{/Monday, August 11, 2008, @10:44 AM.
Title: I'm home but I don't know what to do again.
I'm home now, as many would know. It feels like my Yellowstone adventure has never happened. Whatever I did there and the people I met there, it feels non-existent. I wonder when I will stop emo-ing. I asked my mama how do I stop missing Yellowstone, she said "get busy". Hopefully when school starts and I start dancing, I'll stop being so sad...
Have i mentioned that I felt very free in Yellowstone? I just have to be myself, I like to be crazy and do whatever I want to. Though I've had my sad times, times when I cry, my memories of Yellowstone are still fun-filled and happy. I so wanna go back! ARGH! It's different from when I'm at home, I care what others think of me from time to time and bcome self-conscious really easily. Mmm, I shd prolly think about how I could make myself have that free feeling I felt in Yellowstone in Singapore too...!!! Goody good good, something for me to work on.
I'm seriously thinking if I shd make a photo log of what we did in Yellowstone EVERYDAY, well plus my travelling too. It's a lot to do but at least I document whatever I did thr. Helps me sort out what I did thr so I can write in my hand-written diary log better. Even if no one reads it, I read it hee... (self-consolation, great step to being nice to myself, lurving myself and feeling free)
I like...
To be able to lurve myself.
The free feeling of being myself in Yellowstone.
To dance.
I have a little wish to dance in musicals (maybe ambitious looking @ where I stand now - kinda like nowhere) or in theme parks for shows and stuff. So happy dancing, so many colours all around me, so many people having fun at one shot, same place... I had a lot of fun dancing in employees' pub during the monthly parties held! I so enjoy it cos I'm totally crazy.
Thks Cosmin for the amazing salsa dancing, for telling me I'm an amazing dancer til I dunno wad to say, just very very exuberantly surprised. John too, you're a great lead and though I feel like a midget beside you, I had the bestest time dancing with ya. The last time I danced with you, I was panting like mad cos I've never felt so tired from dancing before - what a wonderful way to be tired! I felt like I went all out and sweated it all out! Thks Terence for saying whenever I dance, I sorta change the impression that Americans have of Asians. That is something SO nice of you to say. Thks Mavliuda for telling me what Sasha thinks of my dancing, that he can watch me dance for a long time cos it's so enjoyable. (Oh gush, I feel like I'm self So maybe when I start dancing, I'll get the rush of feeling high like I did when I dance so crazily back in Yellowstone. Everything will be fine, I'll learn to put the past, safekeep it in a little corner of my heart.
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I'm home now, as many would know. It feels like my Yellowstone adventure has never happened. Whatever I did there and the people I met there, it feels non-existent. I wonder when I will stop emo-ing. I asked my mama how do I stop missing Yellowstone, she said "get busy". Hopefully when school starts and I start dancing, I'll stop being so sad...
Have i mentioned that I felt very free in Yellowstone? I just have to be myself, I like to be crazy and do whatever I want to. Though I've had my sad times, times when I cry, my memories of Yellowstone are still fun-filled and happy. I so wanna go back! ARGH! It's different from when I'm at home, I care what others think of me from time to time and bcome self-conscious really easily. Mmm, I shd prolly think about how I could make myself have that free feeling I felt in Yellowstone in Singapore too...!!! Goody good good, something for me to work on.
I'm seriously thinking if I shd make a photo log of what we did in Yellowstone EVERYDAY, well plus my travelling too. It's a lot to do but at least I document whatever I did thr. Helps me sort out what I did thr so I can write in my hand-written diary log better. Even if no one reads it, I read it hee... (self-consolation, great step to being nice to myself, lurving myself and feeling free)
I like...
To be able to lurve myself.
The free feeling of being myself in Yellowstone.
To dance.
I have a little wish to dance in musicals (maybe ambitious looking @ where I stand now - kinda like nowhere) or in theme parks for shows and stuff. So happy dancing, so many colours all around me, so many people having fun at one shot, same place... I had a lot of fun dancing in employees' pub during the monthly parties held! I so enjoy it cos I'm totally crazy.
Thks Cosmin for the amazing salsa dancing, for telling me I'm an amazing dancer til I dunno wad to say, just very very exuberantly surprised. John too, you're a great lead and though I feel like a midget beside you, I had the bestest time dancing with ya. The last time I danced with you, I was panting like mad cos I've never felt so tired from dancing before - what a wonderful way to be tired! I felt like I went all out and sweated it all out! Thks Terence for saying whenever I dance, I sorta change the impression that Americans have of Asians. That is something SO nice of you to say. Thks Mavliuda for telling me what Sasha thinks of my dancing, that he can watch me dance for a long time cos it's so enjoyable. (Oh gush, I feel like I'm self So maybe when I start dancing, I'll get the rush of feeling high like I did when I dance so crazily back in Yellowstone. Everything will be fine, I'll learn to put the past, safekeep it in a little corner of my heart.
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Post Comment - that you lurve Da Dong too haha
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