{/Love You More and More.
{/Monday, October 22, 2007, @1:07 PM.
{ I lurve MUSHROOMs! }
I'm in school now and I want to blog about this before I forget. I came across this site when I was doing background research for one of the poems we are going to discuss in tutorial later. Read it if you understand Chinese. http://wxeo1227.spaces.live.com/default.aspx?_c02_owner=1 But this was last September's post.

It is about a boy who was admitted to hospital before his first day in his dream school. He had a heart attack as he was born with heart problems. The blogger was a teacher and he went to visit the boy. He felt that the boy needed confidence to make it through, either from himself or from others. The students who had never met their classmate did a card for him. It was the class's gift of well wishes. The class left one seat empty for the boy, in the event that he recovered and could go back to school.

Two drops of tears fell despite me trying hard to stop it from falling. The blogger said Shi Ming de, this guy (I dunno who) once said having gone through all the hardships of life, he realized that it is most important to have confidence in one's life. I felt like it was great advice for the me currently...\

I guess the reason for my misery for the past few weeks was due to a lack of confidence. I need to do my term papers, be ready for exams, feel comfortable in the new clique. But, I feel that I have serious problems - I have social probs and I am stupid or rather, not intelligent enough to get past the exams and write the term papers.

That day when me and Pa met Ma and Cai-tai Auntie in OG PP, I told Cai-tai Auntie I was feeling stressed about school. The adults discussed and concluded that I lack confidence. It's weird. My teachers in kindergarden got me to be the MC for their concert. Omigush, looking back, I was such a brave child at 5. I was a confident child back then. However, I had to do with issues of low self-esteem in secondary school. In JC, it got better after I got to know Hailin and Yeek better, as well as dance peeps in JJ Modern Dance. Everything was stable (let me put aside exams), in terms of friends, CCA, and family. I started jazz in Xen in last June and that was enjoyable too. Confidence came to me more often when I'm emotionally stable.


YOu know, I sometimes wonder what's the matter with me. Some days, I wake up very moody, feeling that everything is just so bad. I want to stop schooling, I want to immerse myself in subbing, watching dramas, songs, chatting non-stop. Basically, a stress-free lifestyle. I very much want to find some place filled with nature to feel peace and tranquility.


But, the good thing is there are some days that I wake up and feel I'm so glad to be living. Like this morning. I was so positive, thinking I must enjoy my limited yrs as a student cos I will not get such a chance after I graduate. Like balmyzz said, "Do enjoy school as you will not be a student forever". THanks balmyzz!

Mmm, guess this mini post is done. m_m I lurve mushrooms! I'm mushroom-crazy after visiting Action City on Saturday with Evelyn @ PS after work in Tour East.



So cute la! I was so totally lifted when I saw the soft toy, the handphone accessory (mushroom) Whee wheet!

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