{/Monday, June 15, 2009, @12:03 AM.
{ I just have to keep believing - everything wil be alright. OPEN UP SOME LITTLE HAPPINESS TODAY! }
Sometimes, i wish i can be like totally satisfied as a consumer and shop. I JUST BOUGHT LG MINI laptop haha, dunno what it's called @ the IT fair today haha. Thanks to sh, I got discount of 20 bucks frm his fren who was selling it to me and that guy very nice & cute haha, upgrade to 2GB ram FOR ME, ahha... I shd be really happy right? I was happy during the moments, but like all happiness, they don't last ha..a.a.a. (EDITS: OKIE LA, HAPPY ABOUT IT, papa agree to sponsor for my bday but i think i will pay a bit bah aha. cos if i really get to go to mexico, i'll have to get money frm my parents. omy dear parents, i know u two lurve me, but sometimes i can't feel it but today i felt a few bits after all, so maybe i'm recovering ahha... --- if i think i'm recovering, then i'm recovering haa. it's really what i believe haa.)
OMGUSH, can i just get rid of all these bad feelings/emo thoughts... My sleep patterns are ... hahaha... Let me try to recap. It seems as if all my days have gone to waste like I dont knw what I've been doing haha. Unlike in the past, I'd write them down and then recall and stuff and feels kinda fulfilled knowing that i DO DO THINGS, not just nothing haha, after all. Not to forget, Xenbar was a problem source haha, people too. Like I'd always feel out of place and stuff haha. But of cuz, I had my fun times in Xenbar too haha. I should really join a dance school again? But it's cos I keep leaving the country (ACTUALLY I LIKE THIS PART HAH）like, okie, sometimes i leave the country, i don't want to start a while and leave haha. NEED to save up even more if i go right? but also don't know where to join. o school, too big and need to fit in, feels like MJ cliquey feel? again aha - judge again! salsa sch? no time haa. i mean short time haa.
倦怠期，或許這次的較長吧。哈哈。會過的！它一定回國的！
I just have to keep believing! Choose the things to believe (credits to Shaun too)...
Thanks Shaun for the msn chat, I really "think too much and never do anything"...
Oops, out of topic, neways, Papa & Mama were really nice this morning/afternoon, waited a long time again ahha. Pa drove us all to Chinatown cos they had a talk to attend. Kyla the Orphan (soon ahha) cos my parents are randomly going to Tibet next week for 9 days. AHAHHAHAHAHA, so random la! Choy la! They'll come back for sure! Cos they don't want us to worry haha. Sometimes when i worry like this, I feel like I really luv them! That's good, since I feel that I don't know how to feel lurve these days.
Ah, really, Kylala, your thoughts keep taking over you. Being in control and stuff. But then again, you were amazing to wait for 5 hrs after all. AHHAHAHAH. And you ran back to Attica to just LET IT GO AHA. cos if not all the waiting would be in vain if i didn't have some partying/dancing right? felt like yellowsotne when that French guy, Catherine, Ming I and I had our shoulders on each other haha. AHHHH, just enjoy the moment ha. At least, it happened :D --- dont cry bcos it's over, smile bcos it happened yeah haha. NV REGRET ANYTHING THAT MADE YOU SMILE HAHA. :D on gina's facebook. i find it good ha.
++28 bucks. for a LIL' BIT OF GREEN TEA. imagine u pinching a pea with ur fingers. ahhaahhahhaa. i told sh that and sh just laughed sh's head off. ahhahahhahah. i think it's funnaye! haha.
++plus the having-to-eat-mac-upsized-meal-just-cos-to-replace-the-purple-coca-cola-glass-of-cousin/roomie-ah-sang HAHAA. AMUSED Yvonne (dance MJ senior) & sh & ah sang herself haha.
see, you can feel the slight joy in such things. come on, BELIEVE IN IT EVER MORE STRONGLY. if it's supposed to happen/gonna to happen, it will. if it's meant to be. so just sit back, relax and enjoy the show. HAHHAHAHAHA. i bought a 70 bucks cute-looking massager frm action city or was it mini toons can't rmb. Felt impulsive. But I just wanted to give papa something cos i didn't bother to do anything for his birthday hahha.
ahhhhh, really, live for the experiences. so many forms and shapes they can take and come in! haha. BE POSITIVe! try! uh, really, the people who really treat you well are your parents... i mean they are confirmed plus chop one haa! so i wanted to do something nice haha. :D i just smiled yeah.
gush, my problem is i keep drilling myself in a corner (zuan niu jiao jian) haa. I SHOULD GO AND WATCH SHOWS AND ENJOY THEM! Haha. Don't judge a book by its cover. Uh, kelvin bruh was like saying Jap's Hana Kimi damn funnaye aha :D Seriously, stop judging something before you do it, like keep on thinking you'll find no joy and stuff ahha. Let it happen, then feel it. JIA YOU JIA YOU! YOU CAN DO IT OKIe...
oh ya, about drilling myself in a corner, is like i keep banging myself against the wall so i feel even more down. now i try to get myself out of the corner hah. often, i think distractions help bah aha. but see, i fail to believe they do BUT NOW, THEY WILL, IF I BELIEVE THEY WILL AHA. really, many ppl say and ah sang says too, being happy is just a feeling anyway. ah, wu ji zun, i really want to believe in "happiness is the way" and that's the way it should be haa and feel it. It again: "There is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way." AT LEAST TRY OKIE. AI WEI SAYS, "research shows that when one is positive in one's thinking, positive things tend to happen. LAW OF ATTRACTION!".... Some day someday, maybe maybe hahha.
No pics these days ahha. I wonder if Bintan $50 will really come true. Ming I was drunk when he told me about that hahaha. Alright, let's wait and see! hahahaha. but really don't, cuo guo the rest. TRY! JIA YOU, JIA YOU ZAI JIA YOU! JING CAI JING CAI! 精彩，精彩！加油，加油，再加油！不要跟我說，長這么大還是那么沒有用Okie! 磨練過后，會鍛煉人格！i hope haha!
i saw myself on tv aha.
thanks yu for saying i look nice. but i think i dont' aha. so need to get used to it ha. it was sudden when i see my face appeared hah! and yu, u said, go out with you all, then i can feel the friendship aha. yeah, i realize my mind keeps thinking i won't have fun, then like xiaoxia says, it's "self-fulfilling prophecy". AHH, which means i really need to go back to watching shows and just watch it hah! STOP, THINK NO MORE. I'VE LIVED MY LIFE THE BEST way i know aha! soooo just believe that Goddess will know what's good for me!
i stil have my friends and family and my beautiful childhood & beautiful Yellowstone. LIVE, 去體驗人生！豐富它. i realize i crave for people these days it seems aha. Maybe it's cos i've been alone too often haa.
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OMGUSH, can i just get rid of all these bad feelings/emo thoughts... My sleep patterns are ... hahaha... Let me try to recap. It seems as if all my days have gone to waste like I dont knw what I've been doing haha. Unlike in the past, I'd write them down and then recall and stuff and feels kinda fulfilled knowing that i DO DO THINGS, not just nothing haha, after all. Not to forget, Xenbar was a problem source haha, people too. Like I'd always feel out of place and stuff haha. But of cuz, I had my fun times in Xenbar too haha. I should really join a dance school again? But it's cos I keep leaving the country (ACTUALLY I LIKE THIS PART HAH）like, okie, sometimes i leave the country, i don't want to start a while and leave haha. NEED to save up even more if i go right? but also don't know where to join. o school, too big and need to fit in, feels like MJ cliquey feel? again aha - judge again! salsa sch? no time haa. i mean short time haa.
倦怠期，或許這次的較長吧。哈哈。會過的！它一定回國的！
I just have to keep believing! Choose the things to believe (credits to Shaun too)...
Thanks Shaun for the msn chat, I really "think too much and never do anything"...
Oops, out of topic, neways, Papa & Mama were really nice this morning/afternoon, waited a long time again ahha. Pa drove us all to Chinatown cos they had a talk to attend. Kyla the Orphan (soon ahha) cos my parents are randomly going to Tibet next week for 9 days. AHAHHAHAHAHA, so random la! Choy la! They'll come back for sure! Cos they don't want us to worry haha. Sometimes when i worry like this, I feel like I really luv them! That's good, since I feel that I don't know how to feel lurve these days.
Ah, really, Kylala, your thoughts keep taking over you. Being in control and stuff. But then again, you were amazing to wait for 5 hrs after all. AHHAHAHAH. And you ran back to Attica to just LET IT GO AHA. cos if not all the waiting would be in vain if i didn't have some partying/dancing right? felt like yellowsotne when that French guy, Catherine, Ming I and I had our shoulders on each other haha. AHHHH, just enjoy the moment ha. At least, it happened :D --- dont cry bcos it's over, smile bcos it happened yeah haha. NV REGRET ANYTHING THAT MADE YOU SMILE HAHA. :D on gina's facebook. i find it good ha.
++28 bucks. for a LIL' BIT OF GREEN TEA. imagine u pinching a pea with ur fingers. ahhaahhahhaa. i told sh that and sh just laughed sh's head off. ahhahahhahah. i think it's funnaye! haha.
++plus the having-to-eat-mac-upsized-meal-just-cos-to-replace-the-purple-coca-cola-glass-of-cousin/roomie-ah-sang HAHAA. AMUSED Yvonne (dance MJ senior) & sh & ah sang herself haha.
see, you can feel the slight joy in such things. come on, BELIEVE IN IT EVER MORE STRONGLY. if it's supposed to happen/gonna to happen, it will. if it's meant to be. so just sit back, relax and enjoy the show. HAHHAHAHAHA. i bought a 70 bucks cute-looking massager frm action city or was it mini toons can't rmb. Felt impulsive. But I just wanted to give papa something cos i didn't bother to do anything for his birthday hahha.
ahhhhh, really, live for the experiences. so many forms and shapes they can take and come in! haha. BE POSITIVe! try! uh, really, the people who really treat you well are your parents... i mean they are confirmed plus chop one haa! so i wanted to do something nice haha. :D i just smiled yeah.
gush, my problem is i keep drilling myself in a corner (zuan niu jiao jian) haa. I SHOULD GO AND WATCH SHOWS AND ENJOY THEM! Haha. Don't judge a book by its cover. Uh, kelvin bruh was like saying Jap's Hana Kimi damn funnaye aha :D Seriously, stop judging something before you do it, like keep on thinking you'll find no joy and stuff ahha. Let it happen, then feel it. JIA YOU JIA YOU! YOU CAN DO IT OKIe...
oh ya, about drilling myself in a corner, is like i keep banging myself against the wall so i feel even more down. now i try to get myself out of the corner hah. often, i think distractions help bah aha. but see, i fail to believe they do BUT NOW, THEY WILL, IF I BELIEVE THEY WILL AHA. really, many ppl say and ah sang says too, being happy is just a feeling anyway. ah, wu ji zun, i really want to believe in "happiness is the way" and that's the way it should be haa and feel it. It again: "There is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way." AT LEAST TRY OKIE. AI WEI SAYS, "research shows that when one is positive in one's thinking, positive things tend to happen. LAW OF ATTRACTION!".... Some day someday, maybe maybe hahha.
No pics these days ahha. I wonder if Bintan $50 will really come true. Ming I was drunk when he told me about that hahaha. Alright, let's wait and see! hahahaha. but really don't, cuo guo the rest. TRY! JIA YOU, JIA YOU ZAI JIA YOU! JING CAI JING CAI! 精彩，精彩！加油，加油，再加油！不要跟我說，長這么大還是那么沒有用Okie! 磨練過后，會鍛煉人格！i hope haha!
i saw myself on tv aha.
thanks yu for saying i look nice. but i think i dont' aha. so need to get used to it ha. it was sudden when i see my face appeared hah! and yu, u said, go out with you all, then i can feel the friendship aha. yeah, i realize my mind keeps thinking i won't have fun, then like xiaoxia says, it's "self-fulfilling prophecy". AHH, which means i really need to go back to watching shows and just watch it hah! STOP, THINK NO MORE. I'VE LIVED MY LIFE THE BEST way i know aha! soooo just believe that Goddess will know what's good for me!
i stil have my friends and family and my beautiful childhood & beautiful Yellowstone. LIVE, 去體驗人生！豐富它. i realize i crave for people these days it seems aha. Maybe it's cos i've been alone too often haa.
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