{/Wednesday, January 13, 2010, @11:53 AM.
{ stop beating yourself up all the time! don't be too serious, take life lightly! qing yi dian! }
最近比较懒，懒很多，非常懒。（sing to “最近比较烦”）
i don't even want to write. like i will have lotsa thoughts i think i wanna write, but i just won't write it. it could be inertia, and it's just fear that i'm not gonna feel good writing it ahhhhhhhhhhhh. COME ON KYLALA, stop "not doing thingS" and just do what your heart commands, de verdad, en serio, jin jia, hontou ni!!!!!!!!!! sooooo JUST DO IT!
but i did feel quite a lot recently, especially from reaching Dallas onwards.............
(okie go and write in your tinkerbell book if you feel that you need to "do some closure" [hope i used the word "closure" correctly] for your dance experiences, feelings...)
Now, Im thinking:
-> it's such a blessing to have your own house when you can do anything you want and you don't have to feel awkward. its good for you to get such a feeling right now in UCLA bcos it'll make you treasure time at home more! like u just always take things for granted.
>>>> break: (inserts) SAY WHAT YOU REALLY MEAN, really mean what you say. go and feel it horrrr...
-> it's sooo good to be travelling with friends actually. i kinda really miss my dear singaporean housemates. i just need to fill my mind with positive thoughts everytime!!!!!
-> BE OPEN TO THINGS!!!!! its always better to try than not trying at all. new quote from xiaoxia today: "when you give it a try, at least there's hope & miracle might happen. but when u failed to give it a try, there's nothing left for you." BE REMINDED OF IT!
-> I kinda feel that as my days pass, since after mexico, I kinda feel like Im more and more, nearer and nearer to BACK TO NORMAL-DAY LIFE. in UCLA now, in the living room and i sleep on the couch and like they are studying and being online and stuff. it's not like life's a party ALL THE TIME. there are different things for different times so if u ignore it, u'll just be missing out what's presented to you, huh...
GAWSHHHH, blogging is so much faster so it's so much better for me because my thoughts race and race. i should blog more often? well and not neglect hANDWRITTEN old-fashioned traditional journal writing too!
REMIND YOURSELF: write write write, new goal: write in different places!!! U want to know what u did, how u felt when u look back 10 yrs? 20 years down the road??? no se............
sooo kylala, while u're in LA, go and do something instead of trying to stay in most of the time. I really like this quote "there is no such word as "hope". whatever will happen will happen anyway." (or something like that from Intercultural Communication textbook, THE WORD "HOPE" in the tamil language) regardless of if it's really just truth and no exceptions, it does set me heart at peace. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF KYLALA OKIEEEEEE... woahhhh and yesterday when i was waiting for an hour for the flyaway bus @ LAx, it just made me feel that "i really adore doing hard work, being hardworking" after carrying all my 2 dos malletas with me everywhere i go, it's tiring. and thanks for Goruma last night seriously. I just feel so bad easily -_- more like "xu xin" (sheepish)...
mylifeisaverage is really good. i really can't wait to go home buttttttt.... ENJOY IT WHILE IM HERE. remember lennard and his twin saying "since im here just go and look at more things loh." “既然在这里就去咯。” in NYC 的时候！ soooooo have an early night, eat breakfast with EP vo and then hang in the library instead of in the suite and then MOVE TO WHEREVER HOSTEL u may go then JP SAN PEDRO'S dance class in Debbie Reynolds... enjoy your time while u're here, 青春不留白！ tut universe does make me feel better and chatting with fridge friend today made me feel better.
Plus, STOP JUDGING PEOPLE. cos when u do, u keep judging yourself cos it's like a thought pattern!!! i should read more to learn more about life huh... im kinda looking forward to the time when 我能霸占整个客厅，然后当厅长again. It's funny huh, why when you want more interaction with people it doesn't really happen........... "wax and wanes of life"? 一切还是随缘好 + 顺其自然。强求只是自己辛苦而已。
IM Thinking, if im going to revive my blog again, i better start putting pictures. but okie, going the random way is sooo good.
i feel THANKFUL for EP VO, for letting me stay, helping me think of how to make things work so im coming back on fri night and sat night but im goin to move to hollywood for like a few nights. and dontttt worry again about whether will make friends or what or won't or what, SUIYUAN LA....... AND treating me her "swipes" so i could eat for free as well. i will buy you something/treat you to something, trust me!!!!!!!!!!!!
cos mostly, it's like "one thing leads to another". plusssssss, stop beating yourself up all the time, “善待自己啦”，“人生已经不容易”（"life is as tough as it is" -> Lily, Serena's Mum said in gossip gurl season 1, one of the last few episodes, she was talking to Eric, addressing his sexual preference.) KAN KAI YI DIAN 看开一点！SOMETIMES, i have the peace of mind i sorta have when i kinda knowingly know somethings though they are rare and few and short-lived back in Mexico, like acknowledging, trusting, believing that "everything has its own time" “慢慢来，急不来的”...
stop looking outwards, u have read this umpteenth times (it's the fundamental and most basic to <3 size="4">自己帮自己打气，加油，especially when u're sort of by yourself!!!
i've come to realize more and more that life likes to play tricks but this unexpectedness is what should make you enjoy the present, right??? it's what makes life fun? otherwise, it's gonna be more boring jaja. watch it unfold, trust in the Goddess la!!! and in yourself! about Fate and Life!
monsters of hiphop FACULTY presentation/showcase. awesome shitt!
ROCK BAND KIDS/FAMILY JAJA! <3>
pjs fotos-taking session!!!!!!! it was a very warm moment, very warm moments, i should say!!!! i miss you all. and it feels weird and kinda surprising (in a nice way) when you miss people you think you wouldn't. like them And my belurveD HOUSEMATES DE singapur! um, don't be too serious la!!!!! don't search for perfection. at least try! don't expect too much, live simply, 一切会变得比较明朗！think of evelyn saying "think of your mental health" “为你的mental health着想”
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i don't even want to write. like i will have lotsa thoughts i think i wanna write, but i just won't write it. it could be inertia, and it's just fear that i'm not gonna feel good writing it ahhhhhhhhhhhh. COME ON KYLALA, stop "not doing thingS" and just do what your heart commands, de verdad, en serio, jin jia, hontou ni!!!!!!!!!! sooooo JUST DO IT!
but i did feel quite a lot recently, especially from reaching Dallas onwards.............
(okie go and write in your tinkerbell book if you feel that you need to "do some closure" [hope i used the word "closure" correctly] for your dance experiences, feelings...)
Now, Im thinking:
-> it's such a blessing to have your own house when you can do anything you want and you don't have to feel awkward. its good for you to get such a feeling right now in UCLA bcos it'll make you treasure time at home more! like u just always take things for granted.
>>>> break: (inserts) SAY WHAT YOU REALLY MEAN, really mean what you say. go and feel it horrrr...
-> it's sooo good to be travelling with friends actually. i kinda really miss my dear singaporean housemates. i just need to fill my mind with positive thoughts everytime!!!!!
-> BE OPEN TO THINGS!!!!! its always better to try than not trying at all. new quote from xiaoxia today: "when you give it a try, at least there's hope & miracle might happen. but when u failed to give it a try, there's nothing left for you." BE REMINDED OF IT!
-> I kinda feel that as my days pass, since after mexico, I kinda feel like Im more and more, nearer and nearer to BACK TO NORMAL-DAY LIFE. in UCLA now, in the living room and i sleep on the couch and like they are studying and being online and stuff. it's not like life's a party ALL THE TIME. there are different things for different times so if u ignore it, u'll just be missing out what's presented to you, huh...
GAWSHHHH, blogging is so much faster so it's so much better for me because my thoughts race and race. i should blog more often? well and not neglect hANDWRITTEN old-fashioned traditional journal writing too!
REMIND YOURSELF: write write write, new goal: write in different places!!! U want to know what u did, how u felt when u look back 10 yrs? 20 years down the road??? no se............
sooo kylala, while u're in LA, go and do something instead of trying to stay in most of the time. I really like this quote "there is no such word as "hope". whatever will happen will happen anyway." (or something like that from Intercultural Communication textbook, THE WORD "HOPE" in the tamil language) regardless of if it's really just truth and no exceptions, it does set me heart at peace. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF KYLALA OKIEEEEEE... woahhhh and yesterday when i was waiting for an hour for the flyaway bus @ LAx, it just made me feel that "i really adore doing hard work, being hardworking" after carrying all my 2 dos malletas with me everywhere i go, it's tiring. and thanks for Goruma last night seriously. I just feel so bad easily -_- more like "xu xin" (sheepish)...
mylifeisaverage is really good. i really can't wait to go home buttttttt.... ENJOY IT WHILE IM HERE. remember lennard and his twin saying "since im here just go and look at more things loh." “既然在这里就去咯。” in NYC 的时候！ soooooo have an early night, eat breakfast with EP vo and then hang in the library instead of in the suite and then MOVE TO WHEREVER HOSTEL u may go then JP SAN PEDRO'S dance class in Debbie Reynolds... enjoy your time while u're here, 青春不留白！ tut universe does make me feel better and chatting with fridge friend today made me feel better.
Plus, STOP JUDGING PEOPLE. cos when u do, u keep judging yourself cos it's like a thought pattern!!! i should read more to learn more about life huh... im kinda looking forward to the time when 我能霸占整个客厅，然后当厅长again. It's funny huh, why when you want more interaction with people it doesn't really happen........... "wax and wanes of life"? 一切还是随缘好 + 顺其自然。强求只是自己辛苦而已。
IM Thinking, if im going to revive my blog again, i better start putting pictures. but okie, going the random way is sooo good.
i feel THANKFUL for EP VO, for letting me stay, helping me think of how to make things work so im coming back on fri night and sat night but im goin to move to hollywood for like a few nights. and dontttt worry again about whether will make friends or what or won't or what, SUIYUAN LA....... AND treating me her "swipes" so i could eat for free as well. i will buy you something/treat you to something, trust me!!!!!!!!!!!!
cos mostly, it's like "one thing leads to another". plusssssss, stop beating yourself up all the time, “善待自己啦”，“人生已经不容易”（"life is as tough as it is" -> Lily, Serena's Mum said in gossip gurl season 1, one of the last few episodes, she was talking to Eric, addressing his sexual preference.) KAN KAI YI DIAN 看开一点！SOMETIMES, i have the peace of mind i sorta have when i kinda knowingly know somethings though they are rare and few and short-lived back in Mexico, like acknowledging, trusting, believing that "everything has its own time" “慢慢来，急不来的”...
stop looking outwards, u have read this umpteenth times (it's the fundamental and most basic to <3 size="4">自己帮自己打气，加油，especially when u're sort of by yourself!!!
i've come to realize more and more that life likes to play tricks but this unexpectedness is what should make you enjoy the present, right??? it's what makes life fun? otherwise, it's gonna be more boring jaja. watch it unfold, trust in the Goddess la!!! and in yourself! about Fate and Life!
monsters of hiphop FACULTY presentation/showcase. awesome shitt!
ROCK BAND KIDS/FAMILY JAJA! <3>
pjs fotos-taking session!!!!!!! it was a very warm moment, very warm moments, i should say!!!! i miss you all. and it feels weird and kinda surprising (in a nice way) when you miss people you think you wouldn't. like them And my belurveD HOUSEMATES DE singapur! um, don't be too serious la!!!!! don't search for perfection. at least try! don't expect too much, live simply, 一切会变得比较明朗！think of evelyn saying "think of your mental health" “为你的mental health着想”
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