{/Wednesday, January 28, 2009, @10:16 PM.
{ If I think I'm happy, I'm happy! }
Title: If I think I'm happy, I'm happy!
I was just reading Lily 小天使 (little angel)'s blog and she was talking about the kids (me included, I guess haha) who miss Yellowstone like crazy. Mmm, she sorta said she has learnt to treat her 2nd Yellowstone experience as a dream and she knows she must wake up and get back to reality. That's true, but sometimes I still go back to dreaming again. It's so easy for me to think of Yellowstone when I'm in a place full of nature, like my father's hometown in Jemaluang. Didn't take any pics but jus took some right before we left at 6 plus just now. I got home at about 9 plus just now... :D So sorry I didn't reply those friends who text me haha. I feel missed and lurved :D
Here's the comment I wrote @ Lily's blog. I realize I always take her blog to be an avenue for me to let my emotions flow. I almost always realize something else about myself and what I actually think when I write. So writing = discovering myself bit by bit? Okie, I admit I tend to be kinda exaggerating sometimes haha, but I did once or twice or a few times felt what I felt as per what I wrote...
AIYA, 唐唐蔚说得对。我有时又会回到梦里。但在那里，我确实很开心嘛。
有时候，我在想，我是不是不应该去？去了过后，我有时真的觉得自己仿
佛忘记怎样快乐。好像，所有的快乐都已经经历过了。所以，现在，我没
有快乐。我想，我是没有当时那种快乐。我很贪心吧。。。但是，我回来
过后，真的很少有那种简简单单的快乐。去之前还常有。我是比较时常感
觉到焦躁不安的心。
好了，我的烂话说完了哈哈。新的一年，新的开始。我真的应该重新学会
如何积极点面对人生。我发现回来后的我好像比较时常往坏处想，对很多
事情都开始质疑。
尽管如此，我有时也和朋友玩闹得挺疯的哈哈，不能说回来简直只有痛
苦，任何快乐都没有。好了，总之，新年快乐！万事如意！愿你今年事事
顺利。我又借你这个地方抒发了自己的情感哈哈！好好保重哦，想念你，
我的台湾姐姐！哈哈。
吴凯拉 m_m
It's a new year after all. I so gotta learn to be positive! I realize I've forgotten how to do it.
So Sexaye M., if u're reading...
With regards to your livejournal post on Jan 24 2009, I feel the same as you, I feel like I've lost faith along the way :D Maybe that's how we clicked in the first place? Im' not saying I've had no faith at all since I got back last August, but it's very often, more often than in the past. I find it hard to be positive... More prone to negativity. But sometimes when I reach the peak of frustration, it all becomes better again cos i decide not to care hahah. Heck-care... At least I'm thankful I still have my ability to laugh at silly simple things though sometimes that ability causes me trouble (especially when it's time I gotta be serious or people might think I'm making fun of them or mocking them - but no, i jus can't help but laugh!)
So, cheers to more dancing and moley moley on feb 16 and other dates coming up. Though CK still hasn't replied our mail. Guess I'll text him abt it to ask if it's confirmed after all? Haha.
Right before I left Msia, I saw this book on the table called "The Secret". I just flipped through the pages and a new insight spotted! "The Law of Attraction". Basically, if I didn't rmb wrongly, it's like saying everything ppl get in their lives is due to what their minds thinks. So hard that it becomes the dominant thought and that's how these people achieve what they want. It's pretty interesting, so it's like if u change ur thoughts, u can change your life, simple as that. Hmm, i know many ppl have said this, many ppl know this, but whenever such simple philosophies are written in a different light, it's interesting to me all again!
Oooh, I realized I didn't write much about my trip in Msia. From 25 Jan 09' (Sunday) till 28 Jan 09' (Wed) evening... Basically, I just ate lotssssssssss, like i'm nv hungry during meal time. The only time was when I woke up at 11 plus one day and it was lunchtime @ 12 plus haha. Yeah, so yummy la. My 3rd Aunt can cook so well! I really lurve her veggie dishes and fish dishes! Like those niang tofu that kind of stuff.
I played some mahjong, played and laughed with kids. I was so bored that I played with children hahah. We played this "dian mo somefink mo", like "freeze". The old-time classic too 老鹰捉小鸡 (eagle catch the chickens haha). I actually had fun hahhaa. I played pepsi cola during last yr's cny. I almost forgot till my cousin reminded me. Yeah, I'm a kid. I decided to play cos I realize all the inactivity is killing me. Running around is better than nothing. Guilt incurred by eating too much and doin nth except watching lotsa tv haha. I tried to do a bit of my readings but it's just really minimal frankly. Cute kids yeah! I just laugh loads.
OH yeah, to me, red packets during CNY is not the highlight, it's more like getting together with my relatives haha. But this year, I spent Wednesday watching a HK drama “原来爱上贼”， Fuckin' nice la! Got me hooked haha! It's about a bunch of really smart thieves! They rob the rich to help the poor, always doing charity! Yeah, they're right, sometimes the police can't do much cos they always need evidence.
Realized sth else too, I really don't know what's boredom till I got back from abroad? Like since young, I nv say I'm bored, like I sorta think it's wrong to think that way, to the extent of despising people who always complain they're bored haha. Ooh, "despising" is a pretty strong word, but it only sticks for when they complain, they can be my loved ones too haha.
I was talking to Ker shin jiejie till early morning as my mama and my relatives played mahjong outside. I think it's so funny loh, sometimes i think i don't know how to talk to people, like nothing to say, but sometimes I say so much till I'm amazed. Yeah, she's coming to Singapore to work and staying at her bf's house in Serangoon. Will be easier to meet her in future haha! I enjoy talking to her in person but on the phone, we're like kinda weird with each other haha. Thanks for the 2 packets of crackers and I thank Ah Xian too! Really super funny loh aha!
Alrighty, I shd so stop blogging and maybe do something for my studies, like read my readings and the longlonglonglonggggggggg novel by Lao She - "Si Shi Tong Tang" (4 generations under one roof. 老舍 《四世同堂》。 It's pretty interesting, really detailed, abt this family, their lives, their neighbours and stuff, I haven't reached the real thing like about war or stuff I guess? Neways, nights all. I shd always keep in mind "如果你觉得自己是幸福的，你就是幸福的。” --- just means, "if you think you're happy, then you're happy". or rather "if you think you're blessed, then you are. if you think you're not, then you're not.". Once again - all in the mind.
Oh and recently i've got a thought. It's like I shd really be thankful for every moment. For every moment like now and many others that I'm not in pain, nor am I in fear. It's a blessed moment - simple like that...
Going back to Jemaluang, Msia makes me feel as if it's like old times, I have lotsa memories there as well as my Mama's hometown in Ayer Tawar, Perak. They are two places in which I feel familiar with and I'm myself too, my crazy self and watever cos I've been going there a few times each year, sometimes more than a few times since my childhood times...
Some pics now...
11 Jan 2009
Fei-kor's & Porn's wedding in Shangri-La hotel, welcome back Cousin Joyce - Ah Guan-jie from Finland and her cute family
my first personal glass of red wine haha...
with 很耐看的古典美人, my Japanese super-athletic cousin-in-law Masaki!
don't u think it looks like chocolate cake?
but it's some pork belly hahhaha... we had many laughs over this!
yeah, i look so tall la haha.
shangri-la hotel's ladies!
Ah Guan-jie's super super cute 3-yr-old Kiara! Super smart and intelligent and mischievous kid but she jus refuses to speak in English though she understands it and always speaks in Finnish! Lots of cute expressions, like her 2 elder brothers, I've got some pics but I haven't uploaded them yet haha.
[@ Tiong Bahru's TCC... yummy! I had some mocha vanilla ice-cream thng (drink) and ate some salmon caesar salad and some parmesan mushroom baked rice yummy!]
outside TCC, lotsa people.
By the way, Cousin Joyce and her family went back to Finland on Saturday night, we went to the airport to send them off. I lurve family reunions like that :D I've got a thought, it's like u really dunno what's gonna happen in the future, like I bet my cousin had no idea she'd marry off to Finland and lead such a different life than if she was in Singapore :D So, the future is unpredictable once again!
@ jp2's Bakerzinn - brief sec sch mates meetup haha, i had fun laughing so much la. Xiaoxia, you're amazing! The rest too, like Serene Lim (hearty laugh and it was so nice to chill at your place that I didn't feel like going home), Evelyn (of course all-time funny gurl), Pamela (yeah c-u-n-t... haha), Huiling (long time no see :D haha)
warm chocolate cake - if without the orange slice, would have been even more yummy!
oooh, a lil' tired after all the uploading but great work! to me... hahah, writing so much, uploading so much.有点累了哈哈。晚安各位！
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I was just reading Lily 小天使 (little angel)'s blog and she was talking about the kids (me included, I guess haha) who miss Yellowstone like crazy. Mmm, she sorta said she has learnt to treat her 2nd Yellowstone experience as a dream and she knows she must wake up and get back to reality. That's true, but sometimes I still go back to dreaming again. It's so easy for me to think of Yellowstone when I'm in a place full of nature, like my father's hometown in Jemaluang. Didn't take any pics but jus took some right before we left at 6 plus just now. I got home at about 9 plus just now... :D So sorry I didn't reply those friends who text me haha. I feel missed and lurved :D
Here's the comment I wrote @ Lily's blog. I realize I always take her blog to be an avenue for me to let my emotions flow. I almost always realize something else about myself and what I actually think when I write. So writing = discovering myself bit by bit? Okie, I admit I tend to be kinda exaggerating sometimes haha, but I did once or twice or a few times felt what I felt as per what I wrote...
AIYA, 唐唐蔚说得对。我有时又会回到梦里。但在那里，我确实很开心嘛。
有时候，我在想，我是不是不应该去？去了过后，我有时真的觉得自己仿
佛忘记怎样快乐。好像，所有的快乐都已经经历过了。所以，现在，我没
有快乐。我想，我是没有当时那种快乐。我很贪心吧。。。但是，我回来
过后，真的很少有那种简简单单的快乐。去之前还常有。我是比较时常感
觉到焦躁不安的心。
好了，我的烂话说完了哈哈。新的一年，新的开始。我真的应该重新学会
如何积极点面对人生。我发现回来后的我好像比较时常往坏处想，对很多
事情都开始质疑。
尽管如此，我有时也和朋友玩闹得挺疯的哈哈，不能说回来简直只有痛
苦，任何快乐都没有。好了，总之，新年快乐！万事如意！愿你今年事事
顺利。我又借你这个地方抒发了自己的情感哈哈！好好保重哦，想念你，
我的台湾姐姐！哈哈。
吴凯拉 m_m
It's a new year after all. I so gotta learn to be positive! I realize I've forgotten how to do it.
So Sexaye M., if u're reading...
With regards to your livejournal post on Jan 24 2009, I feel the same as you, I feel like I've lost faith along the way :D Maybe that's how we clicked in the first place? Im' not saying I've had no faith at all since I got back last August, but it's very often, more often than in the past. I find it hard to be positive... More prone to negativity. But sometimes when I reach the peak of frustration, it all becomes better again cos i decide not to care hahah. Heck-care... At least I'm thankful I still have my ability to laugh at silly simple things though sometimes that ability causes me trouble (especially when it's time I gotta be serious or people might think I'm making fun of them or mocking them - but no, i jus can't help but laugh!)
So, cheers to more dancing and moley moley on feb 16 and other dates coming up. Though CK still hasn't replied our mail. Guess I'll text him abt it to ask if it's confirmed after all? Haha.
Right before I left Msia, I saw this book on the table called "The Secret". I just flipped through the pages and a new insight spotted! "The Law of Attraction". Basically, if I didn't rmb wrongly, it's like saying everything ppl get in their lives is due to what their minds thinks. So hard that it becomes the dominant thought and that's how these people achieve what they want. It's pretty interesting, so it's like if u change ur thoughts, u can change your life, simple as that. Hmm, i know many ppl have said this, many ppl know this, but whenever such simple philosophies are written in a different light, it's interesting to me all again!
Oooh, I realized I didn't write much about my trip in Msia. From 25 Jan 09' (Sunday) till 28 Jan 09' (Wed) evening... Basically, I just ate lotssssssssss, like i'm nv hungry during meal time. The only time was when I woke up at 11 plus one day and it was lunchtime @ 12 plus haha. Yeah, so yummy la. My 3rd Aunt can cook so well! I really lurve her veggie dishes and fish dishes! Like those niang tofu that kind of stuff.
I played some mahjong, played and laughed with kids. I was so bored that I played with children hahah. We played this "dian mo somefink mo", like "freeze". The old-time classic too 老鹰捉小鸡 (eagle catch the chickens haha). I actually had fun hahhaa. I played pepsi cola during last yr's cny. I almost forgot till my cousin reminded me. Yeah, I'm a kid. I decided to play cos I realize all the inactivity is killing me. Running around is better than nothing. Guilt incurred by eating too much and doin nth except watching lotsa tv haha. I tried to do a bit of my readings but it's just really minimal frankly. Cute kids yeah! I just laugh loads.
OH yeah, to me, red packets during CNY is not the highlight, it's more like getting together with my relatives haha. But this year, I spent Wednesday watching a HK drama “原来爱上贼”， Fuckin' nice la! Got me hooked haha! It's about a bunch of really smart thieves! They rob the rich to help the poor, always doing charity! Yeah, they're right, sometimes the police can't do much cos they always need evidence.
Realized sth else too, I really don't know what's boredom till I got back from abroad? Like since young, I nv say I'm bored, like I sorta think it's wrong to think that way, to the extent of despising people who always complain they're bored haha. Ooh, "despising" is a pretty strong word, but it only sticks for when they complain, they can be my loved ones too haha.
I was talking to Ker shin jiejie till early morning as my mama and my relatives played mahjong outside. I think it's so funny loh, sometimes i think i don't know how to talk to people, like nothing to say, but sometimes I say so much till I'm amazed. Yeah, she's coming to Singapore to work and staying at her bf's house in Serangoon. Will be easier to meet her in future haha! I enjoy talking to her in person but on the phone, we're like kinda weird with each other haha. Thanks for the 2 packets of crackers and I thank Ah Xian too! Really super funny loh aha!
Alrighty, I shd so stop blogging and maybe do something for my studies, like read my readings and the longlonglonglonggggggggg novel by Lao She - "Si Shi Tong Tang" (4 generations under one roof. 老舍 《四世同堂》。 It's pretty interesting, really detailed, abt this family, their lives, their neighbours and stuff, I haven't reached the real thing like about war or stuff I guess? Neways, nights all. I shd always keep in mind "如果你觉得自己是幸福的，你就是幸福的。” --- just means, "if you think you're happy, then you're happy". or rather "if you think you're blessed, then you are. if you think you're not, then you're not.". Once again - all in the mind.
Oh and recently i've got a thought. It's like I shd really be thankful for every moment. For every moment like now and many others that I'm not in pain, nor am I in fear. It's a blessed moment - simple like that...
Going back to Jemaluang, Msia makes me feel as if it's like old times, I have lotsa memories there as well as my Mama's hometown in Ayer Tawar, Perak. They are two places in which I feel familiar with and I'm myself too, my crazy self and watever cos I've been going there a few times each year, sometimes more than a few times since my childhood times...
Some pics now...
11 Jan 2009
Fei-kor's & Porn's wedding in Shangri-La hotel, welcome back Cousin Joyce - Ah Guan-jie from Finland and her cute family
my first personal glass of red wine haha...
with 很耐看的古典美人, my Japanese super-athletic cousin-in-law Masaki!
don't u think it looks like chocolate cake?
but it's some pork belly hahhaha... we had many laughs over this!
yeah, i look so tall la haha.
shangri-la hotel's ladies!
Ah Guan-jie's super super cute 3-yr-old Kiara! Super smart and intelligent and mischievous kid but she jus refuses to speak in English though she understands it and always speaks in Finnish! Lots of cute expressions, like her 2 elder brothers, I've got some pics but I haven't uploaded them yet haha.
[@ Tiong Bahru's TCC... yummy! I had some mocha vanilla ice-cream thng (drink) and ate some salmon caesar salad and some parmesan mushroom baked rice yummy!]
outside TCC, lotsa people.
By the way, Cousin Joyce and her family went back to Finland on Saturday night, we went to the airport to send them off. I lurve family reunions like that :D I've got a thought, it's like u really dunno what's gonna happen in the future, like I bet my cousin had no idea she'd marry off to Finland and lead such a different life than if she was in Singapore :D So, the future is unpredictable once again!
@ jp2's Bakerzinn - brief sec sch mates meetup haha, i had fun laughing so much la. Xiaoxia, you're amazing! The rest too, like Serene Lim (hearty laugh and it was so nice to chill at your place that I didn't feel like going home), Evelyn (of course all-time funny gurl), Pamela (yeah c-u-n-t... haha), Huiling (long time no see :D haha)
warm chocolate cake - if without the orange slice, would have been even more yummy!
oooh, a lil' tired after all the uploading but great work! to me... hahah, writing so much, uploading so much.有点累了哈哈。晚安各位！
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