{/Monday, February 09, 2009, @5:44 PM.
{ Oh gush, Evelyn, you're only gone for like 3 days? And I miss you already... }
TITLE: Oh gush, Evelyn, you're only gone for like 3 days? And I miss you already...
from Eve's blog http://ulovemeso.livejournal.com
"anw here is a quote i read online which i rem as:
the thoughts than run through your head
are the thoughts u have been taught to think
the life that u live now
is the life u choose to live
any chance of changing that is by using
the time u currently have"
I miss you already...
Today I have less troubling thoughts, cos I was too tired! Finally finished HC202 reports and to find out that it's a hoax! There was no need to be stressed cos anything you write would be wrong anyway ahaha... Feels cheated.
Argh bt I have HC213 presentation coming up this thursday, my first presentation ever - i so need to read up!
There were 2 thoughts I had last night...
One was, I think we take it for granted that the future will happen as how we expect it to be. Maybe that's cos in current society, everything is about making plans in the future, that's how we live. But if we were to think, in the past, before all these cities and urbanization took over the world, we don't know what will happen in the future. That's how we forgot along the way that the future is indeed unpredictable. I find it hard to like really believe it but the past proves that at a previous point in time, I had no idea something like that or bla bla would ever happen...
I try to make myself better by feeling that for every moment I feel troubled/pissed/unhappy/grumpy, that moment wasn't a good one. It wasn't enjoyed. And it's gone and there's no way that moment would come back. That said, I'm supposed to be happy all the time... Ain't it? But Sang says she thinks I enjoy being in a troubled state sometimes. I used to be troubled over the fact that I have to say goodbye to yellowstone no matter what. Now, I'm troubled over not having found my true lurve. But my interests always change. It's fleeting. Impermanence.
And maybe, being troubled/sad/pissed in any moment is experiencing life too, isn't it? Bad and good, or maybe it just depends on how we look at it, they are all part of life? Maybe I have that idea rooted in me, so I find it hard to get rid of feeling troubled cos I enjoy it somehow?
Somehow, I'm afraid of going to Mexico. It sounds daunting... Haix... My gush, I used to be so excited about it! I just read on some testimony by some student that you have to beware of all the monster cockroaches everywhere you go!!!!!!!! How? I'm scared! I'm already scared enough of wisdom tooth operation if I have to go through it... I'm such a scaredy cat. 吴凯拉，勇敢一点！拿出你在黄石的那种冒险精神！Be brave! But it's still quite some time away haha.
My gush, but why am I feeling so scared? During exams last November, I was so worried my GPA would drop cos I'm scared I'm not eligible for INSTEP if my GPA drops to below 3.6. I wanted to go so badly at that time! Felt so bored with Singapore - like I wanted to LIVE, like how I felt in Yellowstone - being in a foreign place and all... But I'm scared now. I shd stop thinking about it haha! 想太多真是我的问题所在啊。我现在得去读有关一些人生哲理的书哈哈。
Last night, we were watching "Wu Lin Da Dao" - dancing variety show (Taiwan) and my parents fell asleep on the couch. I watched them, I felt so blessed. That they're right beside me. They've indeed aged over the years and I realized I do lurve them, very much. I felt warmth in my heart as I gazed at them like that. I think I can't bear to leave them for 5/6 mths. But then, today, I realized there's a very high possibility I might regret not going for INSTEP if I had a chance. So, lemme make it happen then! Better live my life to the fullest! Haha...
If I were to think about what I'm happy about myself, I think it would have to be my teeth, my eyebrows, my mouth, my thick hair (only if the fringe isn't that short. but bcos it pisses me off now, it goes to show how secure and happy i was when it was flatter cos it was thicker and longer), i kinda like to think that my eyes help me ward off all evil cos it goes up at the end haha. "phoenix eyes" but mine are really small ones haha. I like my nose when it's together with the rest of my features ahha. I lurve my hands and legs, cos after all, without them, I wouldn't have the ability to dance. Maybe it's time I watched some really sad and inspiring shows, like "one litre of tears"...
I'm so tired again so why am I blogging again? I should prolly nap. Hahaha... Lemme post some new year pics - when i got a lil' drunk/tipsy on New Year's Day this year 2009!
Taken on 01 Jan 2009 @ Sam's house - thanks for the vodka!
Thanks to my dear papa who came to fetch us, Mama came back
from Ayer Tawar that night too haha!
Some random pics I took during our last day in Jemaluang
for CNY this year... 28 Jan 2009 (Wed)
Haha, Ah Xian, my niece cries so cutely ahha...
Lemme be happy, in every state I'm in. Gush, I just realized it's time for me to search for inspiration again. Like there are certain times when I feel so unmotivated. Like I need to seek some inspiration or enlightenment, the only way is thru other sources, not myself. Like books, shows, other people and bla bla haha...
I miss ya Evelyn!
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from Eve's blog http://ulovemeso.livejournal.com
"anw here is a quote i read online which i rem as:
the thoughts than run through your head
are the thoughts u have been taught to think
the life that u live now
is the life u choose to live
any chance of changing that is by using
the time u currently have"
I miss you already...
Today I have less troubling thoughts, cos I was too tired! Finally finished HC202 reports and to find out that it's a hoax! There was no need to be stressed cos anything you write would be wrong anyway ahaha... Feels cheated.
Argh bt I have HC213 presentation coming up this thursday, my first presentation ever - i so need to read up!
There were 2 thoughts I had last night...
One was, I think we take it for granted that the future will happen as how we expect it to be. Maybe that's cos in current society, everything is about making plans in the future, that's how we live. But if we were to think, in the past, before all these cities and urbanization took over the world, we don't know what will happen in the future. That's how we forgot along the way that the future is indeed unpredictable. I find it hard to like really believe it but the past proves that at a previous point in time, I had no idea something like that or bla bla would ever happen...
I try to make myself better by feeling that for every moment I feel troubled/pissed/unhappy/grumpy, that moment wasn't a good one. It wasn't enjoyed. And it's gone and there's no way that moment would come back. That said, I'm supposed to be happy all the time... Ain't it? But Sang says she thinks I enjoy being in a troubled state sometimes. I used to be troubled over the fact that I have to say goodbye to yellowstone no matter what. Now, I'm troubled over not having found my true lurve. But my interests always change. It's fleeting. Impermanence.
And maybe, being troubled/sad/pissed in any moment is experiencing life too, isn't it? Bad and good, or maybe it just depends on how we look at it, they are all part of life? Maybe I have that idea rooted in me, so I find it hard to get rid of feeling troubled cos I enjoy it somehow?
Somehow, I'm afraid of going to Mexico. It sounds daunting... Haix... My gush, I used to be so excited about it! I just read on some testimony by some student that you have to beware of all the monster cockroaches everywhere you go!!!!!!!! How? I'm scared! I'm already scared enough of wisdom tooth operation if I have to go through it... I'm such a scaredy cat. 吴凯拉，勇敢一点！拿出你在黄石的那种冒险精神！Be brave! But it's still quite some time away haha.
My gush, but why am I feeling so scared? During exams last November, I was so worried my GPA would drop cos I'm scared I'm not eligible for INSTEP if my GPA drops to below 3.6. I wanted to go so badly at that time! Felt so bored with Singapore - like I wanted to LIVE, like how I felt in Yellowstone - being in a foreign place and all... But I'm scared now. I shd stop thinking about it haha! 想太多真是我的问题所在啊。我现在得去读有关一些人生哲理的书哈哈。
Last night, we were watching "Wu Lin Da Dao" - dancing variety show (Taiwan) and my parents fell asleep on the couch. I watched them, I felt so blessed. That they're right beside me. They've indeed aged over the years and I realized I do lurve them, very much. I felt warmth in my heart as I gazed at them like that. I think I can't bear to leave them for 5/6 mths. But then, today, I realized there's a very high possibility I might regret not going for INSTEP if I had a chance. So, lemme make it happen then! Better live my life to the fullest! Haha...
If I were to think about what I'm happy about myself, I think it would have to be my teeth, my eyebrows, my mouth, my thick hair (only if the fringe isn't that short. but bcos it pisses me off now, it goes to show how secure and happy i was when it was flatter cos it was thicker and longer), i kinda like to think that my eyes help me ward off all evil cos it goes up at the end haha. "phoenix eyes" but mine are really small ones haha. I like my nose when it's together with the rest of my features ahha. I lurve my hands and legs, cos after all, without them, I wouldn't have the ability to dance. Maybe it's time I watched some really sad and inspiring shows, like "one litre of tears"...
I'm so tired again so why am I blogging again? I should prolly nap. Hahaha... Lemme post some new year pics - when i got a lil' drunk/tipsy on New Year's Day this year 2009!
Taken on 01 Jan 2009 @ Sam's house - thanks for the vodka!
Thanks to my dear papa who came to fetch us, Mama came back
from Ayer Tawar that night too haha!
Some random pics I took during our last day in Jemaluang
for CNY this year... 28 Jan 2009 (Wed)
Haha, Ah Xian, my niece cries so cutely ahha...
Lemme be happy, in every state I'm in. Gush, I just realized it's time for me to search for inspiration again. Like there are certain times when I feel so unmotivated. Like I need to seek some inspiration or enlightenment, the only way is thru other sources, not myself. Like books, shows, other people and bla bla haha...
I miss ya Evelyn!
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