEN LIKE OVER-THINKING WHEN I JUST WANNA THINK OF ONE THING TO DO. but good too la, the feeling of longing for something isn't good haha but then when you get back to it, it feels oh-so-bloody-good! MY FINGERS VERY TIRED ALREADY AHHAHAHAAHHAHA. dance dance dance! feel alive! dancing gave me so much joy! i need to dance more and feel the endorphins!
AND I THINK... people are worried for me, like my family and relatives. so thank them and be happy i have them. make more memories with them while i can. enjoy while it lasts! like honestly sang was tryin to be really nice to me, payin for the bakerzinn cake for me, like being so "soothing" cos i was seriously very CRANKY last night, like so so easily agitated like a whirlwind? haha I DON'T KNOW. so APPRECIATEit! AND my parents, them working hard, giving money to me, asking me if i have enough money. don't wait until i lose them to really appreciate them. LUV LUV LUV!
rui feng: "you should be thinking of how to enjoy your time in yellowstone! otherwise when u go back to singapore and your mum asks u how was ur trip, u'd say, it sucked." and then like i spent 4K for a bad time, NO HAHA!HAHA SOMETHING LIKE THAT. THIS LINE TRANSFORMED MY EXPERIENCE! turned it frm worrying about things to looking for ways to enjoy myself hah :D i thank him very much for that!
AH, that's the key i guess haha!
HAVE FUN - LIFE'S SHORT!
i dduuuunnn liveee forever!
and.... (okie i'm ending this post haha - so much on my mind these days)
everyone's life is different. i was glad to be really different in yellowstone. and feels excited about what will come my way, cos... YOU NEVER KNOW haha. unexpected things. surprises - be it good or bad... LIVE FOR MYSELF. and like i realize if ppl wants me to be happy, it's easier for me to be happy than just one person. the power of 群体力量哈啊！but now if i keep thinking i want other people's lives, i wouldn't be happy bah haha. sometimes i tell myself that if i had someone else's life i wouldn't be able to know my faimly and frens and had certain experiences i would never trade with other people cos it's so uniquely mine and i felt lots of joy haha. so then, i felt happy with my life.
ah, and something that i kept telling myself in the past. that life wouldn't be that fun if you knew everything, there wouldn't be surprises. cos like the future is unknown, haha. and like you're the happiest and feel the most joy when you get surprises/unexpected things happen haha. OH MY GUSH, I REALLY NEED TO TURN TO THE ANCIENT TIMES AGain, where all the philosophical sayins about life make me feel at peace - the good peace. like in every bad thing, there will be good thing out of it, cos there are always two sides. (in taoism teachings - lao tzu... zhuang zi)
ahah reminds me of something i was telling MIAP last night. that i don't want to feel peace cos i think peace is boring ahha. then she was exasperated and went like "it's paradoxical (i think she said that!)!!!! if you're bored, you don't feel peace. if you feel peace, you're not bored!" HAHAHAHA. i said, i agree that "if you're bored, you don't feel peace", but i don't agree to "if you feel peace u're not bored" ahhaa. i think that's cos i believe in it so strongly these days, it's hard to change my mind haha. whatever la...
everything happens for a reason! hahaa. be grateful! (though i don't feel like it at this moment, i hope i will feel it haha.) 物极必反！like when things get to the point of its peak or its lowest point, it will turn haha. and get used to change, cos it's the truth of all things. impermanence haha! 无常!enjoy all of 无常bah aha.
原来我是古人，应该是古人。这么地古。哈哈哈。
oh no, i realized something again. this sem exposed me to lots of new thinking/thoughts. especially derrida la! he say like everything shouldn't even be believed or something like that haix. so makes me find it hard to believe in 物极必反。wad to do? haha, if dunno, then just forget about it - whatever attitude works ahha!
KO ONE EP 3/4 CAN'T RMB AHA. but it's good! rmb!
Ya Se Wang was saying he can't understand Da Dong, he's no.3 on the KO charts but he has to go home by 10pm and goes to church and sermons on sunday. He says just thinking about it makes him shiver. Then the Xiao Yu (so damn cool la!) says, "Then don't think about it 那就别想。” haha. Ya Se Wang agreed and then asked Xiao Yu if he ever wonders who's KO chart's no. 1 and no. 2. Xiao Yu (damn cool again) went, 应该是谁就是谁吧 haha like it will be who it should be haha. HE REALLY NEVER THINK TOO MUCH LEH HAHAHAH.
then the Ya Se Wang keep thinking Lei Ke Si (Danson Tang) isn't who he is on the surface. Super cool Xiao Yu went, "每个人都不是他们表面上的一样。” so damn right haha!
i'm very amused by the show especially when Jin Bao San appears, he's so niang haha! but like i told natsujo06, my brain goes "i cannot accept it anymore" (natsujo06 finds this super funnaye - the way i say it haha) means the storyline is too shallow, no depth at all til u can't take too much of it at one go haha. but i'm happy cos got X Family 55 eps and KO One has 21 eps after all and then got KO san guo haha! (ongoing drama now). GO BACK TO THE WORLD OF DRAMAS/MOVIES/BOOKS if you want to enjoy it! after all, 戏如人生。人生如戏。helps kill time/makes you enjoy your time hahaah. and the zhuang zi dream about a butterfly. makes me feel as if what if the reality we know isn't real. it's the times when we enter the fantasy worlds we enter that are the reality. weird haha. yeah believe in goddess, have the ability to have faith! Not to forget that, in shows, i really like those different sayins and philosophies about life and the funny parts. At least u felt true joy and real amusement at those times haha!
Cos there's no fixed standard to life, do what you want bah haha. "The joy is in the doing" - adds! :D
thanks mama for buying the Prima Deli bread for me. don't take things for granted - even little things haha! keep an open mind, be open to things, have an open heart! i realized that's how i felt better about AnG JM hah. Like Xiaoxia said, the more you think bad about someone, the more u'll take note of that person and he/she'll affect u even more and who's suffering in the end, u urself. then yeah i decided to try to get to know him/her better then IT GOT BETTER AFTER ALL AHHA.
1 Comments:
kylala where is ur tag box?...
anyway i haf times wen i'll juz feel realli melancholic and nostalgic too...will juz sit dere keep crying or get veri moody for afew days...i guess tts juz e way life is...lettin ourselves noe the past/memories that we treasure has nv realli left us...its juz wen it gets triggered..
but sometimes i guess its a good thing...coz usually good things are the ones that give us reasons to cry for..
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