{/Wednesday, February 18, 2009, @10:44 PM.
TITLE: Tired but i kinda like it ahha.
I've been dancing quite a lot recently ahhaaaa... Next week's recess week - 4 practices (4 days) whoooooooooooo, i look forward though it's tiring. Shows that I have to sleep earlier and cultivate good sleeping cycle so my body will be at its optimum. Sometimes I worry and am so sad that I'm sleeping so poorly that my body is affected and I'm only 20 arghhhhhh!
I lurve Sengkang Primary School kids haha. I lurve laughing with them and at them! Vanessa asked me today, "Is Kyla ur surname?" I couldn't help but laugh out. So cute then I asked her, "why? you thought I'm malay ar?" She went, "No la, cos Ms Queenie call you Grace... thought you ang moh la!" hahahahahahahhaaaaaa. I told her I'll explain to her later but I forgot cos was too caught up in "diao-ing" (polishing) the kids' stepsssssss ah!
Another thing...
Anna (chinese) told me the move I suggested them to do - nodding your head from side to side while waiting for 4 counts - was "so childish". I said, "But you all are CHILDRENNNNNN leh!" She went, "We primary 6 already leh!!!!!!" haahhhaha, super funny la! I can't help but laugh.
Also, during the first time they danced on stage for everyone else to see (Chinese dance kids, Wingyan, Tze Lin, Yang Ce, Ms Queenie, their teachers in charge - got about 40 to 50 ppl i think) I kept laughing from about half the song onwards... Cos they look pretty stressed and I was directing them and it's just totally hilarious! ahhahhahahha. I was like "oh yesh!" when they hit it, counted correctly or did the right thing. I like my ending, like a flower hahhhhhhh.
Their competition on this Saturday! Ah, I just hope they do everything right - remember. Dun care if win or lose. What's most important is the journey, the process, isn't it? I had fun, that's most important! They learnt that complaining, whining doesn't solve the problem. Song change, then??? Cry, complain, got use? If can't change it, then adapt to it! Really, when you teach others, you're teaching yourself too. I figure out I have kinda high expectations like I want their limbs or body to move in this certain way but I think I just gotta accept that everyone is different. There's no point getting upset, just relax and let it be... Suddenly feel that everything in the world doesn't matter. I've been listening to songs the whole day ahha.
Went to find papa @ work in Joo Chiat complex after dance ended @ 6pm. I bought Mr Bean soy milk for Francis Uncle and him. He can actually tell me the soya bean milk not nice, Joo Chiat complex sell nicer one! AHHHHHH haha, but I'm amused la! I also hung on the handle of the trolley for my dear life when whooooooo! we slid down the carpark slopes! I crouched on papa's trolley and trusted him hahaha! Funny cos I was like saying: "You sure you can? Later something 60-plus kg roll down!" He went, "If you don't trust your father, who should u trust?" hahahahah. I had fun today after all.
Really Kylalalalala, don't think too much. What's yours will be yours. There's a time for everything. So, just enjoy what you have, this very moment. Bcos you'll nv get that moment back. Live in the present, not in the future whereby you know u'll be happy because of something u get and anything. Maybe life shd feel simple, not-very-happening sometimes... Oh gush and read more - to get perspectives on stuff! I re-read The Nanny Diaries today. I shouldn't say re-read, since I didn't finish it at all. I mean I heck care how much I read last time and started from pg 1 again tis time! Suddenly I feel like stressed cos assignments due are finally done for this week!
Oh gush I digress too much! I wanted to blog cos I wan to keep the following on my blog forever (if possible!)... It's from Taina's profile. I wonder who wrote it but thanksssssss!
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I've been dancing quite a lot recently ahhaaaa... Next week's recess week - 4 practices (4 days) whoooooooooooo, i look forward though it's tiring. Shows that I have to sleep earlier and cultivate good sleeping cycle so my body will be at its optimum. Sometimes I worry and am so sad that I'm sleeping so poorly that my body is affected and I'm only 20 arghhhhhh!
I lurve Sengkang Primary School kids haha. I lurve laughing with them and at them! Vanessa asked me today, "Is Kyla ur surname?" I couldn't help but laugh out. So cute then I asked her, "why? you thought I'm malay ar?" She went, "No la, cos Ms Queenie call you Grace... thought you ang moh la!" hahahahahahahhaaaaaa. I told her I'll explain to her later but I forgot cos was too caught up in "diao-ing" (polishing) the kids' stepsssssss ah!
Another thing...
Anna (chinese) told me the move I suggested them to do - nodding your head from side to side while waiting for 4 counts - was "so childish". I said, "But you all are CHILDRENNNNNN leh!" She went, "We primary 6 already leh!!!!!!" haahhhaha, super funny la! I can't help but laugh.
Also, during the first time they danced on stage for everyone else to see (Chinese dance kids, Wingyan, Tze Lin, Yang Ce, Ms Queenie, their teachers in charge - got about 40 to 50 ppl i think) I kept laughing from about half the song onwards... Cos they look pretty stressed and I was directing them and it's just totally hilarious! ahhahhahahha. I was like "oh yesh!" when they hit it, counted correctly or did the right thing. I like my ending, like a flower hahhhhhhh.
Their competition on this Saturday! Ah, I just hope they do everything right - remember. Dun care if win or lose. What's most important is the journey, the process, isn't it? I had fun, that's most important! They learnt that complaining, whining doesn't solve the problem. Song change, then??? Cry, complain, got use? If can't change it, then adapt to it! Really, when you teach others, you're teaching yourself too. I figure out I have kinda high expectations like I want their limbs or body to move in this certain way but I think I just gotta accept that everyone is different. There's no point getting upset, just relax and let it be... Suddenly feel that everything in the world doesn't matter. I've been listening to songs the whole day ahha.
Went to find papa @ work in Joo Chiat complex after dance ended @ 6pm. I bought Mr Bean soy milk for Francis Uncle and him. He can actually tell me the soya bean milk not nice, Joo Chiat complex sell nicer one! AHHHHHH haha, but I'm amused la! I also hung on the handle of the trolley for my dear life when whooooooo! we slid down the carpark slopes! I crouched on papa's trolley and trusted him hahaha! Funny cos I was like saying: "You sure you can? Later something 60-plus kg roll down!" He went, "If you don't trust your father, who should u trust?" hahahahah. I had fun today after all.
Really Kylalalalala, don't think too much. What's yours will be yours. There's a time for everything. So, just enjoy what you have, this very moment. Bcos you'll nv get that moment back. Live in the present, not in the future whereby you know u'll be happy because of something u get and anything. Maybe life shd feel simple, not-very-happening sometimes... Oh gush and read more - to get perspectives on stuff! I re-read The Nanny Diaries today. I shouldn't say re-read, since I didn't finish it at all. I mean I heck care how much I read last time and started from pg 1 again tis time! Suddenly I feel like stressed cos assignments due are finally done for this week!
Oh gush I digress too much! I wanted to blog cos I wan to keep the following on my blog forever (if possible!)... It's from Taina's profile. I wonder who wrote it but thanksssssss!
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than the ones you did. So sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover!"
--- suddenly, I feel that I really need to go to Mexico since I've got the offer!
--- suddenly, I feel that I really need to go to Mexico since I've got the offer!
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{/Sunday, February 15, 2009, @12:03 AM.
{ Yeah, I finally found HUI YOU TIAN SHI TI WO AI NI }
TITLE: Yeah, I finally found HUI YOU TIAN SHI TI WO AI NI
Happy V day everyone!
Happy birthday Papa - u're 56 haha!
I had a pretty happy day! Dance prac for JDC in the afternoon, I bought new shoes and some little gifts for Fanny and Ah Fu! But I need to be a good gurl and not be a lazy bum to send them out in letters ahhaha! Pls don't fail me again, Postal Services All Around the World! My letters to Taiwan & Russia didn't reach! Boo, so sad...
Neways, I'm so happyyyyyyy i was like hummming a little song - it's the theme song for Doraemon - weird but anyway, yeah yeah yeah, I finally found it! The book "Hui You Tian Shi Ti Wo Ai Ni" by Ming Xiao Xi is one great novel! Haha, but I'm left with a lil bit at the end. I know that a TV series has been produced, adapted from this book! I've waited so long, searched high and low for it but to no avail. But now finally, it's on tudou! YEahhhhhhhhhhh yeah baby hahaha....
HAPPY 21ST TO JENNIFER CHIN! HAHAHAH! I had fun at your party! :D
I'm back to watching my show so I can't crap anymore haha. I should so study but...... hahaha.. Suddenly, I feel like being blown away by all sorts of stories in the world. Literature haha. I was reading National Geographic 2005 (one of the mths can't rmb which) issue hahah. The world is so beautiful! Should I go to Mexico or not????? AHHHHHH. Need to do my assignments arghhh!
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Happy V day everyone!
Happy birthday Papa - u're 56 haha!
I had a pretty happy day! Dance prac for JDC in the afternoon, I bought new shoes and some little gifts for Fanny and Ah Fu! But I need to be a good gurl and not be a lazy bum to send them out in letters ahhaha! Pls don't fail me again, Postal Services All Around the World! My letters to Taiwan & Russia didn't reach! Boo, so sad...
Neways, I'm so happyyyyyyy i was like hummming a little song - it's the theme song for Doraemon - weird but anyway, yeah yeah yeah, I finally found it! The book "Hui You Tian Shi Ti Wo Ai Ni" by Ming Xiao Xi is one great novel! Haha, but I'm left with a lil bit at the end. I know that a TV series has been produced, adapted from this book! I've waited so long, searched high and low for it but to no avail. But now finally, it's on tudou! YEahhhhhhhhhhh yeah baby hahaha....
HAPPY 21ST TO JENNIFER CHIN! HAHAHAH! I had fun at your party! :D
I'm back to watching my show so I can't crap anymore haha. I should so study but...... hahaha.. Suddenly, I feel like being blown away by all sorts of stories in the world. Literature haha. I was reading National Geographic 2005 (one of the mths can't rmb which) issue hahah. The world is so beautiful! Should I go to Mexico or not????? AHHHHHH. Need to do my assignments arghhh!
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{/Monday, February 09, 2009, @5:44 PM.
{ Oh gush, Evelyn, you're only gone for like 3 days? And I miss you already... }
TITLE: Oh gush, Evelyn, you're only gone for like 3 days? And I miss you already...
from Eve's blog http://ulovemeso.livejournal.com
"anw here is a quote i read online which i rem as:
the thoughts than run through your head
are the thoughts u have been taught to think
the life that u live now
is the life u choose to live
any chance of changing that is by using
the time u currently have"
I miss you already...
Today I have less troubling thoughts, cos I was too tired! Finally finished HC202 reports and to find out that it's a hoax! There was no need to be stressed cos anything you write would be wrong anyway ahaha... Feels cheated.
Argh bt I have HC213 presentation coming up this thursday, my first presentation ever - i so need to read up!
There were 2 thoughts I had last night...
One was, I think we take it for granted that the future will happen as how we expect it to be. Maybe that's cos in current society, everything is about making plans in the future, that's how we live. But if we were to think, in the past, before all these cities and urbanization took over the world, we don't know what will happen in the future. That's how we forgot along the way that the future is indeed unpredictable. I find it hard to like really believe it but the past proves that at a previous point in time, I had no idea something like that or bla bla would ever happen...
I try to make myself better by feeling that for every moment I feel troubled/pissed/unhappy/grumpy, that moment wasn't a good one. It wasn't enjoyed. And it's gone and there's no way that moment would come back. That said, I'm supposed to be happy all the time... Ain't it? But Sang says she thinks I enjoy being in a troubled state sometimes. I used to be troubled over the fact that I have to say goodbye to yellowstone no matter what. Now, I'm troubled over not having found my true lurve. But my interests always change. It's fleeting. Impermanence.
And maybe, being troubled/sad/pissed in any moment is experiencing life too, isn't it? Bad and good, or maybe it just depends on how we look at it, they are all part of life? Maybe I have that idea rooted in me, so I find it hard to get rid of feeling troubled cos I enjoy it somehow?
Somehow, I'm afraid of going to Mexico. It sounds daunting... Haix... My gush, I used to be so excited about it! I just read on some testimony by some student that you have to beware of all the monster cockroaches everywhere you go!!!!!!!! How? I'm scared! I'm already scared enough of wisdom tooth operation if I have to go through it... I'm such a scaredy cat. 吴凯拉，勇敢一点！拿出你在黄石的那种冒险精神！Be brave! But it's still quite some time away haha.
My gush, but why am I feeling so scared? During exams last November, I was so worried my GPA would drop cos I'm scared I'm not eligible for INSTEP if my GPA drops to below 3.6. I wanted to go so badly at that time! Felt so bored with Singapore - like I wanted to LIVE, like how I felt in Yellowstone - being in a foreign place and all... But I'm scared now. I shd stop thinking about it haha! 想太多真是我的问题所在啊。我现在得去读有关一些人生哲理的书哈哈。
Last night, we were watching "Wu Lin Da Dao" - dancing variety show (Taiwan) and my parents fell asleep on the couch. I watched them, I felt so blessed. That they're right beside me. They've indeed aged over the years and I realized I do lurve them, very much. I felt warmth in my heart as I gazed at them like that. I think I can't bear to leave them for 5/6 mths. But then, today, I realized there's a very high possibility I might regret not going for INSTEP if I had a chance. So, lemme make it happen then! Better live my life to the fullest! Haha...
If I were to think about what I'm happy about myself, I think it would have to be my teeth, my eyebrows, my mouth, my thick hair (only if the fringe isn't that short. but bcos it pisses me off now, it goes to show how secure and happy i was when it was flatter cos it was thicker and longer), i kinda like to think that my eyes help me ward off all evil cos it goes up at the end haha. "phoenix eyes" but mine are really small ones haha. I like my nose when it's together with the rest of my features ahha. I lurve my hands and legs, cos after all, without them, I wouldn't have the ability to dance. Maybe it's time I watched some really sad and inspiring shows, like "one litre of tears"...
I'm so tired again so why am I blogging again? I should prolly nap. Hahaha... Lemme post some new year pics - when i got a lil' drunk/tipsy on New Year's Day this year 2009!
Taken on 01 Jan 2009 @ Sam's house - thanks for the vodka!
Thanks to my dear papa who came to fetch us, Mama came back
from Ayer Tawar that night too haha!
Some random pics I took during our last day in Jemaluang
for CNY this year... 28 Jan 2009 (Wed)
Haha, Ah Xian, my niece cries so cutely ahha...
Lemme be happy, in every state I'm in. Gush, I just realized it's time for me to search for inspiration again. Like there are certain times when I feel so unmotivated. Like I need to seek some inspiration or enlightenment, the only way is thru other sources, not myself. Like books, shows, other people and bla bla haha...
I miss ya Evelyn!
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from Eve's blog http://ulovemeso.livejournal.com
"anw here is a quote i read online which i rem as:
the thoughts than run through your head
are the thoughts u have been taught to think
the life that u live now
is the life u choose to live
any chance of changing that is by using
the time u currently have"
I miss you already...
Today I have less troubling thoughts, cos I was too tired! Finally finished HC202 reports and to find out that it's a hoax! There was no need to be stressed cos anything you write would be wrong anyway ahaha... Feels cheated.
Argh bt I have HC213 presentation coming up this thursday, my first presentation ever - i so need to read up!
There were 2 thoughts I had last night...
One was, I think we take it for granted that the future will happen as how we expect it to be. Maybe that's cos in current society, everything is about making plans in the future, that's how we live. But if we were to think, in the past, before all these cities and urbanization took over the world, we don't know what will happen in the future. That's how we forgot along the way that the future is indeed unpredictable. I find it hard to like really believe it but the past proves that at a previous point in time, I had no idea something like that or bla bla would ever happen...
I try to make myself better by feeling that for every moment I feel troubled/pissed/unhappy/grumpy, that moment wasn't a good one. It wasn't enjoyed. And it's gone and there's no way that moment would come back. That said, I'm supposed to be happy all the time... Ain't it? But Sang says she thinks I enjoy being in a troubled state sometimes. I used to be troubled over the fact that I have to say goodbye to yellowstone no matter what. Now, I'm troubled over not having found my true lurve. But my interests always change. It's fleeting. Impermanence.
And maybe, being troubled/sad/pissed in any moment is experiencing life too, isn't it? Bad and good, or maybe it just depends on how we look at it, they are all part of life? Maybe I have that idea rooted in me, so I find it hard to get rid of feeling troubled cos I enjoy it somehow?
Somehow, I'm afraid of going to Mexico. It sounds daunting... Haix... My gush, I used to be so excited about it! I just read on some testimony by some student that you have to beware of all the monster cockroaches everywhere you go!!!!!!!! How? I'm scared! I'm already scared enough of wisdom tooth operation if I have to go through it... I'm such a scaredy cat. 吴凯拉，勇敢一点！拿出你在黄石的那种冒险精神！Be brave! But it's still quite some time away haha.
My gush, but why am I feeling so scared? During exams last November, I was so worried my GPA would drop cos I'm scared I'm not eligible for INSTEP if my GPA drops to below 3.6. I wanted to go so badly at that time! Felt so bored with Singapore - like I wanted to LIVE, like how I felt in Yellowstone - being in a foreign place and all... But I'm scared now. I shd stop thinking about it haha! 想太多真是我的问题所在啊。我现在得去读有关一些人生哲理的书哈哈。
Last night, we were watching "Wu Lin Da Dao" - dancing variety show (Taiwan) and my parents fell asleep on the couch. I watched them, I felt so blessed. That they're right beside me. They've indeed aged over the years and I realized I do lurve them, very much. I felt warmth in my heart as I gazed at them like that. I think I can't bear to leave them for 5/6 mths. But then, today, I realized there's a very high possibility I might regret not going for INSTEP if I had a chance. So, lemme make it happen then! Better live my life to the fullest! Haha...
If I were to think about what I'm happy about myself, I think it would have to be my teeth, my eyebrows, my mouth, my thick hair (only if the fringe isn't that short. but bcos it pisses me off now, it goes to show how secure and happy i was when it was flatter cos it was thicker and longer), i kinda like to think that my eyes help me ward off all evil cos it goes up at the end haha. "phoenix eyes" but mine are really small ones haha. I like my nose when it's together with the rest of my features ahha. I lurve my hands and legs, cos after all, without them, I wouldn't have the ability to dance. Maybe it's time I watched some really sad and inspiring shows, like "one litre of tears"...
I'm so tired again so why am I blogging again? I should prolly nap. Hahaha... Lemme post some new year pics - when i got a lil' drunk/tipsy on New Year's Day this year 2009!
Taken on 01 Jan 2009 @ Sam's house - thanks for the vodka!
Thanks to my dear papa who came to fetch us, Mama came back
from Ayer Tawar that night too haha!
Some random pics I took during our last day in Jemaluang
for CNY this year... 28 Jan 2009 (Wed)
Haha, Ah Xian, my niece cries so cutely ahha...
Lemme be happy, in every state I'm in. Gush, I just realized it's time for me to search for inspiration again. Like there are certain times when I feel so unmotivated. Like I need to seek some inspiration or enlightenment, the only way is thru other sources, not myself. Like books, shows, other people and bla bla haha...
I miss ya Evelyn!
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@2:22 AM.
{ On Saturday night - my realization - 不适合闲着的人 }
TITLE: On Saturday night - my realization - 不适合闲着的人
星期六晚上： （多谢怀玉哈哈）
我又发现了一点... 其实这一点一直存在，也许是我忽略了。也许是我以为自己(因去了黄石后）已改变。也许是一直以来都没有很自觉地觉察到这一点...
我是一个很不适合闲着的人。
最近，我脑里的念头转得很快。只要我一没有专心做某件事，脑里很多声音就会一直响起。一只质问我做这个是干嘛，做那个是干嘛... 我好像时不时就需要很烦或很不开心一阵子。那是一个循环，也许这就是有起有落的人生吧。
Sexaye M. : Just for you, in case you're wondering what I wrote above, it just means I'm someone who shouldn't be free & having nothing to do cos it's just so unsuitable for me. Also like, maybe this point about me exists, all along, just that I wasn't very conscious about it.
Saturday was a random day! Yeah I had fun! So much fun! Proves that I need to hang out with Yeek & Hai Hailin more often! Chong Yan too - earlier part of the day hahah :D I spent quite alot, on food and movie and cabs... Well, cabs being divided by 3/4 people isn't that ex.
I should so get back to doing HC202 assignment. It's due 8 hours later - 1030am!
ARGHHHHHH...
Neways, Yeek's house is pretty fun. I like both Hai Hailin's and Yeek's house! I always wonder what to do in other people's house but in the end, I always have fun... Except maybe for the aftermath of a sleepover (that so seldomly happens in my life) haha...
Dear Evelyn, Ding Tai Fung, wherever you are. Hope you are safe and sound, at peace and happy! Miss ya!
Sometimes, I just let myself be. I want to see how long I can sustain being in the troubled state. But worryingly, it has been for a week? Not good. I should so stop all thoughts. I'd always think back to Yellowstone, how I had such a yell of a time there. How I lurved being there. I didn't need to have a lot, I just wanted to have more days there and everyday, I'm living. Weird, aren't I living in Singapore now? Maybe there's so much to sort out about life? We're making use of life, this "life that is given once" to learn and experience.
It's time I start having faith, even a little hope is better than none at all. If it's meant to be, it will be. Quoting from Charmed (one of my fave shows) Season 2, episode 22, Leo, "Everything happens at its own time. You can't wish what's to be."
Let nature take its course and bla... Live in the moment. In this very moment, I'm not in pain, that's enough. I'm in good health, not handicapped in any way, I have my parents and my friends. I think being contented needs to be learnt.
Most probably, I'm going to MEXICO 哈哈哈哈哈哈。
Why am I blogging at this very hour, it's 2.38am ahhhh, need to sleep and wake up to do my 2 reports of 100 words each... I just wasn't in the mood to study at all for the whole of Sunday. But at least, I've finished choreo for "Promise Ring" finally cos I dozed off reading Lao She's "Si Shi Tong Tang" on the couch ahha.
Pics on 06 Feb 2009 (Fri) - Evelyn's date of departure
my lurvely cakes frm emicakes in kbox clementi!
i took like 30 over pics of myself again ahhaahahaa... after i returned home from klunch. i shared emicakes with Angel (the robot), Kailing and Evelyn. singing in the moment... enjoyed haha.
outside my house... *hugs you eve again* update ur blog regularly pls, miss ding tai fung.
07 Feb 2009 (Saturday)
Arts From the Heart @ Toa Payoh hub
manager for NTU contemp dance club - just kidding haa!
1st pic: i'm posting it for u cos u look so nice!
2nd pic: finally one that all of us looks nice ha!
i was rather pissed cos of my toopid fringe that keeps flying
so i had to take and re-take haha!
Frm late afternoon onwards...
A very random day haha!
Yeek's "on a fateful Saturday" - what a photo album title haha!
I LURVEEEEEEEE YOU GURLSSSSSSSSS - LET'S GET TOGETHER MORE OFTEN!
THE MORE WE GET TOGETHER, TOGETHER, TOGETHER. SING IT HAHA!
the first place i "bai-nian"ed in Singapore this CNY!
thanks for having us at your place - proof of going to Yeek's place aha!
pics of cab-hailing too!
New fren frm XiAN haha, "Xi-an boy" haha... but he looks a lil' korean so funny!
Chi Bi is woot! I watched Chi Bi 2 without watching the first!
My super limited knowledge of "Romance of the 3 Kingdoms" could actually make me recognize ZhuGe Liang and Zhou Yu even before their names were mentioned yeah haha!
Oh yah and Yeek, u really make me laugh out loud and super amused at some of the silliest things you say. Or maybe, I'm the silly one. Like of course it's Zhou Yu who feels the most pain after Xiao Qiao crushes on him, falls from such a high place haha. But who knows, Lin Zhiling could be a stick who weighes the same as a piece of paper? Maybe her foetus Ping An 3 mths old is heavier than her?
okie fine, i lack common sense ahha. so be it, so what? hahah :p
The only way for my current fringe to make me look presentable and not scary to other fellow human beings is for my face to be photographed from the front! Yeah....
Be amazed by the world - be blown away by all the amazing things...
It seems as if writing things out make it easier to believe!
Thank you to you (whoever) who invented the system of writing and words!
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星期六晚上： （多谢怀玉哈哈）
我又发现了一点... 其实这一点一直存在，也许是我忽略了。也许是我以为自己(因去了黄石后）已改变。也许是一直以来都没有很自觉地觉察到这一点...
我是一个很不适合闲着的人。
最近，我脑里的念头转得很快。只要我一没有专心做某件事，脑里很多声音就会一直响起。一只质问我做这个是干嘛，做那个是干嘛... 我好像时不时就需要很烦或很不开心一阵子。那是一个循环，也许这就是有起有落的人生吧。
Sexaye M. : Just for you, in case you're wondering what I wrote above, it just means I'm someone who shouldn't be free & having nothing to do cos it's just so unsuitable for me. Also like, maybe this point about me exists, all along, just that I wasn't very conscious about it.
Saturday was a random day! Yeah I had fun! So much fun! Proves that I need to hang out with Yeek & Hai Hailin more often! Chong Yan too - earlier part of the day hahah :D I spent quite alot, on food and movie and cabs... Well, cabs being divided by 3/4 people isn't that ex.
I should so get back to doing HC202 assignment. It's due 8 hours later - 1030am!
ARGHHHHHH...
Neways, Yeek's house is pretty fun. I like both Hai Hailin's and Yeek's house! I always wonder what to do in other people's house but in the end, I always have fun... Except maybe for the aftermath of a sleepover (that so seldomly happens in my life) haha...
Dear Evelyn, Ding Tai Fung, wherever you are. Hope you are safe and sound, at peace and happy! Miss ya!
Sometimes, I just let myself be. I want to see how long I can sustain being in the troubled state. But worryingly, it has been for a week? Not good. I should so stop all thoughts. I'd always think back to Yellowstone, how I had such a yell of a time there. How I lurved being there. I didn't need to have a lot, I just wanted to have more days there and everyday, I'm living. Weird, aren't I living in Singapore now? Maybe there's so much to sort out about life? We're making use of life, this "life that is given once" to learn and experience.
It's time I start having faith, even a little hope is better than none at all. If it's meant to be, it will be. Quoting from Charmed (one of my fave shows) Season 2, episode 22, Leo, "Everything happens at its own time. You can't wish what's to be."
Let nature take its course and bla... Live in the moment. In this very moment, I'm not in pain, that's enough. I'm in good health, not handicapped in any way, I have my parents and my friends. I think being contented needs to be learnt.
Most probably, I'm going to MEXICO 哈哈哈哈哈哈。
Why am I blogging at this very hour, it's 2.38am ahhhh, need to sleep and wake up to do my 2 reports of 100 words each... I just wasn't in the mood to study at all for the whole of Sunday. But at least, I've finished choreo for "Promise Ring" finally cos I dozed off reading Lao She's "Si Shi Tong Tang" on the couch ahha.
Pics on 06 Feb 2009 (Fri) - Evelyn's date of departure
my lurvely cakes frm emicakes in kbox clementi!
i took like 30 over pics of myself again ahhaahahaa... after i returned home from klunch. i shared emicakes with Angel (the robot), Kailing and Evelyn. singing in the moment... enjoyed haha.
outside my house... *hugs you eve again* update ur blog regularly pls, miss ding tai fung.
07 Feb 2009 (Saturday)
Arts From the Heart @ Toa Payoh hub
manager for NTU contemp dance club - just kidding haa!
1st pic: i'm posting it for u cos u look so nice!
2nd pic: finally one that all of us looks nice ha!
i was rather pissed cos of my toopid fringe that keeps flying
so i had to take and re-take haha!
Frm late afternoon onwards...
A very random day haha!
Yeek's "on a fateful Saturday" - what a photo album title haha!
I LURVEEEEEEEE YOU GURLSSSSSSSSS - LET'S GET TOGETHER MORE OFTEN!
THE MORE WE GET TOGETHER, TOGETHER, TOGETHER. SING IT HAHA!
the first place i "bai-nian"ed in Singapore this CNY!
thanks for having us at your place - proof of going to Yeek's place aha!
pics of cab-hailing too!
New fren frm XiAN haha, "Xi-an boy" haha... but he looks a lil' korean so funny!
Chi Bi is woot! I watched Chi Bi 2 without watching the first!
My super limited knowledge of "Romance of the 3 Kingdoms" could actually make me recognize ZhuGe Liang and Zhou Yu even before their names were mentioned yeah haha!
Oh yah and Yeek, u really make me laugh out loud and super amused at some of the silliest things you say. Or maybe, I'm the silly one. Like of course it's Zhou Yu who feels the most pain after Xiao Qiao crushes on him, falls from such a high place haha. But who knows, Lin Zhiling could be a stick who weighes the same as a piece of paper? Maybe her foetus Ping An 3 mths old is heavier than her?
okie fine, i lack common sense ahha. so be it, so what? hahah :p
The only way for my current fringe to make me look presentable and not scary to other fellow human beings is for my face to be photographed from the front! Yeah....
Be amazed by the world - be blown away by all the amazing things...
It seems as if writing things out make it easier to believe!
Thank you to you (whoever) who invented the system of writing and words!
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TITLE: Natural talents... oooh, food for thought... Maybe... Not that much...
I think I don't know what lurve means.
Like how do you know what you feel is lurve. So maybe I've never lurved before. It's just saying and thinking that I do but I don't ... Get it?
Maybe I should so adopt the mysterious way of writing as observed on Sexaye M.'s blog? Gives my blog just that extra bit of spice? A different spice?
All my misery comes from expectations. To think that I don't realize having them until someone points them out or after all the analyzing (sometimes over-analyzing) I do... From now onwards, I will remind myself not to have expectations that are too high. When I don't get what I want, I'm unsatisfied and feel sad about it.
How is it possible that some days you can be so happy but on others, you wake up feeling like crap and there's nothing to look forward to?
Maybe Phuture will do me some good this coming Friday. Dancing all over again, I want to feel that high of dancing again. Like how I felt in Yellowstone and days before I went there... Well, I guess lurving means I don't want to lose it? Taking care of it? Missing it when I don't have it? Am I nearer to what that means?
Currently, I feel I have a lot on my hands and it's bugging me like mad. 1st precis for Hc332 due tmr 12pm and translation assignment too. I have to read my long novels of Ba Jin's and Lao She's to be able to even think about what I want to write for my mini-thesis for HC301 Modern Literature.
Thanks for all the memories, Chong Min & Mingmin (aka Justice Bao, Green Day - Qing Tian hahha, mushroom). All the laughing at our belurve Denggay did me lotsa good! I should so write down all the funny things before I forget. "Ah, why am I wearing it too?" Ah... I used to write a lot of daily happenings in mi little book of "Memoirs", making my life seem so simple/ordinary yet having a vibrant life and different colours?
I should keep this in mind:
"Live for myself more" [多为自己而活]
"Live in the moment - enjoy the moment" [活在当下，享受每时每刻]
Literature makes me feel happy. It makes me feel sad too. I like to read those little stories or long stories - doing things you like (repeating it) is what makes you happy. But maybe bcos of that, I like to be sad? I dunno, maybe... maybe not. This is a post in which I do not have to be clear, I haven't a clear idea myself too haha.
我应该多写华文。忽然不知怎么写。我现在就写一些废的吧。我的室友不在，她回马来西亚了。她的生日是2月1日。啊，吕翠桑她今年21岁，在这儿祝她生日快乐，新年快乐！
我得多想想小时候的我如何度过无忧无虑的生活。为什么长大后的我那么时常无病呻吟？我甚至觉得自己喜欢烦恼。好像有烦恼就等于我存在哈哈。好歪的理哦。有时候，我想我喜欢和没那么熟的人一起玩耍、聊不开心的事或简单地聊天。他们对你的认识只会慢慢地增加，很多时候，他们会惊讶。糟了，有点词穷，证明我是很需要去提高我的华文程度。
我还蛮喜欢高教授在 HT301 分享她的生活点滴。我越来越觉得她是一个很会过生活的人。像我本身，我就觉得自己不大会过生活。在黄石时很会过。现在，我只想random一点吧。别以为我说的是废话！今天，她说每个人在某项才能或任何事情的能力和自己真正能够达到的最高点是有好一段距离的。只要有适当的方法，就能达到那个最高境界。此外，每个人都有自己独特、与生俱来的一些天生的才能 (natural talent)。只要找到自己的 natural talents, 而且好好运用及发展，并且追寻它（们），你就能够从中获得很多乐趣。Like it's your calling! Maybe mine is language, cos I'm really interested and I seem to be the best in my languages (cos everything else sucks - academically haha).
想太多真是我的问题所在。可是，如果自己勉强说服自己说别想那么多，我又会觉得好像少做了什么似的。我真是一个矛盾的小妹哈哈！我得看多点书 （小说啊、什么都看吧，但我还真得蛮喜欢看有故事的书。偶尔来写散文也不错哈哈），增广见闻，真地会觉得世界真的是辽阔无边！
thks muffins, i like this pic haha.
has that glowy kind of effect, red makes me happy i realize :D
my Denggay buddiessssssssssssssss... cheers to all the laughing moments and my stomach, belly muscles can work so hard during those moments ahha!
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I think I don't know what lurve means.
Like how do you know what you feel is lurve. So maybe I've never lurved before. It's just saying and thinking that I do but I don't ... Get it?
Maybe I should so adopt the mysterious way of writing as observed on Sexaye M.'s blog? Gives my blog just that extra bit of spice? A different spice?
All my misery comes from expectations. To think that I don't realize having them until someone points them out or after all the analyzing (sometimes over-analyzing) I do... From now onwards, I will remind myself not to have expectations that are too high. When I don't get what I want, I'm unsatisfied and feel sad about it.
How is it possible that some days you can be so happy but on others, you wake up feeling like crap and there's nothing to look forward to?
Maybe Phuture will do me some good this coming Friday. Dancing all over again, I want to feel that high of dancing again. Like how I felt in Yellowstone and days before I went there... Well, I guess lurving means I don't want to lose it? Taking care of it? Missing it when I don't have it? Am I nearer to what that means?
Currently, I feel I have a lot on my hands and it's bugging me like mad. 1st precis for Hc332 due tmr 12pm and translation assignment too. I have to read my long novels of Ba Jin's and Lao She's to be able to even think about what I want to write for my mini-thesis for HC301 Modern Literature.
Thanks for all the memories, Chong Min & Mingmin (aka Justice Bao, Green Day - Qing Tian hahha, mushroom). All the laughing at our belurve Denggay did me lotsa good! I should so write down all the funny things before I forget. "Ah, why am I wearing it too?" Ah... I used to write a lot of daily happenings in mi little book of "Memoirs", making my life seem so simple/ordinary yet having a vibrant life and different colours?
I should keep this in mind:
"Live for myself more" [多为自己而活]
"Live in the moment - enjoy the moment" [活在当下，享受每时每刻]
Literature makes me feel happy. It makes me feel sad too. I like to read those little stories or long stories - doing things you like (repeating it) is what makes you happy. But maybe bcos of that, I like to be sad? I dunno, maybe... maybe not. This is a post in which I do not have to be clear, I haven't a clear idea myself too haha.
我应该多写华文。忽然不知怎么写。我现在就写一些废的吧。我的室友不在，她回马来西亚了。她的生日是2月1日。啊，吕翠桑她今年21岁，在这儿祝她生日快乐，新年快乐！
我得多想想小时候的我如何度过无忧无虑的生活。为什么长大后的我那么时常无病呻吟？我甚至觉得自己喜欢烦恼。好像有烦恼就等于我存在哈哈。好歪的理哦。有时候，我想我喜欢和没那么熟的人一起玩耍、聊不开心的事或简单地聊天。他们对你的认识只会慢慢地增加，很多时候，他们会惊讶。糟了，有点词穷，证明我是很需要去提高我的华文程度。
我还蛮喜欢高教授在 HT301 分享她的生活点滴。我越来越觉得她是一个很会过生活的人。像我本身，我就觉得自己不大会过生活。在黄石时很会过。现在，我只想random一点吧。别以为我说的是废话！今天，她说每个人在某项才能或任何事情的能力和自己真正能够达到的最高点是有好一段距离的。只要有适当的方法，就能达到那个最高境界。此外，每个人都有自己独特、与生俱来的一些天生的才能 (natural talent)。只要找到自己的 natural talents, 而且好好运用及发展，并且追寻它（们），你就能够从中获得很多乐趣。Like it's your calling! Maybe mine is language, cos I'm really interested and I seem to be the best in my languages (cos everything else sucks - academically haha).
想太多真是我的问题所在。可是，如果自己勉强说服自己说别想那么多，我又会觉得好像少做了什么似的。我真是一个矛盾的小妹哈哈！我得看多点书 （小说啊、什么都看吧，但我还真得蛮喜欢看有故事的书。偶尔来写散文也不错哈哈），增广见闻，真地会觉得世界真的是辽阔无边！
thks muffins, i like this pic haha.
has that glowy kind of effect, red makes me happy i realize :D
my Denggay buddiessssssssssssssss... cheers to all the laughing moments and my stomach, belly muscles can work so hard during those moments ahha!
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i want that group pic from yesterday's dinner!!
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